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God in Ancient China

2012-01-23T02:14:00.000+08:00

Chinese New year is New Year in the Chinese Calendar...Not really a religious celebration but just celebrating NEW YEAR like the 1st of January la...hence the word Chinese New Year.

It's a culture/budaya thing not a religion thing.
So YES, every CHINESE in the world celebrates it eventhough they are not Buddhist or Taoist. Yes, that includes Chinese Christians celebrate CNY too ok.

But anyway, people think that Christianity is a Western Religion, People think Chinese Christians are forsaking their roots...watch the video...

Gov conspiracy

2012-01-09T18:55:00.002+08:00

Today when I read the news that there were 2 bomb explosion during the FREE ANWAR CAMPAIGN, immediately I thought of an article that I was reading just a few days ago as a preparation for my Sports Media exam paper.

1968, students on the Tlatelolco square in Mexico had a protest and the government massacred the protesters just a few weeks before the Olympic. The interesting thing was that the government was the one behind the massacre but claimed that it was the students that started the shooting.
Many years later it was revealed that the Olympic Brigade that was made up of special forces of the presidential guard were the ones to provoke the massacre by shooting the government soldiers...

O.o

Kinda like the fiction novel Angels and Demons by Dan Brown where the Vatican leader was the one that posed as the Illuminati (secret community which is killing vaticans) in order to make people more religious...Meaning he injured his own people and bluff the community so that they be more faithful and passionate in the religion...

protests and extrinsic factors

2012-01-01T18:55:00.001+08:00

I don't know much about protest and all but as a University student, I suddenly have many chances to be involved in this protest and of cause even if I wanted I wouldn't take part due to my scholarship agreement. The ironic part is, I find out about all these protest through the UM portal and emails from the UM admin which sends us a prohibition email and wallposts to NOT join the protest.

Why do I find that ironic? Well, when they tell us NOT to join the protest...it is there that some of us find out "Oh, there's a protest coming soon". LoL, I mean if they didn't post or email us then lesser people will know about the protest right? In a way, the UM authorities are actually indirectly promoting the protests...huhu.

next topic- new year.
It's 2012 and I quite dread it as I'm starting it with stuffs like EXAMs and Palapes Laut training.
Last year (2010), a friend asked me to join the Borneo marathon and I immediately said Yes without thinking.
Now after sometime, I weight the factors and kind of regret it. I mean just to fly to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah would be about Rm 200 single way. That's Rm 400 for two ways,and then the registration is rm65 for early birds. On top of that, I have to think How am I going to the airport(KLIA) and How much am I going to spend on food.

That's like about RM500 just for a run? The prizes and goodie bags are not that great too. The prize is till 5th place (so not achievable for me)
To me, it seems like there's not much extrinsic factors to weigh out the cost I am about to use. NOT WORTH it. I am like, come on, spend half a thousand for a normal run, if I do it in KL, there will be better goodiebag and the prizes are more worth it and don't have to fly there.
I rather save that RM 500 to pay back PTPTN or sponsor a child's education with Care Channels or use it for rugby tournaments.

I don't have enough passion or interest in this event to spend so much money. Many of my coursemates, palapes mates can testify that I am very caution with my money spending.

But the problem now is how do I say NO to a promise I already made? How can I FFK?(fong fei kei, literally 'fly an airplane' which means break my promise)

Another thing about last year. I regret that I tried to help this postgrad student in his research. He was in such a stalking mode and inquire many personal information and of cause I immediately realised this is not his research related and then ignored him. It's either some kind of cultural shock that I'm facing since he's an American or this master's student is a really weird stalking-ish person.

Adam Adli and double standards

2011-12-26T17:09:00.000+08:00

Adam Adli was my scout leader in secondary school. Just recently his name appeared in the national newspapers.
What he did? he lowered a flag bearing our prime minister's image.
What happened next? Government wants apology, Adam Adli and family received death threats and are harassed.

So, I'm wondering is our prime minister's image very sacred? It is as though Najib (our prime minister) is more powerful and sovereign than our Agong (king). Adam did not bring down the Malaysian flag or desecrate it. What was his action compared to grown-up Umno men stomping on Penang CM Lim Guan Eng's photo and bringing a coffin to his office or the Perkasa goons who burnt Bersih coordinator S Ambiga's picture.
What actions were taken by the government and home minister on those cases? Hmm, almost nothing!

Hmm, such double standards don't you think?
How about the cow head incident by Perkasa. It was clearly a racial insult but the police and government did not take action against them, instead the Home Minister (Hisyamhuddin) defended the Perkasa protesters as their freedom to voice out BUT the police force and the government arrested people holding a peaceful candlelight vigil and singing Negaraku to protest against corruption. The reason Home minister provided was "we have freedom to voice out but not freedom to riot"

Again I wonder and can't understand how the Government can say that Riot is defined when you have a peaceful protest with candles. But if you hold a cow's head and shout racial insults and step on the cow head, it is not Dangerous nor Sensitive. It's just a peaceful gathering which is challenging other beliefs and provoking the other religion's sacred and holy object. I am really confused with what the government term as Dangerous and Peaceful, and Riot. What exactly is sensitive? Is it taunting other religions or is it protesting against injustice?

advanti

2011-12-25T02:55:00.000+08:00

The gospel message by advanti ministry.

Christmas eve

2011-12-25T00:41:00.003+08:00

So I have been really busy with sports, assignments and choir throughout this month, I took a break from rugby and church.
I didn't plan to attend church but Manami, the student exchange girl from Japan that Sheng introduced to me wanted to attend church or Christmas celebration/party. So I had to go to church...

It's good to see so many new and young people in church but I can't believe that I have been spending so much time in church these few days. Like my whole day spent with the church (people).

What is Christmas without Christ? The point of Christmas? The reason we celebrate it? Christmas isn't christmas till it happens in your heart.

One story Francis shared today.
There was a fire and a man and his son were in the building. The dad jumped down and then told his son to jump. The son said he was afraid. There was fire and smoke everywhere that the son couldn't see the father. The son said "I can't see you, dad.". The dad replied, just jump son, you may not see me but I can see you. Just believe and jump, I'll catch you.

Just like GOD, we may not be able to see Him because of the fire and smoke but that shouldn't be the reason to not believe that the Father can save us. We may not be able to see God but God can see us. So, just believe and take the leap of faith. Put your trust in Him.

The sketch today reminded me that we often celebrate Christmas without Christ.
X
Makan
Alcohol
Shopping

Christ
Meaning of Christmas
Answer to our root problem
Salvation

A joke:
"How are you gonna spend your Christmas Eve?"
"Oh, I think I'll buy Christmas Adam" ...huahauhauahua. Lame or not? Original joke from me :)

wifi

2011-12-23T13:42:00.000+08:00

UM Wifi had been so terrible. No internet access even with full bar signals or worse still no signal at all. All of us paid Rm100 and now there's this problem. This is really frustrating especially when it's the assignment handing in week. Gosh, and it's near the exams week so SPectrum<--UM Website to download lecture notes also cannot be accessed. Haiz.

We're dying here. Congrats to the UM student council for helping us get back a portion of the Rm100 that we paid for this lousy internet service. We got back Rm 40...

Mr Azizul has been really crazy, he's giving us so many assignments and expects us to pass it as soon as possible (we have internet problem and he gives us assignment about globalisation and Malaysian sports management and Malaysian recreation...how to find points without the internet? Library books have insufficient information on local sports. ) On Top of that, I feel that I wanna repeat that mr Azizul is having class activity on CHRISTMAS!!!!! Crazy lecturer, just because he is a muslim doesn't mean he can take people's holiday away!

Once the exam is over, I hope I can share with you all some of my stories on what you missed while I was internetless in UM. :)
University sports month has finally finished.
Futsal piala pengarah
Melaka 12 hour walk too.
Sports Appreciation Night
KO-K day (co-curricular day)

racewalking during sukmum

kemahiran seni orator BM

a brief hi

2011-12-06T14:35:00.001+08:00

Sorry people, UM wifi has some web restriction and I wasn't able to download Gmail documents nor access blogs.

So many things happened like Handball sukmum, Jonah Jones, Nike Run, Larian Pantai Masum, Hockey Sukmum, tests and assignments...

I can't blog much now...maybe next time when the line is much better.

But for now, I just wanna say it's really good to be back even though it's such a brief post.

Masum Beach Run at Port Dickson with UPM and UPSI :)

I'll try to be back ok :)

tug of war gold

2011-11-19T23:10:00.000+08:00

I never thought I'll be one of the main player in tug of war aka tarik tali.
It never cross my mind to join tarik tali for SUKan Mahasiswa Universiti Malaya(SUKMUM) - university sports month.

I registered my name only for Ladies Hockey this year but somehow my name went to softball, handball, tug of war and just yesterday futsal. Will tell you about hockey experience in the next post...back to tarik tali.

Some of you know I'm a yes-man so you ajak me, I go la. You appoint me, I do loh...

Tarik tali was so unexpected one la cause I'm so small and light but they were really desperate and needed numbers so I agreed. I even went to all the training despite having rugby trainings. I learn a lot and no longer think that tarik tali is a sport which requires no skill. So many techniques to learn, body mechanism/bio-mechanics to learn. Our coach is a very calm but knowledgeable man in this area.

In secondary and primary school, we just pull pull pull and "pacak" our heels on the ground, or the cheating skill would be keep turning the tali.

I'm currently in 5th residential college, and I don't know why all the big size girls don't want to enter tug of war until this small and light girl have to play tug of war. As the smallest and lightest in the team, of cause I don't think I can be a main player, I would just be a substitute player. Just to fill in the numbers. We learn a lof of techniques. We only this week on monday, tues and wed,on thurs we had a friendly game with 4th college and friday we had a debrief of our friendly game with a correction and touch up light training session. Then saturday aka today is our competition.

friendly with 4th. Their ladies were very heavy people and reality looked like we can't win a single time, but we were gonna give them a fight before we go down. The first round we were losing and just a but more to lose but they lost their fitness/stamina and so we just pull and won! Yes, we did the impossible! We just have to hold on and wait for the enemy to get tired! Then the second time we lost and we realize previously we might have won because the ground on one of the side is slippery. After a rest we re-matched and it was draw again. This time it confirmed that every team that plays on the particular side lost. After a while, we did the last round and winner takes all, they won.
Haha, so we don't know actually who's stronger, but we do know they have more weight and the place was a winning factor. At least we have the taste of what tomorrow would be like.<-referring to the experience of pulling the tali with opposition.

Kira ask me to join the college ladies Futsal team because there are not enough players. Had a futsal training of 1 hour yesterday night. today is futsal also, This means today I had to rush to 2 places. Futsal at 5th college court and tarik tali at varsity field. Thank God Kira had a car.

Today 7am we assemble and walk to the field, strap up, team talk, warm up and then me, Kira and Atiq rush back to fifth because the new schedule said futsal first. After futsal, we rush back to the field, sweating and catching our breathe and then straight away had to measure weight(i add on 1 kg) and then tarik the tali. I was surprised because I was a player, not a substitute. (Ok, maybe coach wants me to have game experience so put me in the first game). Looking at all the other colleges, their ladies are bigger and their group weight were much heavier than our team. So we were not medal prospects and we didn't really expect to win any game. But with applying all the technique and knowledge that coach taught us, We Won!
Then after a while, we had to rush back to college for futsal. After futsal, we rush back to the field cause tarik tali coach request me to be one of the main player. We won again! We may not have the weight but we have techniques, strategy and knowledge! :)

Back to college for futsal, then we receive a call to rush back to the field because this is a crucial tarik tali match, It's with the heaviest team (9th college) and I was informed that I'm suppose to play this round too. So after futsal 1st half, we wanted to leave but then the futsal team needed us, so we stayed on the 2nd half. But we couldn't reach in time so a heavier girl played in my place. We expected to lose in this round. It was very tight, 1st round we lost, then 2nd round we won...3rd round we won easily because everyone applied the knowledge properly.

No more futsal.Took our weight again then Tarik tali semi finals, I'm a player again. we won.

measure weight and then Finals with 9th college. Coach wanted to put me in but I was thinking previously when we went against 9th, I wasn't playing. So maybe we won because of the weight? coach sais he wants me in because i got the proper technique. I told coach the other girl that ganti-ed me previously was 20 kg heavier than me so the team would lose 20 kg if I play. Coach reluctantly said, go have a team discussion then tell the manager the team's decision. So I call the girls and I told them "In the game with 9th college I takde, then if I play this time, the team will lose 20kg cause I'm 52kg only. So you all still want me in or you nak letak someone heavier? I tak kisah, I want to win, so let's do what's best for the team. I say put someone heavier to substitute me. Jangan fikir saya, fikir team, kita nak menang!" The team agreed with me.

THE FINALS: first round we almost won, just a bit more but suddenly a lot of girls fell down and so we lost it.When we lost, coach look at me, "sebab u la kita kalah, sebab u tak masuk" Second time we won (or is it the other way around?). 3rd round we won! YES, We are the Champions! we did it! UNDERDOGS! DARK HORSES! WILD CARD!

exhibition match at Cobra 10s

2011-11-15T16:44:00.001+08:00

Sunday 13th Nov, The Dingoes did an exhibition match at the Cobra 10s. It was ok la... 7s a side. My team was mostly backline while the other team were mostly forwards.
What I remember during this match was I pancit after the first 4 minutes. Usually I can last 7 minutes but this time really no more stamina. WHY? My hypothesis is that ICE and CHILLI really affects our stamina. I started eating chilli food and having drinks with ice since tuesday 8 nov. Test number 1 conclusion accepted. Maybe somewhere in the future, I'll conduct test 2 and 3 to see if the research is replicable or maybe ask people who usually drink ice and take chilli to stop ice and chilli for 6 days and see whether their stamina/fitness is affected?

After I got home, my elder bro and elder sis decided to play rain...ya, I join them lo.

yesterday I had a test and today I had a test.
Yesterday's test was a surprise cause only when I went to class did I find out that there's a test. Aiyoh, so my marks also low la.. 29/40. Meaning to get an A in my finals I need full marks...Haiz...there goes one A.

Second test was today morning. 1 hour to do 5 subjective questions. Quite direct but I messed up the explanation part...so at least 3 marks gone out of the 20 marks...

A senior called me an old auntie like a recording tape, All I meant was to remind but I guess maybe she didn't need it so maybe next time I'll try not to remind people...I felt a bit insulted...

As many of you know, I moved to a new residential college (will be known as college after this), so I don't know anybody except my course mates and a few masum players. Somehow my name was spread to Tarik Tali...haha and just yesterday I received news that I am the girls hockey captain. I have to find more players and arrange training and find a manager. How am I gonna do that? I don't know people in 5th because I'm anti-social and I don't know much about 5th college. I only know my room, the dewan makan, office and that's about it. Aiyo,why don't u ask a local to be captain? Argh!!!!!!

salary

2011-11-11T22:24:00.000+08:00

yesterday my elder bro asked me, how much do expect to earn after I grad? I said 2k.
Then he told me, as a degree holder I should at least expect 2.5k, that's the market price for us.

Then I told him, if I even get a job, I'd be very grateful already loh, nowadays the news is so many graduates no job because they are too choosy/picky.

My bro said...can you accept if your bosses or colleagues earn higher than us, but their education level is just PMR/SPM. They don't even OWE the government (PTPTN). We learn so hard, and have assignment, studying, exam, use so much money/owe the government, so much time and energy in studying, how many years we study<-is it worth it to come out and work for less than 2.5k? Their money earn use for self but we have to pay back gov... Sort of like a LOSE-LOSE to continue studies in higher level. What we learn in University is most of the time not applicable in real life living/working situation.

Well, I guess that explains why graduates are picky?

I'm a very simple girl, always grateful and mindful that I don't deserve anything, and that there's always someone better than me, get anything kira very lucky already loh...Names is another problem in Uni...

Those of you know knows Mun Foong would be very surprised...What happen to the girl who was very brave, proud and stubborn? Very confident and everything is hers/her right? The very cool senior that knew all her juniors...

People, I think she died after 2007.

I'm sure some of you can recall an incident in 2007 where everything was pointing towards her getting something but out of the blue, everything went wrong and that seriously broke her confidence, self esteem, self worth and push her to the verge of demoralized. Something that really meant the whole world to her was taken away by unacceptable reasons; "Girls cannot be leaders" and "because you are not a prefect"...??

Since that, Mun Foong ceased to exist bits by bits into this pathetic, everything goes, I'll be lucky if I even get...
In the past I could remember and knew all my juniors but starting in form 6, I no longer wanted to know everyone, I just wanted to be by myself, living in my own world, minding my own business and couldn't care less about knowing people or remembering names.

SCC7s

2011-11-09T13:44:00.001+08:00

Singapore Cricket Club organizes rugby 7s tournament each year.
This year SCC 7s started on a Friday so we had to travel to Singapore on a thursday.
Usually we travel together or by a bus but this time it was not that organized as many problems arose since the tournament was on Hari Raya Haji. Anyway, only 4 women teams this year: Malaysia, Indonesia, Singapore and Singapore Barbarians. Singapore Barbarians were the development team.

http://scc7s.macoocoo.com/Pools.php (<--click for results in pool stage)
Our first game with Singapore national. Not too bad, we defended ok, lost 3 tries in 14 minutes.
Second game was the best game so far that we ever played. We were so close the try line but unfortunately some clumsy mistake brought Singapore Barbarians to steal the ball and score. Our own mistakes and they utilised it wisely. I managed to grab a singaporean winger's shirt and tackle her so to say prevent a try. (my only achievement). But I got confused with the calls because there's a normal bola satu move and the backline's bola satu move. So I didn't know which bola satu Bibi was calling for. Bibi got really irritated and hit my head.
Third game against Indonesia, was a really bad play. We had a kelam-kabut game and couldn't score anything. A lousy draw...
We had a few crappy referees and linesmen...so many knock ons, holding on the ball, not coming from channel, not proper ball tapping, forward, playing ball on ground but ref didn't call. Even knock on near the try line. Aish, so terrible...
A few prominent members did some grave mistakes too, maybe due to lack of attending training that they forgot how to utilise the rules.
Coach Mamak said don't be too predictable...

Aiyo, the emo personality came onto me...beating myself up for getting confused over bola satu and being a liability to the team. I changed the team dynamics of the great 2nd game into a worse 3rd game. Of cause I try to hide the tears but it just trickled down...
We stayed at POW backpackers. Prince of Wales backpackers. Quite canggih door system but no internet connection. We had captain session.
Why I always cry? Ish!

Su fractured her hand. Bibi apologized but I don't blame her cause it really was my fault and it's normal to get scolding in team sport.

Shima's son born.

http://scc7s.macoocoo.com/Competitions.php?CID=56
http://scc7s.macoocoo.com/ScheduleCompetitions.php
(click for result in competition stage)
Next day we were up against Singapore Barbarians. First half just defending. Second half we manage to score a try. we were leading 5-0 but a few clumsy mistakes they drew with us 5-5. Then time finished but ball still in play and the Barbarians managed to steal a try so it's 12-5...Eventhough time over but if ball still not out a team can lose...SO close to the final but tough luck...

Liyana didn't play cause the injured her foot...need to x-ray it soon...

I was disappointed when our team were so tired that they didn't chase the girl running to score a try. No doubt that girl passed all our defense but as long as the ball is not grounded yet, we have an opportunity to push her out or at least block her from grounding the ball under the H so that they have lesser chance of getting a successful conversion kick.

Finals in the plate against Indonesia. Game with Indonesia. We didn't play to our potential and they somehow got to score a try. Once again nobody block the girl from scoring under the H, luckily the conversion kick didn't enter even though it was under the H. Anyway, we scored and got a successful conversion so it was a 7-5. When time was over, we were just 3 meters near the try line but Bibi kick the ball out just to be safe. The risk was that if we continued, the previous game with Barbarians might repeat... opposition scored although time over because ball still in play.

The indonesia team were actually the national basketball team O.o, so fitness and speed is good.

We just received our new balls ( 2 balls) today but we left it on the field when we went to collect out silverware..then the ballboys said it is the clubs ball and we have no proof that those balls were ours...Aiyoyo.

Walked to MRT city hall and MRT-ed to Kranji.About $3 Singapore dollars. Took bus 170 to JB checkpoint at $1.30 Sing dollars. Followed someone's car all the way back...journey by car from JB took 5 hours.

miraculous knee

2011-11-02T17:13:00.001+08:00

Psalm 100

A psalm. For giving grateful praise.

¹ Shout for joy to the LORD, all the earth.
² Worship the LORD with gladness;
   come before him with joyful songs.
³ Know that the LORD is God.
   It is he who made us, and we are his^[a];
   we are his people, the sheep of his pasture.

⁴ Enter his gates with thanksgiving
   and his courts with praise;
   give thanks to him and praise his name.
⁵ For the LORD is good and his love endures forever;
   his faithfulness continues through all generations.

miracle? Healed but doctor surprised....
A month ago, my knee gave problem...On the 26th sep, the sports clinic doctor said something like patella cartilage slightly injured. If not treated may lead to arthritis then if very serious must do operation...
Crazy! Anyway she showed me 6 exercises to do daily 60 repetition...

I didn't complete 60...even reaching 30 repetition is tiring. And I didn't do it everyday

So anyway today's check up,a different doctor examined me cause the previous doctor does not work on Wednesday. Back to the story...the doctor examined me and did a few simple test and there was no sign or pain or injury...Huhu..This doc was surprised and had a surprised facial expression...she kept rechecking the previous doctor's note on me...She said I'm ok (her tone was very surprised)...I guess she was expecting me to still have pain...(i guess she must be thinking, did the previous doctor diagnose me properly?)

I'm sure it's a miracle...It is like as though I wasn't even injured on my knee...

God is Good ALL the time. Not when God feel like it. Being good is God's nature.

matthew 5:45 He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous

i sound selfish but its my right

2011-10-31T11:24:00.000+08:00

In this semester I have borrowed people money. They said they will pay back and then I feel so bad when I have to ask them to pay back. Hey, I just borrowed you cause I trust that you are not conning or using me and I really believed that you would pay back as promised.

But now I have yet to get back the money and to bring up the subject would hurt our friendship. Hmmm, so I made up my mind to never borrow money to anyone anymore.

So DEAR ALL,

Never ask me to pay for you first cause the probability of me getting back the money is less than 30%.

Never ask me to borrow you money cause the probability of you paying me back is less than 30%.

UNLESS you plan to pay me back(the next day), don't even think of borrowing money.

Eh, I don't even charge you interest when you borrow money ma...

where

2011-10-25T10:31:00.000+08:00

I've got a friend who has a scholarship, but I don't understand why she borrowed money from me? (this was before I had the scholarship but she had a scholarship already ). Yea, she still has the scholarship and it's from a Canadian company and she still has not paid me back...

I wonder where her scholarship money went?

triple ankle

2011-10-25T09:41:00.000+08:00

weak ankle.

Same ankle, same angle, 3 times in one month. Aiyo...

first during the Asian women rugby 7s championship at India, the game versus Iran. Then during training at Dataran Shah Alam rugby training last week when we played touch. And finally today as I went jogging, suddenly ankle gave way.

Argh, ankle ah ankle. Heal soon ok?

dark side of me...

2011-10-23T22:42:00.006+08:00

did you get the joke?
Hint: Rabbit poop

Today I had a perfect opportunity to make a nasty comment to someone who made a nasty comment to me a few years back.

Cutest muffin award

I felt like revenge is mine now, dude! muahaha. But then I thought again...this is not right. Maybe he deserves it but it's an unkind thing to do and as a Christian I should only do to people what I want people to do to me.

He is a Christian too...so it will be like internal fighting within the church...

If God forgive me then I should also forgive others right?

Matthew 18:33
³³ Shouldn’t you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?’

So, although my sinful nature wanted to have revenge but the Holy Spirit convicted me and my conscience stopped me in time.

There, so now you know I do have a dark side...and no, not talking about sunburn. LoLs

5th college tales 1.0

2011-10-12T11:22:00.000+08:00

Since I entered my room at 5th college the switch seems to be loose but as long as I can turn on the fan and light I don't mind. Yesterday evening the problem gotten worse and the switch was jammed. i couldn't even switch on the fan. So from 6pm till today 11am my room was fanless. HOT...yes, I slept in the fan-less room last night and woke up at 5am today for palapes.

well, that's the first unforgettable memory from staying in 5th college about my room.

Another incident in 5th college: There was also once where a few chinese girls were going room to rooms to get Chinese people's name for the Chinese Club(CC) but once they heard I am a PALAPES then they just brush me off. You see, I was not welcomed, they didn't want me. So, that's why I still stay in touch with my ex college CC because they still involve me and keep me updated.

I kind of injured my knee and ankle in the 2nd game against Iran during the Asian Championship at Pune, India. So, my left knee and ankle cannot function fully.

I'm wanna get out of palapes but people keep encouraging me to stay on. Gosh, my schedule is so darn packed!

restricted?

2011-10-11T00:55:00.001+08:00

This week is the inter-batch sports in UM Sports Centre. Wow, we are seniors!

I also have UM futsal team training for the Liga Futsal IPTA.

This semester I'm in 5th residential college (from hereon refered as college).

Sukmum (sukan mahasiswa um) training has started and 5th college's training are mostly on tuesday and thursday. This is a prob cause rugby is every tues n thurs. For sukmum, the sports I can play are basketball. handball, softball, hockey, swimming and athletic and futsal but the actual competition day and normal training days are clashing with rugby. Sukmum is once a year and for merit points and is University sports day where we represent our colleges.

I want to play SUKMUM but Rugby is also in the way. Besides rugby training, there are selection for SCC 7s (a rugby competition in Singapore) where we'll be playing as the national team. On top of that we have test matches (test match is a rugby term meaning international friendly match) with Hong Kong soon. So, I can't skip rugby this few months...Rugby is my main sport ma.

hmm, which is my priority now? Urgent vs Important.
It seems like I may have to skip Sukmum this year?

and IF I do go for Sukmum then I have to choose which sports to enter as some sports clash...
Come on, Uni life is short mah, it's like 2-3 more times that I can join sukmum before I graduate...

Argh, why must there be so many choices to make?

feel so restricted...

bag challenge

2011-10-09T15:02:00.002+08:00

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/10/9/nation/9662789&sec=nation

The news tells the baby age and the mom's age but not the father's age? I do wonder why?
There is nothing about other children so I'm guessing this is their first baby at the wife's age of 39.

A man so desperate...he wanted sexual intercourse during the wife's confinement and it was just the 23rd day that the baby was born. How can the father sodomize his own son? 23 days old only?

This is scary...how sex desires can turn one into a monster. .

Were the couple trying so hard to get a baby since they got married until the wife's age of 39? So they had frequent sex?

Ah, the observations we can assume based on the limited information and the style of writing the media reveals. The news is what is stated, but your understanding goes as far as you want to think. This is something I learn from my Kemahiran Orator BM (Bm Orator Skills) class. Observe and analyse.

Ok, on to the main topic today.
Meet my new bag...Polka White
I just bought it yesterday. She was rm 35 but a course mate helped me get it at rm 32.
The bag is to change my image...ain't it more girly?

Ok, so I was challenged to keep the bag clean and make sure it doesn't tear within 2 months.

Sounds simple and easy? YEAH, but it's not going to be as easy as it sounds for me.

I have bad histories with bags and shoes. They get spoilt and torn quite frequent. Maybe it's because I use them too often that it worn out easily or perhaps I stuff too many things and heavy things in my bags?

So, this bag is white!!! Take care of it....
Besides the color, I think the zips, bag strap and bag stitches will be things to look out for. These are the vulnerable parts.

How am I going to take on this challenge?
Bring only necessary things and take care where I place my bag.
Bring an umbrella at all times to avoid it from getting wet under the rain.
Maybe this bag will only be used for class? meaning when I go out, I will try not to carry a bag everywhere I go. Don't bring Polka unnecessarily around.

So, my habit of bringing a bag everywhere I go will also end. Yeah, quite big changes huh...

At the moment, the only flaw on this bag is there's a red pen mark there. I'm not sure whether I did it or not.
2 months and We'll see what is the outcome of the bag on 8th Dec 2011.

be positive

2011-10-08T21:46:00.000+08:00

Here's a post with pictures with quotes that really talk about not letting the negative situations take you down. Don't zoom in the negative turn of circumstances. Everything can be seen in a positive way.

Change the way you respond or think.

Circumstances and situations may not be changeable but it's how you respond to it, your attitude that can make your day still be AWESOME!

budget speech

2011-10-07T20:44:00.000+08:00

Najib's 2012 budget speech

I am pleased to announce 2012 as the year of National Innovation Movement.

43. To provide a brighter future for all Malaysian children irrespective of their socioeconomic background, the Government will ensure quality and affordable access to education. Currently, students in primary and secondary schools are still required to pay RM24.50 and RM33.50, respectively, for co-curriculum, internal test papers, Malaysian Schools Sports Council fees and insurance premium. To ease the burden on parents, it is proposed that these payments be abolished commencing the 2012 school year. With this announcement, for the first time in history, primary and secondary education is provided free. The abolition of these payments would involve an allocation of RM150mil.

44. The private sector also plays an important role in providing quality education towards creating an excellent future generation. In line with this, the Government proposes private schools registered with the Ministry of Education and complies with stipulated regulations be given the following incentives: First: Income tax exemption of 70% or Investment Tax Allowance of 100% on qualifying capital expenditure for a period of 5 years; Second: Double deduction for overseas promotional expenses to attract more foreign students; and Third: Import duty and sales tax exemptions on all educational equipment. The Government hopes that the savings accrued to the private school operators will subsequently result in the reduction of school fees to ease the burden of parents.

45. Registered primary and secondary schools, including national schools, national-type schools, mission schools and Government-assisted religious schools often receive financial contribution from companies and individuals to upgrade school facilities. To encourage more charitable activities, contributions are eligible for tax deductions. This facility will be extended to all registered places of worship. The Government will expedite(speed up) tax exemption approvals for education institution and all places of worship.

56. The 2012 Budget will transform the civil service to be dynamic, responsive and centred on excellence. This includes a radical change in recruitment, placement as well as career development. A flexible remuneration system will be introduced to retain or terminate civil servants based on performance. Civil servants must accept this challenge and be prepared to change. Hence, the Government will introduce the New Civil Service Remuneration Scheme or SBPA as follows: First: Introduce an exit policy for underperforming civil servants and for those who opt to leave the service; Second: Improve the salary of civil servants through a single tier structure with additional increments to enable civil servants to continue receiving annual increments over a longer period. With this, the maximum salary for a particular grade will be higher. For example, under SSM, a teacher on grade DG48 receives a maximum salary of RM6,325.39, while under SBPA the maximum salary will increase 37.7% to RM8,710. For non-graduate teachers on grade DG34, the maximum salary under SSM is RM3,860.52 while under SBPA, will increase 39% to RM5,370; Third: In my recent Teachers' Day message, I announced a better career path for graduate teachers. A teacher no longer has to wait 20 years to be promoted. In the new scheme with a time-based promotion, a teacher will achieve grade 44 on the eighth year and grade 48 on the 16th year of service. For non-graduate teachers under the current time-based system it will take 10 years to be promoted from grade 29 to 32, while under the SBPA it will only take eight years. Currently, promotions from grade 32 to 34 are based on vacancies. However under SBPA, a time-based eight years promotion will be applied; and Fourth: The Annual Increment has not been revised since 1991. Beginning 2012, the annual increment of civil servants will be increased between RM80 and RM320 according to the grade. In addition, civil servants who opt to accept the SBPA will receive an annual increment between 7% and 13%.

57. The Government realises the financial burden faced by pensioners. With the implementation of SBPA, more than 600,000 Government pensioners will benefit from a pension adjustment which involves an allocation of RM600mil. Effective 2013, the Government will implement an annual pension increment of 2% without having to wait for any review of the remuneration system or salary adjustments.

88. The Government sympathises with doctors who have to work continuously for more than 45 to 120 hours per week. This situation is clearly not conducive for them to provide quality service. To ease the situation, the Government introduced a flexible schedule with an average of 60 working hours per week for housemen. To replace the on-call allowance for housemen, the Government introduced a Special Flexible Working Allowance of RM600 per month, effective 1 September 2011. For medical officers and specialists, the Government will also increase the overnight on-call allowance between RM30 to RM80, effective on the same date.

94. The Government is committed to ensure that no accused person is denied legal representation. Currently, about 80% of the accused in criminal cases appear in court without legal representation because of high legal costs. The National Legal Aid Foundation will ensure that every individual who is charged in court will be given free legal aid. For this, the Government will provide an additional RM10mil in 2012 bringing the total sum provided to RM15mil.

105. Currently, futsal is increasingly popular amongst youth and sports enthusiast. To promote this sport, the Government has built a total of 1,100 futsal courts nationwide, while another 527 courts are under construction. In view of the popularity of this sport, the Government will allocate RM15mil to build an additional 150 futsal courts to achieve the “One Court for One Mukim” target. To increase recreational activities particularly football, the Government will also allocate RM50mil to build football fields with artificial turfs, equipped with floodlights at 30 selected locations nationwide.

106. High-performance sports including football, badminton, squash, bowling, diving, archery and cycling will also be given attention. The Government will provide an additional allocation of RM30mil, making a total of RM84mil, to train young potential athletes so they can compete and succeed in international sports competition.

107. The welfare of senior citizens has never been neglected particularly for them to obtain public amenities such as medical and transport services. For this, I am pleased to announce, from 1 January 2012, all senior citizens aged 60 years and above will be exempted from paying the outpatient registration fee in all Government hospitals and health clinics including 1Malaysia clinics as well as the Government dental clinics. They will also be entitled to a 50% discount on LRT and Monorail fares.

Asian Championship

2011-10-06T01:32:00.000+08:00

It was in Pune, India. Asian Women 7s Championship.
Almost 12 hour travel... Yes, it's confirmed I got airsickness... migraine or severe headache starts on my left side of forehead and spreads around my head and then the right side. Feels like someone pressing my forehead. Feels like Harry Potter's scar stinging when he's near Lord Voldemort...haha. Seriously pain! About 6 hours flight and then about 4 hour bus journey to Pune, from Mumbai airport. The other 2 hours is check in and waiting and travelling to lcct.

Visa for entering India. To enter with a tourist visa it is Rm 100 but using a "Sports" visa is Rm 300. Whoah!
A lot of slums and people living under bridges or any shade. Our toilet cubicles in Malaysia are bigger than the slum houses in India. People don't wear helmets on motorbikes. The cars are small and the transportation looked old school...The buildings were looking old and yes, it felt like we traveled back to the past. The cars, buildings, lifestyle looked just like the ones in black and white television era. Old fashioned.
India is older than Malaysia and I thought the older something is, the more established it should be but it wasn't. Of cause I learn to be really thankful that I live in Malaysia.

I guess in our spiritual life, just because we came to know Christ earlier doesn't mean we are more mature spiritually. Like Malaysia is younger than India but more more modern and developed.

But the good side was a few nice scenery on the journey to the hotel. Vit's hotel was just next to the stadium. Balewadi sports stadium. Hotel's ok but always black out and some parts were still under renovation. Internet access for 1 hour cost about Rm 50. Whoah! Everyone was feeling lethargic...maybe because jetlag or maybe due to the hotel's dim and gloomy lighting. Our Malaysia stomach wasn't very comfortable with India's food. Spices in everything...

Day 2
Time in india was 2 hours 30 mins late...Had morning training. Just found out my bad habit of following the ball. I should follow zone/people not ball! Aki told me that everytime the all comes to me the ball will die as in there's no continuity... After training we went to Shaniwar Wada, it's a palace ruins. Locals pay 5 rupee but foreigners pay 100 rupee. Rm 1= 12 rupee. There were so many couples there..hihi. Then lunch at Blue Nile where there was really good Iranian briyani. The rice was soft and the texture like sponge...Yummy! Then a rushing saree shopping. And then evening training. Seeing the Iran team. IR IRAN = Islamic Republic Iran. All wearing tudung but no Malaysian wore tudung.

Day 3
First game with China. I was going up to defend and attack too fast that I always overshoot and create gaps that the opponent went through that gaps. Aish! I have to learn how to control my speed and go up in a LINE! We lost to China. 2nd game was against Singapore. I should have created space for Becks but i panic and ran with the ball. Tiara was so disappointed with me. I was disappointed with myself too.
Next game with Iran. The first kick off ball entered the try line but i heard Qhal telling me to let the ball go so I didn't touch the ball. Thank God Aki came and touched the ball before any Iran player touch the ball. We started great but our own faults that made us lost. Our bad ball handling in our 22 line caused us a try. We had possession almost the whole game but our mistakes were costly. An Iran player number 6 hit me with her knee at my lower back/stomach when I was without the ball. Then i couldn't breathe. My lower stomach was pain and I couldn't breathe and my tears were flowing out cause of the pain. SENAK...So embarrassing. Thank God my ribs not broken..hihi. First time senak...so I panic la...it was pain to try to take a deep breath too. After I got up I heard someone telling me to go out so I went out although I still could stand even through the pain. I feel bad that the ball always dies when it comes to me. New boots = blister. Was in a rush to buy a boot before coming to India because my boots tore...aiyah...wrong size leh.

Day 4
Meet Iran again...Aiyah I rush up too fast that i created a gap in our defence line...argh! Injured my left ankle la but continue to play on. I feel so bad, ball always lost or die when I receive it. Last minute we almost scored a try but it was a dead ball. Ahhh, so close!
Next game with Laos. We had control of the game. Once again our fault brought the opponent's luck and we lost. I felt so bad that the ball always died or lost when it came to me and so I was hoping that coach wouldn't put me in the game against Laos, furthermore my ankle was much more pain and so yeah, i didn't play in this game. It's very sad that we got last place. 12th ranking. Last year we were 9th if i'm not mistaken.
Coach Mamak and Wally explained that we disappointed them and MRU is pressuring them and we are not showing them any results...Aki said we are the only nation that are not fully sponsored so we should hunger for success more than any other team and perform better...

day 5
travel back to kl...another 12 hour journey. air sickness...severe headache, vomit a bit. About 6 hours of migrain...wah, crazy la wei!

glossophobia

2011-09-22T22:44:00.000+08:00

my ko-k class this year is kemahiran orator bm aka Malays orator skills. It's like public speaking.
Ko-k is extra curricular activity. Sports students cannot take sports..LoL, so left with arts, singing, dancing, musical instruments and public speaking.

Well, to tell you the truth, the main reason I choose it was the timing was convenient.

However I do fear that I might fail this course. It's great that there's no grade->it's just pass or fail and I think we have to perform/present during ko-k day.

I've been quite bad at presentation in classes and once I took part in my secondary school BM debate team (my friend entered my name when I wasn't in class!). That was disastrous. I was in form 5 and we were against form 4s and our audiences were form 1 students. Once I started my debate speech, my tears was pouring out non-stop but I forced myself to finish my points. How humiliating?

Yesterday, the lecturer asked us to do a 3 minute speech on "kenangan yang tak dapat dilupakan" aka unforgetable memory. My speech was on my Anatomy and Physiology success. I'm sure you kind of predicted the outcome right? Yes, my tears were about to roll continuously and my voice sounded like I was about to cry anytime but I forced myself to finish my speech. Once again, very embarrassing!

The lecturer said I "menjiwai" aka passionate or reliving the experience or was so in character that's why I almost teared and my voice was like I was ready to cry any time soon.

I think I have the fear of public speaking. Glossophobia or speech anxiety is the fear of public speaking.
stage fright!

Speaking of fear, i wanted to share this story too:
A teenage girl about 17 had gone to visit some friends one evening and time passed quickly as each shared their various experiences of the past year. She ended up staying longer than planned, and had to walk home alone. She wasn't afraid because it was a small town and she lived only a few blocks away. As she walked along under the tall elm trees, Diane asked God to keep her safe from harm and danger. When she reached the alley, which was a short cut to her house, she decided to take it.
However, halfway down the alley she noticed a man standing at the end as though he was waiting for her. She became uneasy and began to pray, asking for God's protection. Instantly a comforting feeling of quietness and security wrapped round her, she felt as though someone was walking with her. When she reached the end of the alley, she walked right past the man and arrived home safely.
The following day, she read in the newspaper that a young girl had been raped in the same alley just twenty minutes after she had been there. Feeling overwhelmed by this tragedy and the fact that it could have been her, she began to weep. Thanking the Lord for her safety and to help this young woman, she decided to go to the police station. She felt she could recognize the man, so she told them her story.
The police asked her if she would be willing to look at a lineup to see if she could identify him. She agreed and immediately pointed out the man she had seen in the alley the night before. When the man was told he had been identified, he immediately broke down and confessed.
The officer thanked Diane for her bravery and asked if there was anything they could do for her. She asked if they would ask the man one question. Diane was curious as to why he had not attacked her.
When the policeman asked him, he answered, "Because she wasn't alone. She had two tall men walking on either side of her." Amazingly, whether you believe or not, you're never alone.

PS: God is always there in your heart and loves you no matter what and if you stand up for him he will stand up for you.

i guess the girl who got raped was too traumatised so she didn't identify the rapist.

palapes navy um waste time n money

2011-09-21T11:02:00.002+08:00

hey everyone,

Great news that Internal Security Act (ISA) and the prepaid phone 6% service charge has been demolished.

Every night, I've been to Dataran Shah Alam for the National Rugby practise...And I do thank God that I found a cheaper and nearer alternative ;D

Yesterday we had Palapes Laut training and it was a plain waste of time. We had to wear our "PT" uniform.

pt uniform

and we basically did nothing. Just sat in the hall from 7am to 1pm. No class, no lecture, nothing...Just sitting in the hall. Waste of time ok!!!! I could have studied, do notes, prepare for next class, or even read a book during that 6 hours. Besides that, the new kids laugh at us (because of our uniform) and of cause they thought we were the caterers...How humiliating! On top of that, we have to pay another rm400++ for our new uniform. Not refundable! You know, I've been calculating and about rm 700++ of my PTPTN money last year has been used just for PALAPES. The "hours" (term mean money we get from training) we get from PALAPES is much lower than that. This means it's a lose lose situation and the money the Government loan for education was misused on silly things for PALAPES LAUT UM. This is a very bad investment. I must find out how to get out of this soon...

One of my classmate has Dengue, she's not warded so i'm guessing it's not that serious yet since the doctors are not flushing into her Intravenous fluid (IV fluid) and there's no checking blood 2x a day. I'm not sure if her gums bleed when she brushes her teeth, but mine did when I had dengue in 2009. Of cause my face and body turn red too, but I don't know about her cause I didn't go visit her. I know when I was sick I didn't want people to see me cause I didn't want people to see me when I'm weak and look at me like as though I'm going to die. Maybe it was pride...hymmm....So, anyway, all I can do is Pray for her...

This semester one of my lecturer has been really lecturing. Literally lecturing! Oh my, so I guess his subject is gonna be a memorising one since I don't understand what he is lecturing in class.

full moon n mid autumn

2011-09-12T16:37:00.005+08:00

happy mid autumn everybody! The Mid-Autumn Festival, on the fifteenth day of the eighth month (lunar calendar); a traditional Chinese holiday when people gather to enjoy the moon, drink wine, and eat moon cakes.

Faye Wong and Theresa Tang sang this song, don't know what's the title but the lyrics translation;

When will the moon be clear and bright?
With a cup of wine in my hand, I ask the blue sky.
I don't know what season it would be in the heavens on this night.
I'd like to ride the wind to fly home.
Yet I fear the crystal and jade mansions are much too high and cold for me.
Dancing with my moon-lit shadow
It does not seem like the human world
The moon rounds the red mansion Stoops to silk-pad doors
Shines upon the sleepless Bearing no grudge
Why does the moon tend to be full when people are apart?
People may have sorrow or joy, be near or far apart
The moon may be dim or bright, wax or wane
This has been going on since the beginning of time
May we all be blessed with longevity Though far apart, we are still able to share the beauty of the moon together.

or Su Shi's poem

Thinking of you

Mid -autumn of the Bing Chen year

Having been drinking happily overnight

I'm drunk

so I wrote this poem

For memorising my brother, Zi You

When will the moon be clear and bright?

With a cup of wine in my hand, I ask the blue sky,

In the heavens on this night,

I wonder what season it would be?

I'd like to ride the wind to fly home.

Yet I fear the crystal and jade mansions

are much too high and cold for me.

Dancing with my moonlit shadow,

It does not seem like the human world.

The moon rounds the red mansion,

Stoops to silk-pad doors,

Shines upon the sleepless,

Bearing no grudge,

Why does the moon tend to be full when people are apart?

People may have sorrow or joy, be near or far apart,

The moon may be dum or bright, wax or wane,

This imperfection has been going on since the beginning of time.

May we all be blessed with longevity,

Though thousand miles apart, we are still able to share the beauty of the moon together.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wIdDASnirbY

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shui_diao_ge_tou

gold, ktm, scholarship.

2011-09-09T13:35:00.002+08:00

Aha, so let me give you a few updates.

Something i found out about myself and my mom...we can only wear GOLD earings..it's true...I was thinking why do my ears feel allergic when I wear earings...maybe cause it's been a long time that I'm not used to it. Then my mom told me it's us...me and her can only wear Gold..Ooo...

next thing..

ktm train

rugby practises are now every night at Dataran Shah Alam...how do I get there? By KTM loh, then one of my team member who's kind enough will pick me up. I go back by car...my team members who are kind would send me home...My mom said she wanna cook for them,

yayasan tunku abdul rahman

Now that I got the BTAR(biasiswa tunku abdul rahman) <-TAR foundation scholarship aka YTAR...I stopped ptptn. Apparently scholarship recipients have to pay lump sum...Wah! crazy oh...I was planning use part of my scholarship to slowly pay back ptptn but NO, PTPTN doesn't allow that... WHAT THE? I want to pay back slowly also they don't let...So now just hope they allow me to postpone the paying back loh...I think it's a stupid policy that we have to pay lumpsum only, hey let us pay secara ansuran also la...So, i owe the gov about Rm12 k...rm12000.00, twelve thousand!!! Wah, if i get blacklisted then i cant travel out of the country to play rugby la... Damn! I wanna pay back but Gov don't want accept ansuran and then they threaten to blacklist....karenah birokrasi betul lah.

Next thing, still on the scholarship... haiz...got compulsory camp on the 23-25 sep, Just found out today, in this camp we are going to get information on important issues regarding the scholarship...But the timing is clashing with Borneo 7s la... Ooo, I wanna cry already...If I'm not in the Borneo 7s team then I can't go to the Asian Championship in India...btw, i'm talking about Rugby...

Oh ya, did you know that all prepaid services now have 6% tax? that includes top ups...meaning If I wanna top up rm 10, so I have to pay rm 10.60

cooler than you

2011-09-02T14:31:00.000+08:00

I like this song...Cooler than me by Mike Posner.

You never say hey,
or remember my name.
its probably cuz,
you think you're cooler than me.

I'm sure many people would remember me as a proud and cool girl.
Ya, I don't remember people's names cause I think they are unimportant and not important enough for me to remember. I always tell people; I won't remember your name, in a while I'll forget your name so don't bother telling me your name.

I'm so much cooler than you...

Ya, I think I'm cooler than you. I used to be so sarcastic, cocky and look down on so many people, I used to think I'm so cool and introduce myself as "Famous Hilda Hew Mun Foong"

"Hilda is so pretty"

"You're awed by my Awesomeness"

But now, I dropped the Famous and quite a few people were surprised... But I'll say Owh, I'm so Famous that I don't need to state the Famous part of my name, or I used to be Famous but now I'm trying to be humble...

Actually what happened? I lost my confidence and self esteem. Even in sports, I lost my confidence that i'm good. I now just want to be unnoticed and stay in the background, don't want to stand out no more. Maybe it's something good or maybe it's something bad but whatever I think I'm different now.

I listen to people nowadays, last time it was all about me...
I'm think conversations still ends end being about me but now I try to avoid talks about me...divert people and end up talking about them...cause I think people just ask questions with no desire of knowing what's going on, they just ask for the sake of asking or to get the talking begin...and all I did was to bag about myself instead of knowing others.

hari raya puasa

2011-08-30T21:50:00.001+08:00

Hari Raya Aidilfitri/ Hari Raya Puasa...and Merdeka (Independence) combined...so an extra holiday.. all on weekdays so cool la...what a long holiday :)

One friend asked me to go to her open house (all the way in Kelantan) and since I got no gang so nah, not this year. When you come to think about it, It's actually quite funny, take a train ride (ktm) for almost 12 hours at 7pm and then go her house and makan and then take a ktm (another 12 hours) back at 7pm back home alone...that's like either too desperate or nothing much to do, plus the money and time spent going there <--you gotta ask yourself is it worth it? I mean yeah I'll do it if i have a gang or if it's a really best friend or someone who's going to die or someone I haven't meet in such a long time or someone I will not see anymore after this trip or something that has been planned quite sometime already...

I have been spending time doing almost nothing...parasiting and watching dramas online for my holiday.

Suddenly today i remembered that there's a bleep test on the 6th september...aiyah, did I lose my stamina and fitness for being "sedentary" ? The bleep test would be for the selection of the Malaysia women rugby 7s team...7s is limited so have to fight for place but for a 15s game i don't really have to worry yet. OK, i guess I should do some kind of excercise soon...

Yeah, it's a shocker that I now know how to live a sedentary lifestyle thanks to the Indonesia student exchange programme..hihi.

a random physics picture

I GOT it! WoW

2011-08-22T15:58:00.000+08:00

hey people, you know what?

I had a wonderful surprise today! One that I never expected...

You see, most people got a phone call last Friday from YTAR (yayasan tunku abdul rahman) at about 9am ish and people who don't get any call are considered that they didn't get the scholarship, after all only 30 people in the whole Malaysia will get it mah. Of cause I was sad since I didn't get any call. My mom told me it's ok, and not to act like I got no mood. My guardian asked me why I cried...(It is that obvious? I cried like 5 hours ago and my eyes still swollen kah?)

So I guessed I was one of the 20 that failed. But today morning, I received a call at 11.40am from YTAR and they told me that I got the scholarship and the paper works will come in my email soon. Whoa! That's really unexpected loh.(Maybe someone rejected the scholarship so that's why I got it late?) But anyways, it's so cool! A real twist in life! :)

I thank You Lord. I'm sure it's you.

fren

2011-08-21T23:20:00.000+08:00

I don't really know how to be a friend...

Ask me and I'll try my best to answer...

Invite me and I'll try my best to join...

When you call, I'll try my best to be there...

But I don't know what to say to comfort you when you're down, upset and angry...

I don't know what to do to cheer you up...

I can lend you my shoulders,

I can listen and empathize but that's about all I know about being a friend...sad right?

I really wish I knew what to say or what to do but I really don't...

If you need my help, I'll try my best to help you physically and materially...

cedihnya

2011-08-19T14:24:00.001+08:00

Owh, sedihnya saya pada minggu ini.
Saya tak dapat menghadiri latihan ragbi kerana sedang menolong mak,
Saya tidak dapat jogging bersama kawan-kawan kerana mak minta saya balik.
Saya tidak berjaya dapat biasiswa Yayasan Tunku Abdul Rahman.
Saya terserempak dengan wallpost MRU yang agak mencemarkan nama Dingoes.

Biasiswa YTAR
Walaupun saya telah cuba sedaya upaya dan sebaik mungkin tetapi nampaknya saya tidak cukup hebat untuk mendapat biasiswa ini. Ya, saya agak sedih namun saya tahu yang saya telah memberi my best dan that there's nothing that I could have done better. At least I know that I won't regret that I went for the interview and went all the way...

Oh well, I did my best. Guess I wasn't good enough.

So, buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih: Pengalaman yang saya dapat sepanjang proses pemilihan dan sesi temuramah tidak akan dilupai oleh saya.

Inspirational quotes from the internet...

The past should be the past. It can destroy the future. Live life for what tomorrow has to offer, not for what yesterday has taken away.

Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness. Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change.

Sometimes you forgive people simply because you still want them in your life

Failure is not an excuse not to trust yourself.

It's hard to wait around for something you know won't happen, but it's even harder to stop waiting when you know it's everything you want.

alright, so after a few hours of being sad, i got to get back up again.
For some of you, you know that I'm a sore loser aka kiasu as in once I lose something I give up on it and don't ever want to go through it.

For instance when i lost in standard 6 in the 100m (I got 2nd place) then I stop running 100 meters and took up long distance in secondary school. I took up open runs as long as I got position, certificate and medal but once I didn't get a position I changed to walking. Just like that, each time I lose I will totally stop and change. SORE LOSER right? That's why I'm so kiasu, DON'T wanna lose.

but this time, I wanna change, I don't want to give up. Just as the quote above "Failure is NOT an excuse to not trust yourself"

So in a way the scholarship application gave me the courage to believe in myself, I want to prove to myself that I'm worth it. I am somebody. All my life I've been looking down on myself, telling myself don't ever dream of applying for a scholarship, You can't do much in life.

I know I failed and didn't get it but yeah, I've gained a bit of confidence and self esteem in myself...

Funnily, I was actually quite confident that I would get it but failed..LoL, you know the other time that I was very confident on something was in Form 5; the sports house captain-ship, but that also was a sudden fail. I guess next time I should not be confident that I'll succeed, just a Hope would be sufficient, Don't make it a SURE, just a HOPE.

It has been my philosophy, don't aim too high, you'll just end up with disappointment if you fail. Aim low so you will achieve it in reality and you won't be surprised if things don't go your way since you already "expected it"

"Never break four things in your life - TRUST, RELATION, PROMISE & HEART because when they break, they dont make noise but pains a lot..." Charles Dickens

medal finally here

2011-08-11T13:54:00.036+08:00

Yesterday I went home to take some stuffs and I found a package for me...I was surprised and curious.
It was my personalized long forgotten medal! LoL, My bible knowledge (BK) Rosie Cheah Award -medal.

here's the old post about the rosie cheah award. P/s: click on the "here's"

The Rosie Cheah BK Postal Quiz Award P/s: click on "the rosie cheah bk postal quiz award"
This award hopes to encourage and bless students who excel in the BK Postal Quiz and thus contribute to promoting the SPM Bible Knowledge paper. Students who have taken the BK Postal Quiz for two consecutive years (starting from year 2006) and attained the score of Highly Commendable qualify for this award.

well, I won this award in 2009 because of my 2008 and 2009 BK postal quiz...I was one of the Top 3 for both years. I couldn't really go for the free camp because I guess I was over-aged? or I didn't really bother cause I was lazy. Anyway, I waited for the medal till 2010 and then just forgot about it.

And yeah, so today's post will be about how timely this medal came.

It's like : I thought you forgotten me and I thought I'll never see you again. <--me saying to the medal. Waited so long ma...So I gave up on the thought of ever seeing you. BUT then now He answers "I have never forgotten you and never had. I never gave up on you and I have been watching you from afar all this while." <--(I changed address ma, so thought it's over)

You see, I've been slacking in my spiritual life. Some call it burn out, some call it wilderness and some say back slide? Some say lost the passion and some say lost the first love.

And this started at form 6, due to a sin I indulged myself in. I started floating away from God, feeling ashamed to go near Him. So I ignored and abandoned Him.

Yet everyday I still saw His fingerprints in my life, I saw Him working in my life, I saw His blessings and knew He is still watching over me. I was longing to let go of His hand but wishing that He would not let go of me...

I finally took a look at myself in the mirror and realised i can't be indulging in this sin forever, it's sinful, and destroying my life, i felt really disgusted and ashamed of myself and it was really tough trying to come out of it but it was do-able. Despite coming out of it, i still couldn't bring myself to go back to God, I felt really ashamed, not worthy, dirty, and I was away for too long that I thought that I just can't go back to Him. I couldn't trust myself anymore, I believed in Him and I knew He is faithful; I believed in Him but I didn't believe in me. "I know He loves me so much, but do I love Him?"

So i filled up my life trying to be as busy as I can in order to avoid people, church and God. I used "I'm busy" as an excuse. Just trying to live my life as secluded as I could.

And then just a week ago, Unexpected people had been talking to me about my spiritual walk. All nudging me and encouraging me to not give up on God, to come back...Like the story of the prodigal son...
I feel like a stumbling block cause I feel like I was a role model and now I am a black sheep.
For every reason I gave to my friends, they could counter it.
All of them having more faith in me than myself; they believe in me more than i believe in myself.

"You can struggle but don't give up, tahan"

"Sometimes you have to go through the wilderness, God allows it but He sees us through it"

"sometimes He lets us experience stuff so that we understand, God doesn't trick us into loving Him nor does He force us to love Him. He wants us to see Him for who He really is so we can love Him and I can tell you that He loves you and you love Him. It's just that faith is hard, building it is a process, and you can't take shortcuts."

"Maybe you can try being more sincere or honest with God. Don't try and give God an impression of who you are. Just let Him see you for exactly who you are..exactly what you are. When He sees us, we're all naked so we shouldn't try and act up. Just give yourself as you are and let Him be"

Even more pic

2011-08-05T00:29:00.001+08:00

nasi kucing

more pics

2011-08-05T00:17:00.000+08:00

alun-alun kidul, INDONESIA'S I-CITY

Aerobic friday mornings...quite laku wor

agility test

bleep test

Diatry at Borobudor

extreme sports at the seaside

makan on d floor is their culture

floor of fallen flowers, feels like autumn

candi prambanan

dolls in museum benteng

full prambanan

Wong at top level of borobudor

ruins bcoz of volcano

pictures from Indonesia student exchange program UNY-UM

2011-08-04T15:41:00.001+08:00

my batch

beca

all the girls and Titis in the centre

Titis and Henny in the middle

candi borobudor, must wear sarong :)

Indonesia batik, UNESCO world heritage

candi prambanan

seaside...really windy, huge waves.

making badminton shuttle cocks

sports therapy lecturer, Pak Ali

the sports therapy clinic

Sukan Mahasiswa Malaysia-Indonesia
SUKMALINDO

measuring VO2 max

blessed n loved

2011-08-01T15:07:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking...God had seriously been really kind to me...He let me go to so many events that supposedly clash aka happen in the same time...

Palapes training and handball,

Handball MASUM 2nd place

Handball and softball training for Masum,

softball MASUM 3rd place

Masum and Yayasan Tunku Abdul Rahman (YTAR) scholarship evaluation camp,

Kem penilaian diri calon Biasiswa Yayasan Tunku Abdul Rahman 2011

YTAR scholarship Interview and student exchange,

UM sports management's first year undergraduates that participated in UM-UNY student exchange

um-uny

All these events suppose to be choose one and forsake the other but somehow GOD allowed me to go for ALL :)
Ain't it amazing?

Ah, I really feel so blessed

light bulb experience

2011-07-31T16:53:00.000+08:00

Universitas Negeri Yogyakarta (UNY) and UM student exchange program 2011.
ah, the student exchange program did not meet my expectations, perhaps I expected too much.
Anyway, it didn't really go the way i was anticipating and we faced so much issues there.
As much as i would like to say it was a waste of time, I can't because that would have been a lie. It was a time of bonding and learning new cultures as well as building new relationships and gaining new knowledge. The lessons learnt there are precious and more practical.

I went there expecting sports and studying but what I gained was life and social skills.

Just as mr thomas edison said ‘I have not failed 1,000 times. I have successfully discovered 1,000 ways to NOT make a light bulb.’

I learn a few things that i should avoid in management and convert all the bad experience into life lessons.

A few things Dr Salleh said to us...

"Berkeluh tetapi OK akhirnya, itulah yang di Indonesia"

kotoran jadikan emas

why find job when you can create job?

"Jangan terlampau fikir paku yang jatuh, fikir bangunan, buat dinding lurus dan kukuh, simpan dalam perut masalah kecil"

cowok Efan ;P

2011-07-22T19:00:00.000+08:00

I met a really handsome boy today...We met at a makan place in Indonesia and we talked but i forgot to ask for his full name, number or Facebook. I don't even know what is he studying...
I'm not looking for a BF just yet and applications are closed temporary till I get my first degree...but it would be great if we be friends first..haha...tough luck...My phone doesn't have a camera function so I didn't manage to take a pic of him...

oh well, I guess i should stop thinking of him coz my UM coursemates cant tahan me behaving "feminine"...LoL, In addition to that, I might not be able to see him again...

so snap back into reality, girl!
Bye handsome boy :)

sour-here (souvenir)

2011-07-17T22:26:00.000+08:00

Today i was thinking about souvenirs...
why do people want them so desperately?
whenever someone says they are going somewhere, immediately the most common reaction from other people would be, "get something for me", "Don't forget to get me a souvenir", "I want SOUVENIR"...

Dear people,
Firstly think of the person going on the trip...he/she has to buy "souvenir" with their OWN MONEY and who knows how many souvenirs they have to get?

Secondly, come on, what is the main purpose of the person who's going on the trip...of cause it's not purposely go and buy souvenirs for people right? You want the person to go and waste his/her time and money instead of concentrating and focusing more resources (time, effort n money) on whatever purpose he/she is on the trip is it?

Thirdly, why do you even want a souvenir in the first place?

Why do you feel sad and disappointed and hurt when people don't bring anything back for you?

I really feel puzzled and don't understand what's with all this desperate wanting of someone to get something for you from somewhere...you don't give money and you expect that person to use her resources to get you something...and poor person has to get something for so many people...

hi from indon

2011-07-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone, greetings from Yogyakarta. I'm officially in INDONESIA for student exchange program organized by UM sports centre. Will be here till 31st July...studying...

By the way, as you all know I was in a deep dilemma because I had to choose between student exchange program or YTAR scholarship interview. Both on the 7th JULY...plane leaves at 7am while interview is at 1020am.

I asked the TAR foundation whether I can do the interview earlier like maybe the 5th or 6th July or much later in august but they said it's a NO because they need to arrange 6 members of the board and the board members are very busy and important people. Takkan just because of me they wanna kumpul for a day right? So I had to choose between the scholarship interview which is a 50% chance of getting the scholarship or a student exchange interview which I confirm get already.

If I don't go for the student exchange, my name would be blacklisted and I would no longer be able to participate for student exchange program because my name was sent to Vice Chancellor and everything is approved and the budget approved and all.

If I don't go for the interview I would always wonder what would happen if i took the road not taken, would I have aced the interview? Would other scholarships be better than this really exclusive and prestigious YTAR scholarship?

I talked with Kak Emi,who told me ask Dr Salleh (new director of UM sports centre) whether I can go a day late? Dr Salleh said ask Mr Nizam who deals with the plane ticket. Worse come to worse I have to pay my own ticket. So bla bla bla and then I really thank God that UM is not efficient that they not yet confirm the plane ticket so they could change the date of my ticket.

So I could go for both....but it was really frustrating and emotionally draining during that time of waiting for response from UM and YTAR....

time to recuperate

2011-07-03T16:11:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I went for Captainball COPA IBA. We got 4th place, owh well, at least we entered the semi finals. If I'm not mistaken, we played 6 matches all together...

Ok, so I think that would be enough sports for me at the moment. I do enjoy sports but I need recovery time you know...Let my body rest from all the discipline it went though.

Palapes Laut latihan karnival sukan was crazy, no rest. Karnival sukan palapes laut was even more crazy and jam-packed. Handball centralised training was ok la, at least we had a good rest even though we trained 3 times a day. Softball was crazy, train 4 times a day with little rest and then sometimes I join handball training after softball training or join softball training after handball training...Very little rest there. Thank God for BTAR camp so I could rest from sports a few days but almost no free time la, and we use a lot of brain juice, LoL. Then Masum handball was very relaxing, one game each day :), a lot of rest. Masum sofbol was crazy, 2 games a day and training whenever possible...After MASUM officially ended, I had Captainball.

OK, so 1 week Palapes
            4 weeks Masum training (handball+softball)
            2 weeks Masum (handball + softball)
            1 day copa iba captainball tournament
          equals at least 7 full weeks of compact back-to-back sports action.

Of cause there's rugby training on Tuesday but I'm not sure whether I'll be going la...see first la.

So, what's next on my schedule? YTAR Interview then student exchange to Indonesia->Universitas Negeri Jogjakarta.

Owh, Did I mention that I don't believe Kosmo! newspaper anymore? Firstly, the newspaper is Uitm bias and secondly the newspaper wrote wrong information and didn't correct itself even though I sent an email to point it out. It wrote that in masum, the women handball runner up is UTM, but actually UM girls are the one that went to the final and got 2nd place.

LoLs

masum

2011-06-30T01:54:00.000+08:00

Alright. so after the btar camp, I went to UPM for masum...Majlis Sukan Universiti Malaysia. It's inter local university sports. Handball and softball. 2nd place for handball and 3rd place for softball.

I have no talent in handball...Just a reserve, the last reserve...enter when all the other reserves have been used. I played a bit only. I understand la...It's a team sports so do whatever is best for the team, not the player...we had Zirah, fractured foot but still played-main player...sukma player ma--> Wait for ball and shoot

Softball, we had Anis->fractured left hand because of Sally's ball during practise...LoL. Then one by one got injured and it's like in the whole team, I was the only uninjured person...hehe. N <-one of our main player had an elbow dislocation because 3 uitm softball girls rammed into her...haiz...so, with one of our main player gone, we lost the opportunity to reach the final.
My role in the softball team was a runner...I took over Farah after she batt, and brought one point for the team. The next day, coach put me in the first line up and suddenly I was not a reserve liow.

I brought the team 1 point ;P

Well, it's been an interesting MASUM experience...but seriously,playing 2 sports in a competition tears your heart apart, you feel divided loyalty to both your team...you can't serve 2 masters...

Maybe I'll try hockey next year, at least, I know how to play hockey ma...

Softball and handball is a new sports for me...I just got to know these sports in my University life only.
there's no softball nor handball team in my secondary nor primary school. And when my secondary school handball team finally came to existence, I was in my final year at school so the teacher didn't let me join them because she didn't want to waste her effort woh, she said i'm in my last year and next year i won't be in the school so it's a waste of time to let me join the team/training...Gosh, like that also can wan hor...

ytar

2011-06-25T22:39:00.000+08:00

Hey all, so this is my little journey about the penilaian diri untuk calon biasiswa yayasan tunku abdul rahman(ytar)

I went to universiti tenaga nasional (uniten) with a senior (pm Mirmo)...everyone in formal attire. Thank you very much to Tan Li Fung for borrowing me your formal blouse :)

With God's grace, we managed to find the place but was half an hour late...aiyak! Kena scolded la.
After we got our room, we had to find bilik musytari for briefing...the room was quite luxurious...quite cool la..

Introduction of important people and program objective.

1.Inspire 2 b good future leaders who r concerned about self, community, and country’s well being at present and in future.

2. Nurture talents to become strength

3. Learn from each other to maintain networking beyond the camp

4. Motivate you 2 become critical n independent learner’s n thinkers who would excel in ur academic and life journey

Ground rules. Natural bridges...don't be fake or artificial bridges because it's not solid or strong.

They are going to treat us like adults, say things once only, find by our self where are rooms and places, we send things by ourselves...

Heart + mind = destiny

Be careful with your thought, it becomes your words

Be careful with your words, it becomes your action,

Be careful with your action, it becomes your habit,

Be careful with your habit, it becomes your character,

Be careful with your character, it become destiny.

Then motivational talks on how to speak well.

Intensify your life.

Apa khabar? Luar biasa. Always greet selamat pagi even though it's afternoon or evening or night cause in the morning you are refreshed.

multiple choice questionnaire...43 question about various topics like geographical, history, Tunku Abdul Rahman, religion, general knowledge and many others...if correct get 1 mark each answer, if wrong minus 1 mark each wrong answer and there's a safe option which is E. I'm not sure (no marks deducted). So many E loh...

then dinner (quite luxurious, but I had to control myself because it's masum season so no to rendang, curry and chili nor ice)

After dinner, another exam...about 40+ questions, IQ, mathematics, and many other aspects...same concept correct got point, wrong minus and E for safe aka no point.

Presentation skill and ethic talk...wise men always have more questions than answers. Golden rules for presentation, professionalism and effective writing. Emotions play a role when you write so relax and think positive. Writing is not a natural process unlike talking which nobody needs to teach. Writing is artificial skill and need to be learnt because human created it.

Eskimos has 36 words for snow...

3 phases: phase 1 is this evaluation camp...83 people. After this is interview of 50 people only and then only 30 people will get the scholarship. Very tough and tight competition.

Group distributed...I’m in group 4. Whoever stands up voluntarily first when group name is called will be leader. I was too afraid...

Find our own meeting room (titan 5).

Group leader Fast...we went to the room, our facilitators names were Tazz and Raj. Facilitators said get to know each other for 20 min. They will just be watching us. So I took charge and ordered Fast to take lead by introducing himself...wah, like as though I’m the facilitator or leader. My team members were Fast, Hisyam, Mat G, Maisarah, Fatihah, Chan, Asma, Hui and Cam...

Then after the intro, Fast took lead of ice breaking by a game of your name together with action...

Asma is from UM too( API), Martin from titas class, Mirmo, Pei Mei and me from UM.

After the whole thing, Raj asked me why I ask Fast to lead and not I myself lead?

I said Fast is the leader ma. Raj asked did we choose leader already? I explained what happened downstairs, we didn't have time to discuss, whoever stood up first would be the leader.

Day 2 ( red tshirt-sports attire)

Motivational talk, be grateful to God for being alive and having limbs that work, appreciate every day. Praise yourself and build confidence. Hugging is good for health because heart meets heart. The climb by Miley Cyrus is our theme song. One representative to go up and sing..I went.

Monster treasure hunt. Each monster got profile and must be approached properly, free flow of arrangement which monster you want to meet first. Collect magic parchment and treasure, find the last monster. 2 hours to complete. Strategies, there's early ending bonus, so you can just choose to complete the hunt or choose to end early...

Fill up form for all group activity (who is the major contributor/leader till last person)

I kept counting my team members to make sure that no one is left behind. Tazz asked me if I was a cadet in secondary, no la, I was a scout and St John ambulance n now I’m in Palapes Laut (reserve navy)

No rules but watch your ethics...

After lunch, we had to build a tower. 2 bottle of glue, 100 straws, 1 meter of raffia string, 2 scissors, 2 blades, 4 A4 paper were given...the tower has to hold an egg for 20 sec. It must be tall, strong, and unique. We can use other materials that are collected from around the hotel. Aiyah, thinking and building is not my strength.

Raj told me to keep up what I’m doing and do it much more...I feel like we've been here for 1 week already, so bonded.

Next activity: Role play of Mari Villagers, are you against or for development? During discussion I can be passionate and all but when we had to present I chickened out.

Fast was for development but once the New East Company gave bribery, and then Fast changed his mind.

Next activity was disabled people. Blind, mute and hand paralyzed. Mute can touch the person. Hand paralyzed can only talk but cannot hold people. Bomb everywhere. Guide everyone to get to the other side.

Mute is the most helpful because can have contact, raise someone's leg and guide it. Paralyzed could speak but sometimes their instruction are not so clear. The person who gets bombed then becomes a bomb at the place he/she died. Blind could speak but did not because wanted to focus and listen.

Debrief of disabled: In life we got to have friends to help us. Even though everyone has a weakness but we can work together to finish the journey...sama-sama melengkapi.

Stick to your principles, be sure of what you want to do, who do you want to follow/listen to...recognize who's your friend or foe. The choices you make will affect your life. Don't be on top by standing on others. You are telling people about yourself by what you do. Keep on improving.

Don't do silly mistakes, it can be avoided. Don't do things at bare minimum ( cukup syarat, sudahlah...not good).

Tazz read our resume and told us that we must spend time with people, everyone also is busy, not only you. If you don't want to spend time with people then people also won't want to spend time with you. If you feel they are not important then they too will feel that you are not important. When you got friends you feel good. People always use BUSY as an excuse. How are people going to remember you when you die?

Kejayaan datang dari doa dan restu ibu bapa.

Kita kalah bukan kerana musuh hebat tetapi kerana tiada perpaduan.

Talent showcase.

Like American idol, enter into room one by one...I entered wrong room, then I said I don't know how to do this, my talent is writing not speaking...then Tazz ask me to read my poem, I said can you read it yourself?...Then Tazz ask which is my best, favourite and why and explain a bit about it. After coming out I felt like a loser, where got people say "can you read it yourself?" to the interviewer? So dumb!

Group 4 had so much fun, singing, taking picture and talking...we can't believe that it's only day 2 but we feel like we knew each other for so long.

3rd day: Blue t-shirt day.

Avoid self doubt, choose friend, friend are reflection of who we are..

Celebrate your achievement. Nick Vujicic video....no hands or legs...

"Thank God my parents didn't know (quadriplegic) until I was born. Doctors would recommend abortion.

When people cheer me up, I say how do you know, you are not in my shoes.

You can only tell me something if you've been through it.

Perspective: how you see your life? Who are you? Where are you in life?

Disability is something that will hinder you to do something.

No hand and no legs do not mean disability...not if it does not hinder me from doing something.

See what you do have, is it constructive, you can't turn back time.

Daily agenda determine how successful you are. I'm not the only one with something bad in my life.

The doctor said I cannot stand..It’s just their opinion.

Obstacles can become opportunity ...

I got no limbs but it's not impossible. Don’t give up. Find your strength to get up. Finish strong."

Campus Proposal activity. Solve national problem, nurturing community practical, enhance leadership skill, creative and fun, and generate income, unique and catchy tagline....

Pack up and then present...

Exam: how to fulfil TAR’s mandate addressed to the youth, Leadership Action plan for 5 years..write in English your action plan and then in BM what or how you are going to make sure your plan come to reality in 5 years.

Closing:

Conquer yourself, not the mountain...Event + Response = Outcome.

Emotional decision is not successful. Everyone has a choice.

Softball vs. Hardball...will you bounce back after you are pushed/fall? Conquer your fear, move on positively.

Hati kita menerangi perjalanan hidup. Many people regret for not following their hunches/intuition.

Lagi tenang hati, lebih banyak penunjuk. Always ask for forgiveness and forgive people.

Marble n tile story moral: terima kesakitan of diukur n the outcome is good...painful journey but end product is beautiful. When you fall and terima the pukulan hebat, endure pain and learn n grow. This makes you greater n more successful.

Emperor and twin story: A twin served an emperor, the younger one an advisor while the elder one a boat paddler. The elder got jealous and the emperor hear of it, the emperor called in the elder bro then asked the elder bro if he heard something. Elder bro said yes, then the emperor asked the elder bro to go n see what is it. The elder bro paddled hard and saw a dog delivering puppies. Then he paddles back and hurried to tell the emperor. Then the emperor asked how many puppies were delivered? The elder bro paddled again and saw 6 puppies and came back to tell the emperor. The emperor asked how many male pups? The elder bro paddled again and went back to report that 4 male pups were born. Emperor asked what color is the pups. The elder bro once again went to paddle and came back saying there's 5 brown and 1 black. Then the emperor said you must be tired, rest here. Then the emperor called the younger bro and asked if he heard something. Yes, he answered and then the emperor asked him to find out. The younger bro hired someone to paddle the boat and then after sometime, he came back and told the emperor that a dog was giving birth, there's 4 male and 2 female, 5 brown and 1 black, and the father looked very excited...

Moral of the story: See the whole picture before making decision, take time and don't rush. There's a difference between someone who is a leader and someone who thinks he/she can be a leader...

Hui, Mai, Hilda, Kam, Asma

picture credits to Lim Shu Hui, our team photographer :)

she's on the left :)

bleep week 2

2011-06-09T19:51:00.000+08:00

today's bleep test with the softball team was level 8.8
i'm amazed by the big improvement of the handball team...from level 5 to level 7 in just one week. that's huge leh...and it's not just one person but majority of the team improved their bleep test results...that's really great.
my improvement was not so dramatic...of cause i'm disappointed la.
Our softball training period is longer but at a lower intensity. Softball trains 4 times a day. 6am jog and fitness which i am in charge of. After breakfast about 8.45am, we go to the field and practice then go for lunch. In the evening about 3.30pm we have training till 6pm, then dinner. Night training at 8pm-11.30pm. less running, more twisting and technical skill.

but handball training is just in the morning after breakfast about 9am-11am. evening 5pm-6.30pm. night 9pm-10.30pm...higher intensity and more running.

so my conclusion is that it's the quality and not the quantity.

at the moment i join handball in the evening only and softball for early morning, morning and night.

bleep week 1 handball masum

2011-06-02T14:10:00.003+08:00

aiya, bleep test result saya turun la...
before this level 8.10, today level 8.4 only...that's 6 runs...haiz so lousy la u Hilda.
Today's bleep test was for the Masum Handball team's latihan berpusat. Every week, each team must do bleep test as our centralized training content.

busy BZ

2011-05-30T15:52:00.001+08:00

I feel so darn busy.
I just finished my 1st year then i had a week break then i had palapes latihan karnival sukan for a week.

It was so packed. 6 am start for non-muslims (muslims programme starts at 4am...Qiamulai and bacaan al quran) and sleep at 12am.We train train train even under the pouring rain and scorching sun and once each day in the swimming pool to prepare for the Palapes Laut sports karnival between Upm, Uitm, Um. Akademi Laut Malaysia (Alam) and Kapal Diraja Sri Klang (KDSK) aka the kl-selangor navy HQ. The sports were
volleyball, football, futsal,netball, hoki geladak (a sports only the navy play), swimming, selam tempur (a relay of 4 person;swim about 50 meters then dive 2meter to collect a coin then swim back about 50 meters).Why was I so tired? Cause i played all the sports except football and selam tempur. The events were back to back...wah, lunch and dinner were the only break...about 1 hour to properly rest. Whole day sweating...Wear same clothes the whole week...Eww, so smelly. Then have to Iron clothes and look proper everyday....tired...

Just when I was about to go home after the palapes laut sports carnival ended, I received a call saying i'm in the masum handball team, so i have to join the 3 weeks centralized training...masum is the malaysian inter public university sports...of cause it's a bit more relaxing then palapes training la...3 weeks training then masum handball on the 19-25th june.

Next week i'm suppose to check in for masum softball 3 weeks centralized training...the masum softball on the 25-30th june...wah, so pack hor? This clash means i'll be alternating between softball and handball practices.

FYI: let's say i didn't go for masum, i'll still have the adidas run, the TAR scholarship thingi and Palapes Laut Fomdex IPTA, and palapes laut latihan fasa...this would have a break of 1 week in between but the training would be much more intense even if both the masum practise combined...that's much more heavy training cause it's military training style ma...and of ause not forgetting the student exchange and recently dingoes rugby team have compact training schedule and competitions so same only la...same same busy both sides of the coin...

I received email saying:
1.Don't forget i got Adidas all 24 run on 4th june-5th june.
2.I'll be joining the student exchange program from 3rd july to 29 july.
3.PROGRAM PENILAIAN DIRI UNTUK CALON BIASISWA TUNKU ABDUL RAHMAN (BTAR) 2011 on 17-19 jun at Residence Hotel University Tenaga Nasional.

i'm nervous for the TAR scholarship...what will they ask? What will happen in the 3 days?

Busy with so many things clashing and pack but still do-able. wah, so busy leh.
being so busy and living a rushed life may cause me to miss the main point perhaps?

rsc

2011-05-27T21:03:00.001+08:00

The Dog Anthem
You fill up my senses
Like a greasy chip butty
Like a packet of woodbines
Like a good pinch of snuff!
Like a night out in KL
Like the Royal Selangor
You fill up my senses
Come fill me again
Like a night out in KL
Like the Royal Selangor
You fill up my senses
Come fill me again...

Arh, the lyrics of the rugby club i am part of...by the lyrics we can assume that

Mat Sallehs created it lorh... And yes, by history the club was actually formed by Mat Sallehs mah...haha..."The Royal Selangor Club, The Dog, is one of Asia's oldest sporting clubs. Founded in 1884 exclusively for the use of the British expatriate community, it is now a truly Malaysian institution." excerpt from http://rscrugby.tripod.com/id3.html

I wonder what is a butty? and woodbines? Snuff? So, this is what wikipedia said

The Greasy Chip Butty Song is a football chant originally sung by the supporters of Sheffield United football club to the tune of Annie's Song, glorifying the dubious delights of life in Sheffield, in chief the eponymous Chip butty but also nightlife, beer and tobacco products. The song with its good-natured humour has been adopted and adapted by fans of a number of other Association Football teams, other football codes teams, and by other sports teams, both in the UK and internationally.

The song is to the tune of Annie's Song by John Denver^[2]:

You fill up my senses
Like a gallon of Magnet
Like a packet of Woodbines
Like a good pinch of snuff
Like a night out in Sheffield
Like a greasy chip butty
Like Sheffield United
Come fill me again....
Na Na Na Naa Naa Naaaaa, ooo!

Meaning

To a native of Yorkshire the words are probably self explanatory; the words celebrate the many pleasures that can be had in Sheffield, culminating in the target of the fan's adoration, in this instance, Sheffield United.

Magnet refers to John Smith's Magnet Bitter, a bitter brewed and widely available in Yorkshire. Some people claim that the second line is really Like a gallon of maggots. Maggots are obtained from fishing tackle outlets in denominations of imperial pints and hence this version would not be unreasonable, as fishing is popular in the region and hence a gallon of maggots would mean a good day out fishing.
Woodbines refers nostalgically to a once popular brand of strong cigarette.
Snuff is ground tobacco for sniffing up the nose. Snuff produced by Wilson's Snuff Mill is world famous, and produced only a mile away from Bramall Lane.
A Greasy chip butty can be purchased in any of the many local fish and chip shops. Butty is a slang word for a sandwich, and a chip butty is simply a sandwich where the filling is chips, ideally greasy and sometimes sprinkled with salt and vinegar. Generally, a white sandwich bap will be used for the bread. In Sheffield, these are simply known as Breadcakes.

Bap (often a larger soft roll, roughly 5-6 inches in diameter). Dough can contain fats such as lard or butter to provide tenderness to dough. Can come in multiple shapes dependent on region. Baps as traditionally made in Scotland are not sweet, unlike the Irish version which may contain currants. The 9th Edition of the Concise Oxford Dictionary (1995) says that the word "bap" dates from the 16th century and that its origin is unknown.

And oh, btw if you have been wondering why is it called the Dog's Anthem...Royal Selangor Club (RSC), has many sport section and each sport section has its name la...For the rugby section we have the bulldogs, dogs, dalmatians and dingoes, and chihuahuas. Dingoes refer to the women rugby players and chihuahuas refer to the children rugby players... The rest I'm not sure but i think the Bulldogs refer to the rugby players that are older in age, the dogs refer to the middle aged, dalmatian a bit younger people.

We train every Tuesday & Thursday at RSC Kiara 530pm. You are welcome to join us.

che siti wan kembang

2011-05-21T18:34:00.002+08:00

I ask my classmates why is Kelantan called Cik Siti wan Kembong? she came to Kelantan, then makanan so delicious that she kembung arh? Nola, it's not kembung, it's kembang and last time people their names are like that, apprently it's the name of the queen who was a ruler in kelantan...Che Siti Wan Kembang (<-click for more info)

Arh, the Kelantan trip was ok la...13 hour train ride was fun la. I Love seeing the scenaries from city and concrete buildings to green everywhere and atap roofs and cows everywhere...big transformation loh...
the train ride was bumpy..KTM mah. There's no line on the KTM so had to wait till i reach the next station then only got line<-phone line. There was a station every hour.. My ride was from KL sentral to Wakaf Bharu (kelantan).
There's no electric socket so don't think of changing our phone or laptop yeah...
The ticket 2nd class, sitting seat to go to wakaf bharu by ktm is rm 42.00, then come back also rm 42.00. So ktm ticket = RM84.00

When we arrive, we took a cab to the hotel "Selesa Hotel". The cab cost rm 20.
The hotel rate was rm 65 for a 3-4 person room a night and rm 43 for a 1-2 person bedroom. The price includes tax..(owh, now only i know hotel also got tax...)
It was a budget hotel which had air cond and fan, a barely working TV, a very small and dirty bathroom. For the 1-2 person room there was a queen size bed. For the 3-4 person room there was 3 single bed and an extra bed at the cost of an extra rm 10.
The manager is a tricky sly fox, we paid full but he said he will give us the resit for today and tomorrow he will give us the receipt for tomorrow even though we fully paid....but the next day, he ask us to pay again because we don't have the next day's receipt (which he suppose to give us but he said we got no proof and no receipt)...What a trap!
Anyway, we saw a signboard that anyone of the opposite sex that are not husband and wife cannot sleep in the same room...owh, that means bro and sis also you know....PAS area ma...

In Kelantan, there were arabic words on every road sign, banner, advertistment and shop...the BM on the road signboards, banner and shop were smaller....Ah, so i guess the non malay locals also can read Arabic.

It's really amazing to see so much green and 'bare' land (bare as in no building or anything, just a plain field) and animals so free. (Yaloh, i'm a city girl ma, so all this looks so different than the city where everything so padat and animals caged or confined and more buildings than greens.)

It's very village looking la...so many houses are wooden and spacious with land and animals...Very contrasting and with my modern developed hometown "KL"

The taxi driver charged rm 20 to go a trip and another rm 20 to return.
He said he would change rm 10 if we were late.
Taxi driver was a stingy guy, he didn't on the air cond but open the window throughout the whole journey, spoil my hair and made me smell like the road....haiz.
He double charged when we had to go to our friend's wedding... "traffic jam, petrol and distance"
Kelantan jam is nothing la, it's moving ma, so how can you call it jam? Haiz...Our train was at 7pm but he told us he will pick us at 5pm because he was scared of getting stuck in the "jam"
On taxi itself we spend more than rm 60....cut throat!

People in Kelantan, your pricing all like KL pricing even though your quality is lesser than KL quality...can die la...I'm not mat salleh u know, i'm local...and you treat me like this, how to cuti-cuti malaysia la?

I was amazed to see that religious buildings like church and temples also had big space and buildings...I thought it's a PAS area ma, so other religion would have lesser freedom of building religious places.

Even though I thought Kelantan was kampung-ish but apparently the place i went Kota Bharu is the TOWN aka City... Oh my, this is the city then how to imagine the village area?

From what i heard, there's no cinema, bowling alley or karaoke... Aiyah, thank God i'm not staying here....can die of boredom... my only entertainment would be catching chicken and playing with others?
The shops all close at 6pm, after 6.30pm, the shops are all closed, and it almost looked like ghost city...Huh, supper how? Thank God got 7-11, but no McD or KFC...there's one or two shops open la, but hard to find lo.

Food, I love their nasi dagang! yummmy, you should try it!
I wanted to try nasi kerabu, mi celup and hotdog pulut but no time....cause i didn't know the shops close at 6pm..I thought like KL, 24 hours, mamak, supper...can find the nasi kerabu, mi celup, hotdog pulut at maybe 8pm or 2am...Aiyah...cultural shock la...No SUPPER? Thank God I don't stay there.

It's hard to find Goreng-goreng as in fried food like fried mee, fried mee hoon and ect and if you manage to find a "mamak" shop that has fried food, the food doesn't taste delicious...the kuih also not so delicious like KL kuih-muih or maybe it's just not our cup of tea?

worry

2011-05-15T14:04:00.000+08:00

My mom told me to spread my wings and fly...Double meaning? LoL

I would be traveling alone for my first time, I mean no family members...I'll be going to Kelantan for my form 6 classmate's wedding. That's like more than 10 hours journey with a few other form 6 classmates. Going tonight and will be back in KL on Wed morning. I'm quite worried as this is my first time going out with a group of people and to a state quite far away. I always stayed in KL and it's like me coming out of my cocoon...Of cause I worry whether I brought enough things, whether I have enough money, whether I'll look like a fool and tiny dumb things that's not worth worrying.

A&P, and the miracle of my first semester

2011-05-14T10:49:00.001+08:00

Did I tell you about last semester? It was my first semester and there was this one subject (anatomy and physiology)...

The first lecture Mr Yeoh gave was already complicated and I couldn't understand a thing and tears rolled down my face continuously but silently due to the frustration of not being able to understand anything he taught. Aiyah, so shy you know, crying in class...i tried to keep myself from tearing but i failed to do so.
For the second lecture...tears came out again...aiyoh, why la am I so dramatic? just because i can't understand tears keep finding their way out...

The next day after the 2nd anatomy and physiology lecture, I went to see my academic adviser and asked if I could drop the subject but he said the subject was a core subject so I cannot drop it and he said "you're a chinese, if the malays can do it then you also can do it."...Wah, this is how an academic adviser encourages arh? (*no offense intended)

I was feeling so sad and very sure that I would fail the paper...so anyway I went for his lectures and faithfully my tears would somehow find it's way to come out, I always try my best to understand but I have no idea what he was teaching. I mean Mr Yeoh is a good teacher but the subject was incomprehensible for my simple brain to understand.I also try my best to not tear but I guess the emotions was stronger then the will to not cry in class. It's really so embarrassing you know...

There's 14 weeks of lectures and then the final exam paper. Finally,on the 11th week, I managed to not cry and somehow by God's grace I manage to understand the subject...Wow, cool. This lecturer always is amaze by the complexity of how human are made and how they function. He said it's so amazing how we can put our hands in our pocket without seeing and don't take things or abilities for granted.

I was able to do the exam and you know what? I got an A (highest grade) for the subject! Wow. Praise God because I know without God, I wouldn't be able to understand or comprehend the subject. Can you imagine, I was thinking "this is gonna be an impossible subject for me" and I wanted to drop it because I was very sure that I would fail it. Tearing in class for 11 weeks (2 classes each week). And suddenly I aced the subject! Highest grade some more!
I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength-Philippians 4:13

based on STPM results, I was just a C student and to reach 3.0 itself was a struggle, I never even dreamed of getting a cgpa of 4.0 in my life,
But with God's grace, I managed to get 4 flat on my first semester! WOW! that means I got 4 A's over 4 subjects...Cool!

Ephesians 3:20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us --> God gives us more than we ask or imagine ^^

lecturers

2011-05-10T03:48:00.001+08:00

A second semester of weird lecturers...a wider dynamic and characters.

Dr Selina Khoo Phaik Lin

subject taught: Sports Sociology

She's the deputy director of the Sports Centre (Academic department)

She was stressed up by handling our batch's inability to register for english, extra credit hours and finding alternatives when we faced academic struggles...In class, she appreciates us coming early (she told us thank you for coming early). Her voice is soft that we have to sit in front or not we cant hear anything, her attitude is standing up for the minority ( a few times in class, she defended the minors). Another characteristic of her is she would always be surprised due to her innocence...it's like she's so so innocent la. She asked the class to not sit in the same place during each class...She's the type of lecturer that will never ever give full marks...So if the question is like over 10, the best will get 8. Oh ya, suddenly only got 2 bonus marks for an event which not many of use went...That's unfair, she didn't announce that 2 extra mark would be given if we went for it (the event was not compulsory)..Geez!

The first person/lecturer to call me kiasu! (btw kiasu direct translation is Scared to Lose. Commonly Referring to people who always want to win win win)

Pn Rohaini Amin

Subject taught: Tamadun Islam dan Tamadun Asia

A lecturer that always had something to say about anything and everything. She loved asking students to help other students understand more about a subject. For example she asked Chinese students explain more about the Chinese culture and meaning (Smart lady, students do explaining, she understand better, other students pay more attention and understand more, she teach less). <--More of a 2 or 3 way dimension of teaching method. Teach smart not teach hard ;P This lecturer really inspire us to think, she taught us how to THINK, she inspired, provoke and encouraged us to THINK...very interesting way of giving us a soft skill.

Pn Fatimi

Subject taught: Hubungan Etnik

She said I'm very narrow minded...arh, a statement that really slap me on the face. Welcome to reality, please think outside the box Hilda! Don't take things too literal.

My carry mark was a bit low, that caused me a B+ while my classmates with a better carry mark got an A-, that means a 5 marks away...haiz...

80 - 100 A (4.0)

75 - 79 A- (3.7)

70 - 74 B+ (3.3)

Pn Wirdati Radzi

Subject taught: Sport Management

Very relaxed and calm personality. You have to ask question in order to learn. Very American type of teaching style, accept any answers as long as it's rational. Truthful and far thinker...

Dr Abdul Halim Mokhtar

Subject taught: 1st Aid and CPR

First 4-5 classes he didn't attend, we were skeptical whether there was even a lecturer for this subject, we didn't even know if the lecturer was a male or female, there was no information on the lecturer, not even the name. SO anyway, the few classmates that were faithful went to "classes" and suddenly we find out that our lecturer is the sports director of the sports centre. He taught fast and didn't wait or care if people understood. Like American lecturers. His slides were always full of pictures (not that pleasant-1st aid ma, so gruesome pictures loh). He taught us to focus on the main subject despite the topic given (fractures and snake bite, focus on 1st aid since our subject is about 1st Aid, and focus lesser on the topic). His notes is mix of english and malay...so many combined language sentence that made it difficult for us to do own notes...The notes were also repeating so we have to arrange it our self.

Mr Fajar

Subject taught: health and fitness and nutrition

He has a very bad command of english, "Sports is not health" then when he explain in Malay, he meant people who do sports is not necessarily healthy...OMG, no wonder la the foreign student failed...This lecturer doesn't teach properly, and for the 2nd test, SUDDENLY his english was so high class (means sure la the paper sentences were not done by him) but despite that, some questions were incomplete and didn't make sense (maybe he edited or ask someone to translate word by word to good english...direct translation but high class words). The 2nd test was really frustrating because he ask many questions that he didn't teach nor was it in our notes. Our assignments instructions were not clear and when we asked, he would say do it any way you want...at last our carry mark was so low due to the test and the assignment (many got less than half like 27/60)...meaning if by some miracle he/she get's full mark for the final exam, the person will have no chance of an A. Just to pass the subject is a pain in the S. I feel he's not a good lecturer...btw, he's only a part time lecturer (it explains the lousy teaching, instruction, questions, explanation, marking and grading). The exam paper was a killer! So many questions on things he didn't teach and the bilingual made things worse...the malay sentence asked for something while the english sentence asked for something else...Oh My, what to answer? Just answer both la...meaning many questions with 2 sets of answers. SUCKS la..why no one check the paper la? I think he simply put the marks (a question which has 5 answers, he gave 6 marks...where does the extra one mark go to? Give example for all 5 answers? meaning 0.2 mark for each example arh? the question didn't ask for example also). Damn frustrating paper. Don't know or understand what is the kehendak soalan. English and Malay asking for 2 different answers...Grrr

seterest....stress

2011-05-05T17:55:00.000+08:00

Siswamail (university malaya email for uni announcements) is now becoming something like gmail and this kinda annoying because now i cannot sign in siswa and gmail at the same time.
I have an option of turning on the multiple sign in app but this would be risky as the UM IT admin has control over our siswamail and can change passwords and collect data and access and so on SO if i were to turn on the multiple sign in, there's a risk that the UM IT Admin would gain access and intrude my gmail privacy lor...

Rights, yesterday was quite crazy somehow i feel like not studying. Feeling very Frustrated, I am reading but I feel like nothing is entering my head. I can't focus...I'm tired mentally...No real reason. My course-mate asked me, "Pshycho already kah? ", "Your mom asked you to get married is it?" "LoL, This is what people call STRESS la." Then she call me lame..
Gonna try sleep early, if my conscience let me sleep at all.

Lazy is the word? Lost the passion? I don't want to fail this subject and this critical thinking is a bit tough.
Come on Brain! You can absorb more, you gotta keep going, you still got a few more papers you know! You're just half way there Mfoong. Don't give up! Add oil. I know you can. You just gotta put aside your tiredness.
Don't drop ok, you gotta hang in there. Your university journey does not and should not end here,I know you don't want to regret for not studying.
God, would you help me refind the passion to study? Thanks, Love you.

Struggle through this now and you'll find the effort really worth it ok.
I know the easy subjects are all over and now for the subjects you don't really like, don't give up,don't give in. Push on, strive and keep advancing, don't look back nor drop out ok!
GO, GO, GO.

Gov threatening chinese community

2011-05-03T11:23:00.000+08:00

In Sarawak, the government Barisan Nasional (BN) lost majority of the chinese seats to DAP(opposition)
And now BN threatens the Chinese community, If you don't vote for the government in the next election then you will risk having no representation in the government, only BN can assure harmony wor...tsk tsk tsk, whatever happened to 1 Malaysia? And did you know that Utusan Malaysia proposed a 1 Melayu 1 Bumi?

http://www.themalaysianinsider.com/malaysia/article/1-melayu-compromises-1-malaysia-says-rafidah

"Utusan Malaysia has called on owners Umno to spearhead a “1 Melayu, 1 Bumi movement” involving all Malay parties, claiming that the DAP was intent on toppling the country’s Malay leadership.

Najib had dismissed the call as the personal opinion of the Utusan editor who mooted it, while former prime minister Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad said such a movement would be disastrous as it would result in a two-party system where each side would be dominated by one race.

Despite Dr Mahathir’s criticisms, Malay rights group Perkasa — of which Dr Mahathir is patron — has said it will spearhead such a movement."

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/5/1/nation/8588294&sec=nation

MCA has sent a message to the Chinese voters that they cannot support the Opposition and yet hope for a strong representation in the Government, said the Prime Minister.

“If the Chinese voters want to support the Opposition, they will sacrifice parties in the Government.

“If they want to have a more meaningful voice to represent their interest, then they must support the Barisan Nasional component parties,” said Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak
“Only Barisan can assure political stability and harmony in this country. We have a proven track record and our policies are accepted by all communities,” he said.

you see how different Malaysia is compared to Singapore? Singapore told voters not to be afraid of voting for the Opposition. This is because Singapore would continue to be run by its excellent civil service. They genuinely just want to serve, not play politics. But in Malaysia it's all threatenings. Haiz....

want money then say No to baby

2011-04-29T03:12:00.000+08:00

http://www.google.com/hostednews/afp/article/ALeqM5ha_Uoi1gGITdQsDLfxLaZpzz7mHw?docId=CNG.a240affcde7d093286457b2f9e260179.81

Indian newlyweds offered cash to delay having children

By Karishma Vyas (AFP)
SATARA, India — While countries like Japan, Canada and Australia hand out "baby bonuses" to encourage people to have children, couples in one part of India are getting cash to do just the opposite.
Rajia and other women like her were attracted by the offer of 5,000 rupees in cash if they stayed childless for two years after their nuptials. If they hold out for another year, they receive an extra 2,500 rupees.

The scheme is voluntary: the only conditions being that the marriage has to be registered with the government and that participants sign a consent form confirming that they are taking part of their own free will.
Over the first two years, couples have to attend compulsory counseling and education classes every three months.

The sessions include family planning advice. Free condoms and the oral contraceptive pill are available. Even abortions can be arranged.

GE Don't fear voting for Opposition, says SDP - Channel NewsAsia

2011-04-29T02:44:00.001+08:00

GE Don't fear voting for Opposition, says SDP - Channel NewsAsia
click on the link above for full report.

Wah, Singapore election is so cool! I love the statement "Michelle Lee told voters not to be afraid of voting for the Opposition.

This is because Singapore would continue to be run by its excellent civil service."

University Malaya brought shame on me

2011-04-24T20:40:00.000+08:00

How the Universiti of Malaya (UM) defamed me, Disgraced me and Tarnished my image, scratched my integrity and credibility even though I'm innocent. Damaged done. I want an apology from UM please.

When I went home, the vibes were not so good, there was that stare...the one people do when they feel disgusted. My mom said to me "You spend a lot of money ya, the rm200 I gave you last week sure finish already right..."
Huh? What's this all about? No, I still have some money, I mean I used it but not all yet...Why?

Mom: I received a letter from your University, UM, it stated that you OWE the university rm 200!

me: Huh? WHAT THE? I don't owe the UM anything, I already cleared my account.

(Will people believe you or the "proof" which is in black and white? Apparently I'm "caught red handed")

Mom: Say what you want, here's the proof. *hands the letter over*

me: *takes out a piece of paper from my wallet, (thinking in my brain, thank God I didn't throw away my bank receipt) and hands it over while taking the letter* Nah, here's the proof, I already paid everything last month! BTW, when did you receive this letter?

Mom: Wednesday. 20th April.

me examining the DAMN letter...Gosh, the statement was dated on 30th MAC and the envelope is stamped on the 18th of APRIL and delivered on the 20th of APRIL! that's like almost 3 weeks just to deliver the DAMN letter. UM, if you wanted to wait so long before posting the letter then at least recheck the account a few days before you post it la or not just post it as soon as you print it out la. Save stamp cost ma..Haiz..

FYI: I cleared my account on 31 mac (with hard cold CASH)
Furthermore, the reason of the RM 200 is also in a way UM's fault. Our vice-director of Sports Centre told us to register Hubungan Etnik in the last minute. So a rm100 fine.
and the Damn Palapes Laut UM who promoted it's free tricked us and we actually have to pay rm 100.

My younger bro who used to look up to me because I'm prudent in money now looks down on me because of this DAMN thing that i'm innocent of. The respect I had is now gone down the drain.
My elder bro who just last week told me don't be like Uni students who squander their ptptn money and finished it all up very fast that UPM had to use a food card to settle the prob of students starving so the food card can only be used to buy food and nothing else. Now he looks down on me and thinks I'm one of those people. BTW mr koko, your uni hostel n my uni hostel accomodation fee is so different ok, mine is rm6.50 a day without food while yours is surely much more lower so of cause la you have enough ptptn money to live on. Furthermore your UPM palapes allowance is definitely much more than my DAMN UM's Palapes allowance ok (refer to the previous blog post)

My "allowance" also stopped because of this damn defamatory! The family thinks I simply simply waste my money.

UM you have a very terrible management! I'm innocent...
Feels like Anuar...Defamed by the Trio, even though Anwar is proven innocent from the sex video but damage already done to his image. Will Anwar sue the trio on defaming him?

Also like a guy getting a 1 year jail sentence and then was found innocent. His name is cleared but his image is gone already because he had been in jail for 1 year..People won't listen or believe that "I was innocent" cause they will just zoom in the part "Jailed for one year". Damage done already...

should I too take legal action on UM? huhahaha...bodoh la me, a more rational thing to think is how to reach the wakil pelajar? mpmum? I want this lettering to be more efficient please...
Imagine if I lived in an evil step-family, they would use this to further mistreat me and hurl insults and attack me...haiz...

lose lose navy reserve

2011-04-23T12:21:00.000+08:00

Study week is officially over and just yesterday, my lecturer gave us a new topic to cover...exam is next week. Woah so cruel la, last minute only he added a new topic...haiz...

I found out that the PALAPES LAUT in UiTM and UPM is much more luxurious than the PALAPES Laut in UM. Their watches (morning roll call every wednesdays) are counted as hours (get paid rm 4 per hour) while in UM all our hours are not counted as hours.
The highest my batch got is rm700 while for UiTM, the normal allowance they get is 2.4 K.
What a big difference!!
Furthermore in UM, we have so many trainings but it is rarely counted as hours but in other universities, ALL their activities are counted as hours.
In UM, Only official compulsory trainings like Annual Camp Training(ACT), Induksi camp (introduction for cadet) and Fizikal Orientated Mental Development Exercise training (FOMDEX) are counted as hours. When we have trainings in UM, about only 25% of trainings is counted as hours while we have to take out so much money to standardize everything from pen to swimsuit.

It's a waste of money, I already got a swimsuit and they force me to fork out rm 125 for a ugly full body swimsuit...
Beside that. the Palapes Laut in UM are so smart, if you don't attend, they ask you to pay the hours...meaning, not only you don't get hours but you have to pay the hours...what kind of logic is that?
it's like i am expected to pay money for one "shirt" which is compulsory and which by right i suppose to get free, and then because I paid, they ask me to pay again? Huh? I feel this is very dumb.

I mean if i don't attend training, by right i should have no hours (this is correct, there's no hours given)
then they ask us to pay hours back because I didn't attend training... (WHAT? firstly you didn't pay me for the hours and now you are asking me for something you didn't give me?)

I tell you, palapes laut in UM is a lose-lose situation, not only you spend so much but you spend more then you earn and they ask real nonsense requests.

Maybe PALAPES LAUT in other Uni is great but certainly not in UM.

less clash?

2011-04-18T21:31:00.001+08:00

Ah, the newest news on the clashes. More clashes and more things sacrificed. Maybe to balance things up, i get to add new things in my schedule?

So Masum schedule was re-shuffled because a few games was taken out. Therefore causing softball and handball to be on the same time...Oh, opportunity cost...Bye Bye handball, I joined softball UM training since last sem already la. Latihan pusat bermula 29 Mei. Sukan MASUM bermula 18 - 30 June.

This meaning Hello Indonesia as my July is back since Softball is brought to June. Student exchange in Jogjakarta..but a few probs...student exchange maybe canceled due to lack of students participating in sports centre of UM...major contribution to the lack of interest might be money la...we have to pay 30% of flight tix and bring $ to buy extra food, token of appreciation for lecturers and shopping...

This student exchange program is only for sports center students but many of our seniors and course mates are holding back maybe because of the money factor?
Come on, Those who have full ptptn loan also barely have enough money to eat...class notes fee also hard to pay up...

sem break of clashes.

2011-04-13T15:20:00.000+08:00

My 2nd semester is gonna end and this marks the semester break of may to september :P but it's already full!
"opportunity cost" an economic term which means i'll have to sacrifice the second best alternative in order to choose the first best choice..meaning choose the best and let go of the others loh...

majlis sukan universiti-universiti malaysia (masum)
sukan malaysia (sukma)

i can't enter sukma softball team kl bcoz i'm in softball UM team which is preparing for masum. The masum training camp will be during sukma and right now is just 2 weeks away from our exam period, so i cant attend kl training also.
the age limit for sukma is 21, and this means this would have been my first and last year participating in sukma...Unfortunately everything is clashing!

Next clash is the student exchange program for UM sports centre students which is in the month of july and I will be having softball masum at that time :( A whole month of experiencing life in Universitas Muhammadiyah Yogyakarta at borobudur :'( gone because of masum!

i was planning to work so that i can go to Labuan 10's rugby in july but my june would be taken by masum handball.

My last exam paper is on the 9th of may and palapes training starts on 17th of may all the way to the end of may.

The choice (what i sacrificed)
so may exam n palapes (kl softball training, work)
jun handball (sukma softball, work)
july softball (student exchange)

at the moment, august is free and september marks the restart of my new semester aka 4th semester...I feel quite sad that i can never enter sukma because of exam, and time and masum.
I feel very sad that i can't go for student exchange during the semester break
I feel quite sad that i can't work so i can't go for Labuan 10's rugby tournament :(

CC trip to Klang n Pulau Ketam

2011-04-10T17:44:00.000+08:00

On saturday, i had softball training but i went for the 11th residential college Chinese Community(CC) trip. We went to makan bak kut teh at Klang and Pulau Ketam to eat seafood. I know many people were surprised to find out that i chose the CC trip over a sport training. WHY? It's because it would be my last time being with my college CC as next year I would be changing to 5th college (I join PALAPES aka Reserve Navy ma), so i was quite sad that not many people went.

So anyway, we carpooled to Klang and yum yum, i love the rice, of cause the bak kut teh gravy was good but the rice is the highlight for me la...
After eating, we travelled to Port Klang ktm to park our car and a speed boat took us to visit a fishing area, left us there for 10 mins, then we sat on another boat to visit the fish reserve, and then we sat on another different boat to visit the 1st house in Pulau Ketam, btw it's 100 yrs old already...that's much older than Malaysia. After that we took the boat to pulau ketam jeti and had lunch then we had a tour under the rain and then after the rain stopped, we had 1 hour free and easy with a bicycle :)

The tour was in mandarin, but Dwei Wen accompanied me and sort of translated what the tour guide was saying. I really appreciate her thoughtfulness and kindness. She also shared her umbrella with me. Thank you very much Dwei Wen! Sayang sama kamu.


11th college Chinese Community that went for the trip, just missing cameraman in this pic	. Klang Bak Kut Teh

the girls :) Dwei Wen is in blue

speedboat "footprints" on the water

fishy posing for the camera

Pulau Ketam jetty

how many crab can you count?

Viewing Pulau Ketam from the boat.

i think the tour guide looks like a local chinese artist, KK

how 2 bonus marks brought the highest to the 4th place.

2011-04-05T13:45:00.000+08:00

My lecturer Dr Selina Khoo called me KIASU...LoLs, I never really considered myself kiasu before but I had stamped myself as being a super sore loser, I don't really accept losing gracefully.

Ok, now onto today's main topic...Sociology carry marks.
The weight is 20% for test, 20% for presentation and 20% for assignment. The remaining 40% is for the final exam.

I tried my best for the test and managed to score one of the highest score in my class.
Presentation is just not my strength as I don't really have people skill or communication skills. So, I was 3rd lowest in class. Well, at least I got more than half for presentation.
Assignment, we just passed it up and so we have to wait for it.

You see, on my own effort i got 33.5 over 40.
Suddenly today our lecturer said she will give bonus 2 marks for those who went to batu road school, which by the way was NOT compulsory nor did she state that bonus 2 marks would be allocated if we attend the batu road school pre-training!

So now from highest, I dropped down to 4th place because of the bonus 2 marks! Walauweh, macam ini pun boleh kah?

It's alright by S club 7

It's alright
You know it's gonna be alright
Oh yeah

You gotta understand now
Tomorrow is brighter day
The memories will fade away
And the sun will shine, on you

So many friends you get to make
So many hearts you get to break
So much love you gotta give
Your whole life's still left to live

Spread your wings and fly
Kiss the pain goodbye
Let the tears run dry
You gotta get yourself together

hectic week

2011-03-31T11:34:00.000+08:00

Been having a hectic weekend...sleep at 2-3am and wake up at 7am. Falling asleep in classes and falling asleep on my laptop during assignment. Handball practise 8pm-1130pm...woah...my body is not getting enough rest. Not eating on time cause quite busy with the University life.

Yesterday i was So tired that i couldn't hear all my 3 alarms, went to a class late, wanted to set coundown reminder in 10 minutes but instead set it at 10 hours? Gosh, too exhausted already.

Realised that TNC is not the VC. Timbalan Naib Chancellor is the Deputy Vice Chancellor, not the Vice Chancellor. There are a few TNC's.

Realised that I'm not a good team player, I don't like making decision, I hurt people with my words, I'm quite of a last minute girl.

I put all the blame on myself and always thinking negatively of myself and low self esteem.Often don't trust myself. People can read me easily...i'm not good in hiding my emotions.

college dinner, bleep

2011-03-29T13:44:00.002+08:00

Residential college dinner. Cheong sam and make up, high heels killed my toes.
Mascara is heavy la, my eyes lashes was feeling the weight and kept blinking..LOL. so my Muscles around the eye is not strong enough? haha. Here are some pictures:

Recently, one of my coursemate, Chuah Ming Zhe got injured...My other coursemate, Tor Phi Nn bought, belanja and delivered lunch for him but Nn said I was the one who belanja....Haiz? Why pull me in the picture?

I told you last week that i would go for another bleep test, The supplement were in 3 forms.One person only take 1 form of vitamin C. There were 1 vitamin C tablet or 5 imported oranges or 15 local mandarin oranges. Yeah, you didn't hear wrongly, it's 15! I took the 15 form...it was mentally tiring la, eating so many oranges in class. I felt full and felt like i was gonna vomit soon.
As a preparation I went to the bathroom 2 times before the bleep test to clear liquid in my body (I ate 15 mandarin oranges ma...)

During the bleep test, I ran till Level 8.9 then I felt like peeing. Told myself, at least improve 0.1 more then go. So I ran level 8.10 then my bladder just couldn't take it and I immediately rushed to the loo.

After the bleep test, my stomach felt pain like asthough someone was compressing my stomach aka pushing my whole stomach inside. Crazy la...Oh, my other coursemates who took 15 mandarin oranges also felt the pain...

Ok la, if we wanna sabotage anyone, make them eat 15 mandarin oranges then send them for a bleep test almost immediately after they finish eating it...LoL

One of my form 6 friend is gonna get married in May...woah, so fast. I would be able to travel to Kelantan if there's no PALAPES training la. But most probably there would be training.

PIPJ

2011-03-25T03:16:00.000+08:00

i went for Um team handball practise cause my senior ask me to go.
after warming up and jogging, we had to do throwing aka passing drill. I never played handball before because in form 5 when my school just established the handball team, the teacher said i'm too old and thus didn't let me enter the club. Discrimination! LoL.
I did hold the handball ball before but don't know nuts about it.

A senior threw the ball to me, my left fingers went hyper-extension as the ball hit my fingers with a strong impact.
Gosh, my first session in handball and already injured? So my left index finger was swollen straight away, i endured the pain and continued the game.

Handball is definitely much more dangerous than rugby.
the game of handball looked easy but it was NOT easy laa.
3 steps before shooting and the jump on which foot if you want to shoot with which hand. Walauweh, soo complicated leh.

Iced it but still swollen. Pain la dei. Tues 9.30pm ish kena, but friday still swollen.
So Friday 11 am-ish, I went to university hospital sports clinic...the nurse said sports clinic closes in the afternoon, next time come at 9am, it opens at 8am.
doctor checked me then sent me for an x-ray, then the doctor examined the pain and sent me for a scan.
apparently i have a PIPJ injury aka Proximal Inter Pharyngeal Joint injury. It's between the 2nd and 3rd bone.

so yeah, dr said I should rest 6 weeks from hand sports. If I am stubborn and still do sports, he threaten to cement my whole left arm. I must go and see dr every 2 weeks. He placed a splint on finger. It's 30 degrees. On my next appointment it will be 20 degrees for 2 weeks and then 10 degrees for 2 weeks then ok gua.

Aiyah, how to qualify for Masum? MAjlis Sukan Universiti Malaysia...it's inter uni sports.

lousy me

2011-03-23T14:42:00.001+08:00

Ok, so I've been reflecting and you know what? I came into realization that I am a really horrid girl.

Really rude and always talking before thinking thus saying hurtful things and causing grief to people around me. Lousy me...

I'm always sarcastic and arrogant and lame.

Too many sorrows i have brought into the lives of people around me. I wanna say I'm sorry, will try to control myself. Need to change. Need to be aware that others have feelings too.

proverbs 17:28 Even fools are thought wise if they keep silent, and discerning if they hold their tongues.

james 1:26 Those who consider themselves religious and yet do not keep a tight rein on their tongues deceive themselves, and their religion is worthless.

Yeah, so words can really hurt people. Did you know that in singapore, verbal abuse is just as horrific as domestic violence.

Ads from the Aware Helpline in Singapore showing that domestic violence include verbal abuse also.
Their tag line: Verbal abuse can be just as horrific. But you don’t have to suffer in silence

http://osocio.org/message/verbal_abuse_can_be_just_as_horrific/

EPL, bleep n shooting

2011-03-22T14:12:00.002+08:00

harlo,
i'm sure some of you thought i abandoned my blog...Nope, that wasn't the case.
What happened was that my laptop went for a repair and since it's still under warranty, so i didn't have to pay the "hospital fee' :) It just checked out from the hospital yesterday night.

well, many things were going on and it was kind of hard to blog cause the sports centre computer lab was closed or i don't like blogging on the computer in the library.

I started joining Mr Lian's Bible study class on Tues Nights. Mr Lian was Francis Dunn's sifu, so the style is quite similar. Mr Lian got annoyed with me and said I got a crook mind as in I keep finding loop holes and think too much, I make simple things complicated. He said I should try to understand what he is saying rather than looking for faults and loop holes. He told me, this habit might get me into trouble. The questions I ask are usually real as in I really don't know mah, but people think I'm trying to be funny or keep challenging people, people might also think i'm irritating and because of me the teachers are just at the sidelines and not getting any chance to enter the main topic or syllabus. One thing i admire about Mr Lian is that he is straight to the point, not afraid to say things church keep taboo. Maybe a bit like John the Baptist.

Yeap, I think too much...this is not GOOD. It's our Asian Culture to just accept words that comes out from elder people as a sign of respect. I'm rude when I challenge the belief system or think too much or ask questions. Haiya, Hilda Hew Mun Foong, you gotta stop thinking too much ok....

Volunteering in the EPL masters football was kind of exhausting and really a bad experience, not just for me but for other UM volunteers too. I never knew Malaysians can be so rude, stubborn and really OKU, they have brains but refuse to think, eyes and ears but choose not to obey the rules...I am Really sad and ashamed that these are my fellow countrymen and this is how they behaved. Much shocking was the guards who just watched me enforcing the law but did not do anything to help me, instead they just told me, think of your safety first, just let those stubborn thugs in. Come on, they are GUARDS but they advised me this kind of things? I really felt disappointed and lost my confidence in security guards.

Bleep test again :)
level 8.9, I could go on but no mental strength.
history of my bleep tests:
My first bleep test result was level 5.7 during rugby training
2nd bleep test during UM interview for sports management course was level 6.6
3rd bleep test for rugby national team to the qualifying round to Asian Games at Guangzhou 2010, level 8.3
4th, program Wellness by Pusat Sukan UM...for fun and fitness...level 8.3 again! :'(
so this is my 5th, exercise pre-test for senior. Level 8.9

there will be one more bleep test next week, we'll take vitamin c then do the bleep test as the senior wanted to find out the correlation between vitamin c and bleep test. So stay tuned next week for my next bleep test result ya...

assignments were piling up and presentations were really filling up our whole schedules.

Oh ya, did I mention that we got our reserve soldier number already? So, last week we had shooting exposure, we used vector pistol, glock 17 pistol, m16 and aug steyr. The guns are really heavy. Pistols weigh about 2 kgs while the aug steyr a1 weight almost 4kg, the m16 weight about 3kg, all these weight are without the bullets...wah, heavy. The sound that comes out when the trigger is pulled is so loud and deafening. It's louder than fire crackers, like asthough a fire crackers right next to your ears...the force after the gun is fired is quite strong also. The AUG stands for Army Universal Gun. It was heavy but the binocular scope gave good accurate shots. M16 was lighter but harder to focus on as there was no telescope.

m16

aug steyr a1. exactly the one we used

glock 17

vector pistol

yeah,another thing that happened was Swee Kit taking me out for lunch, it's part of her job scope to meet up with students and encourage them in their spiritual walk. I wasn't expecting that though.

Everyone said i grew thinner and thus lost my broad shoulders that i don't look like an athlete anymore...

A friend of mine said losing weight because of stress can be distinguished from losing weight because of dieting. Then she asked me what is happening because it looks like I am losing wight because of stress?

What to do? I got high metabolism, My food not balanced diet, sometimes no appetite to eat but when i eat i gobble up huge amounts of food. Plus I'm an endurance athlete so it is hard to be huge as my output is more than my input...

muthuku muthaga is a family movie, really nice ending. I think it's a great show. It's a tamil movie and can be watched at Lotus 5 star cinema, PJ or Sentul Cineplax. There are subtitles but the subtitles are not clearly visible and not always showed but just by watching the characters, one can know what is going on.

alright, that's kind of enough for now right? ; D

blacks b.

2011-03-07T16:30:00.000+08:00

I got another haircut because of Cut-athon...it was as Sunway Pyramid orange concourse. It looked happening, about 20 hair stylist on the go, I had a handsome hairstylist but he wasn't really pro. He said my hair's too short for a boy cut? LoL, then he said he never thought doing a boy cut on a girl is so tough (shows that he never did a boy cut on a girl before), he didn't cut properly as there was a spot he missed...LoL. Still think it's ugly.
He didn't want to give me a shorter hair cut...oh, well, whatever la...if i could, i would just go Britney spears and shave it all...kakaka.

rights, last Saturday we had a rugby match with Singapore's Blacks B...
It was our first home ground game, the first time we had a full complete team. We were all pumped and hyped up, really looking forward to this game.
Rain, rain, rain but we still played. After their kick off, we had a penalty and i was so ready to run if Bibi decides to pass the ball to me...aiyak, only 3 minutes but it started thundering and lightning flashed across the sky.
The game was stopped while we were doing great.

Waited for the rain to stop, then at least it went to drizzling only and so we continued on...not knowing that it's only gonna be a one half game, Dingoes paced herself...It was nice to play in their territory, Blacks liked to kick. Tiara had a cat-fight with one of the blacks...a Blacks girl pulled Tiara's hair...Aiyak, menjatuhkan rugby's image la.
we played 45 minutes then found out that the game was over as Blacks had a plane to catch...Wah, like that also can? Ish, we were so pumped up tau...one half only? Ish, rain ar, why la you kacau us? see, see, we draw with Blacks B...I think there was a chance of us scoring in the second half, but we'll never know.
Aki did a great penetration when we did bola 2 move....
forwards did a great job,
back-line performed good set piece.

I was a bit confused in this game. At the beginning, coach Mamak said to do close defense so don't care about the wing. Just before the game started, coach Mamak said to do zone defense so care about the winger. during the game, Aki asked me to watch their number 8 in defense.On thurday during training, coach Mamak said watch Aki, if she goes up then I as a blind winger should fill in her position.
Aiyak, so what i wanna do? Go zone? Go Close? Go for number 8? watch Aki if she decides to do a move?
Oh wait, This is silly, i should only watch Aki if we got the ball...LoL. Therefore 3 options only.
I kept asking Aki who to defend? Wei said i put too much pressure on Aki that's why Aki couldn't perform well.

Aiyah, I gotta learn how to read the game and make my own decisions...

anyway, this marks the end of the Singapore league...

asgnmt n presentation time of d year

2011-03-03T13:27:00.000+08:00

It has come to that time of the semester where everyone is busy and stressed. Nope, not the exam yet, but it's the assignment and presentation week with a sprinkle of mid term test.

Arh, what a stressful time, being in the same group with people who say "Ok, no prob, I can do it" but ending up not doing anything? How stressful it is to be in the same group with people who give up, they say "I don't know how to do it, so ask someone else to do" or those who say "I don't know how to use a computer" or "I don't have a computer".

reluctant team mates who just prefer to be free riders...

Whoa, Life is so WONDERFUL for them.

It's all because lecturers don't want to mark so many assignments so they give group assignments.
Well, that's life...you gotta learn how to work with people from various character.
It all comes down to the art of Management: The art of getting something done with and through people.
Keeping your cool and being patient otherwise you'll get neck pain and back pain. Stress affects your sternocleidomastoid muscles which gives neck pain and then when the stress builds up, the pain will go down to your back and thus having a back pain.

Be cool, relax, chill and try your best to not hit someone and try to avoid swearing XP

where did you go? I miss you and need you to do my assignment..

2011-02-28T11:58:00.000+08:00

my laptop has gone for an operation...the screen is like a tv with a bad ariel, jumping up and down the screen like a hyperactive person.
My pen drive has gone missing, how am i gonna get my assignment done now? laptop and pendrive, now i realize how important you two are for assignments!

On Saturday we went to Singapore for the match against Blacks A.
As usual, I'm a winger forever, i guess this game is the game I ran a lot but didn't do much though...felt like i ran everywhere and wasn't really playing by my position.
In this game I ran from one side of the field to the other just to close the gap.
Each time i marked their winger, their outside-center would kick the ball and i would be too slow to follow the ball. I need to learn how to look up and see the game instead of eying the ball only.
As usual, it's my weakness that I can't tackle properly resulting opposition scoring a try.
I don't quite remember what i did, but my team mates said I blow-over...did I?
I got the ball twice but didn't manage to go far. I must learn how to find gaps. When I had the ball, I wanted to pump my feet but my support told me to go down because the ball was in danger.

Well, the referee was kayu la, the opposition didn't ground the ball, the ball was on top her body, how can that be called a try? There were other instances where the referee gave bad calls repeatedly...Gawsh, Kayu Betul la.

After the game, the coaches and our captain and another senior player completely abandoned us...Thank God, there was still Becks and Zet or not it would be all the Old Timers aka Superstars or top management completely left us to fend by our self...

Lena Kula got lost so many times, But managed to find our way back...I guess that just wasn't our day.
Police doing road block on the highway? Wow, first time i encountered that.

this picture was from our first game at Republic Polytechnic, the start of singapore 15s league.

UM election

2011-02-22T01:38:00.001+08:00

morning wake up call...the announcement that the election has come to the voting day...
get free makan after voting.
Opposition (Pro Mahasiswa) put leaflet on what to bring and how the voting system is done.
bring Matrix card.
enter the room, manual attendance (show matrix card) -they cross out your name on the paper.
Computerized attendance (fill in ic number n select HADIR,) -computer generated 6 digit pin number (write it down on the UM stick it note and take the note with you, click OK and DONE)
Walk to the Voting Computer (Fill in matrix card and 6 digit pin)
There was a NOT RESPONDING lag for 1 minute, then rules page of the time limit, 3 min and 2 min for Umum and faculty. Any longer than the given time, your vote is undi rosak. Vote 9 General and 2 faculty candidate. Tak sempat read finish, the page refresh again...[aiya, if like this will my vote be considered undi rosak?]
then Fill in matrix card and 6 digit number cause refresh page again.[haiz, that's why la, e-voting sucks]
read the rules finish then click I ACCEPT/UNDERSTAND
then general candidate list...no picture, just names and number...aiyo, how la? i thought vote for 1 only, rupa-rupanya vote for 9 candicates...haiz...so i only vote for 7...minumum 1 candidate, maximum 9 candidate... The lime limit was crazy loh...Feel stressed by the time limit...felt like doing a test, KM test with time limit. Click DONE.
Done..my faculty got no election so i only can vote for general. Walk out, take food coupon which entitled me for a hotdog.
Apparently in college 12, they got a RM5 coupon, can buy whatever food or drink they want...LOLS.

results out at 6.30pm...i had test so couldn't join the action.
official result out about 9pm...

Pro M won all 9 general seats and the margin was 4000, woah!
if i'm not mistaken 80% of the faculty seats was won by Pro Mahasiswa.

quite cool...
oh, by the way, Did I miss out the story of death threats and disappearance of a candidate?
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/2/21/nation/8105542&sec=nation
http://www.bernama.com/bernama/v5/newsgeneral.php?id=565230

Oh, also apparently last night, there was some protest or mogok...i didn't know about it cause i was busy studying for my CPR practical test and my health & fitness test...chap 1 to chap 10...Aiya, what a wrong time to have tests, how i wanna join the action and politics? :P

the elections are held every year...that means once in 2 sem.
Last semester the leadership was held by Penggerak Mahasiswa, this sem and next sem will be Pro Mahasiswa, so let's see the difference. Compare and contrast, see and experience which party did better? To be fair, just measure by a semester only because I only "tasted" one semester from Penggerak's side and it was the 2nd part of the year only that i experienced, meaning they had the sem before i entered Uni to be established so on my 3rd sem only will i start comparing the difference...give them a sem's time to get established first.

who knows maybe the next election will be won by independents fully..haha

the question i ask is, will the candidates bring about changes or is it a joke? Is the Uni making students think the students are in control...Can they bring their manifesto into reality?

To all my stpm friends who got their results today...it's just a piece of paper, another exam result in your life...it's not the end of the world yet, there are many more chapters of your life to be written. I'm sure you know that STPM results is the end of the road but it is the beginning of a new phase in life...for those on the path of tertiary education, life will be totally different, say bye bye to tuitions..hehe.

politic in UM elections

2011-02-20T17:21:00.006+08:00

As some of you know, It's the UM election time now...I'm sure you saw the news on Star newspaper and NTV 7 night news...Students damaging the door of Kompleks PerdanaSiswa, Mainly it's because of the disqualification of 8 candidates...
for more info on the door incident, read:
http://thestar.com.my/education/story.asp?file=/2011/2/20/education/8097795&sec=education
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/2/17/nation/20110217182122&sec=nation
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/2/18/nation/8091918&sec=nation

The pro-Mahasiswa team is known to be anti-establishment while its rivals known as Penggerak Mahasiswa is pro-establishment.

Protesting against the disqualification of eight candidates – including two independents – pro-Mahasiswa students organised a rally outside PROF Datuk Dr Rohana Yusof's office [the deputy vice-chancellor student affairs and alumni at Universiti Malaya] at the Perdanasiswa complex, demanding the reinstatement of the candidates.

e-voting, e-nominations, e-appeals and e-objections...not credible la...

e-voting is a controversial issue before and it still is in UM, It was introduced in 2009/2010 without discussion or agreement nor democratic .

our votes are no longer kept secret and no one know for sure if the system is fair...as there had been 4 cases where the credibility of e-voting is questioned. 1st case: a few series of disturbance on the computer voting system at several places...what happened during these disturbance, was the voting tempered?

2nd case: computer position where others can see your vote

3rd case: computer positioned near guards which disturbed voters and made them uncomfortable

4th case: Wrongful information about voters in the system which made several voters not eligible to vote and the missing information on several qualified voters thus they also not qualified to vote anywhere.

Discussions and explanation from anti-establishment party were denied ruthlessly. Haish, University authorities also not fair one...ish ish ish...7 Candidates who won already was disqualified...wah, What's the use of the election then?

Ugly SPIT and rumours and the use of religion to spoil other candidate's reputation...exactly like in MALYAYSIAN POLITICS...smear people's name and image. Anti-establishment party used this type of approach to win votes? Haish, i'm so disappointed...

you see the words they said "Sanggupkah anda selaku mahasiswa islam menyokong calon begini?" and "mana letaknya ISLAM pada mereka? ISLAMkah anda yang mahu menyokong calon sekular begini?"

wah, so teruk la, campaign until like this!

anyways, tomorrow is the voting day and tomorrow also i got 2 tests to sit for...I'm not gonna vote by party...Vote by manifesto and qualifications and credibility lor...

One faculty candidate and one general candidate.

Woah, campaigning really takes up a lot of money...banner, poster, rafia string, cello-tape. the betting money....crazy! all ptptn money gone to waste...hope they recycle their papers after the election...it created a lot of rubbish everywhere.

I wish they had a big board which all the candidate post they manifesto but one A4 size poster a candidate only...at least in this way, it's not a popularity win but a win by what they are fighting or standing up for.

chap goh mei

2011-02-17T22:00:00.000+08:00

We celebrate CNY for 15 days...today is CHAP GOH MEI. The last day of the celebration. Every chap goh mei marks the first full moon of the year :)

There is a tradition where young single ladies will go and throw oranges into the sea, river or from on top the bridge and with the hope of finding their true love. PS: If you are thinking of doing this, don't forget to Write your name and hp number or email on the orange...haha.

All the single boys waiting for the throw...

Recently my mom has been asking me if I got anything for Valentines...even today...Then only I ter-remember this tradition which is on chap goh mei...haha XD
So to all you people, I know I'm 21 years old already but I won't throw any oranges into any river,sea, from a bridge just yet...I wanna concentrate on my studies and only after my degree will I start thinking of throwing an orange..LoL.

start of Spore 15s League

2011-02-15T11:01:00.001+08:00

Last saturday was the beginning of the singapore rugby 15s league.

so there's gonna be a match every saturday till 12 march...home and away.

our first game was against Bucks and the match was at Republic Polytechnic,woodlands, singapore.

Initially the weather was quite thundering so we thought we might not be able to play at all!

Oh ya, Apai was the only "tour virgin"...she wasn't really treated as a tour virgin though.

Anyways, we started the game at 5.30pm and the rain had almost subsided.

This is my first time playing as a Outside Center, usually i play winger. Most of the back line played new positions so it was a new experience for all of us. It was a bit more pressuring to be a Outside Center because there is more responsibility compared to a winger's job. Next, no longer do I stay at the wing, but now i'm in the center of the field and there's more ball action aka more pressure.

I got scolding from Wei for not knowing when, where and how to guard dog. I wasn't aware when to realign and when to be in a straight line. Besides that, Wei told me not to mark people during guard dog cause i should close the gap first! Wei also reminded me many times on the field how to rush up in a line when we are in defense...it took me about the whole 1st half of the game to instill it in my brain that i must run outside shoulders to avoid the opponents from passing the ball.

first half ended with 3-0, Bucks scored a penalty goal.

when I received the ball from Bibi after she looped, i guess i wasn't deep enough so i couldn't run all the way in front of the forwards, instead I got stuck behind the forwards...yikes...

I mistackled 2x and that cause Bucks to score 2 tries..My fault! Ish, i must really learn how to tackle la.

Bucks score 3 tries altogether, converted 2 goals in the second half. Thus ending the game with a score of 22-0.

This is the first time we played all locals only in our team.

Apai did very good on her first game...Hani did a great job too.

Halina managed to throw straight balls in every line out. Overall, I think it was a good game and everyone did their best.

assignment cram

2011-02-09T22:26:00.001+08:00

whoa, it's the assignment craze right now. my time is crammed with assignments now.
6 assignments to complete asap(as soon as possible)

time not enough la... :(

yesterday i went to Pikki's farewell...my minister of education is going off to Aussie to continue her path in education....

feb

2011-02-06T20:44:00.000+08:00

FEDERAL TERRITORY DAY! Feb 1st... new anthem which has a much faster beat but I still prefer the original song.

CNY! Ever since my grandparents died, it has been my family tradition to go up to Genting Highlands on Chinese New Year eve...

When I was younger, I liked the arcade games but now I feel a bit bored of arcade games already la.

So, what to do then? I'm still under aged to enter the casino so what me and my siblings usually do is go to any shop like coffeebean or starbucks then the eldest buy drinks for us then we chat and reconnect. Mini Reunion.

The journey to Genting and coming back from Genting Highland itself is fun...we'll be joking, making fun, solving riddles and telling interesting experiences in their lives..

Owh, ALL my SIBLINGS are BACK this year! SABAH, JOHOR, MELAKA & KL.

I also think This is the first time my siblings and my mom slept in the same room...that's 6 person in a room...cool!

This year people whom i didn't expect sms-ed me to wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

"u kan my friends..I akan ingat birthday kawan-kawan I"

Whoa, feel so terharu.

And by the way, YES, i did hide my birthday in FB...Why do you wanna know when is my birthday when I don't even remember when's yours? I don't even bother to remember la.

I went to Ms Wong's (my form 6 MUET teacher) house today...met a lot of current form 6 who knew me...Why bother remembering me when I myself don't bother to know your name also?

Owh well, There's not much to say about February.

fulfill ur bet day

2011-02-01T03:44:00.000+08:00

Ok, I went to the optician, he said can't really do anything about the light disturbance. At the moment, I do not need a specs yet unless I feel eye strain or watery eyes or headaches...Nah, I don't feel none of those yet. So check my eyes again after a year loh. Really glad that I don't need specs cause firstly it cost money, secondly it kinda spoils my image and thirdly it would be tough doing sports with spectacles on.

Lonely Spectacles, LoL

I only have a few more days to fool around cause after this, I would officially be an adult! Oh Gosh, 21 years old this year. I guess I gotta start acting like 21 and stop behaving so childish and immature. Be a women of little words and stop playing around with words? Stop Lame Jokes? Bullying and sarcasm are another part of my life that may need to be demolished soon...

Today, I made Robin Hood aka Chandrakumar, a 11 years old boy fulfill the bet which he lost! For those who didn't know, ROBIN and I made a bet before I started University life: Whoever fails any subject, test, exam, quiz will have to RUN up and down the JALAN JEJAWI ten times non stop. Ten times each fail, so if I fail 2 exams and 1 quiz then I will have to run 30x non stop. At the moment, the bet will last till 2014.
Robin failed his music exam last year and so today he had to fulfill the bet aka face the punishment.

Background info on Robin Hood, he is a straight A student, quite brilliant but lazy to study. Only concentrates on IMPORTANT subjects, confident he will never fail in education.

Sok Sok

2011-01-25T20:33:00.000+08:00

Last year my favourite uncle died. I wanted to attend his funeral but couldn't because of many reasons...

So, this year cannot celebrate CNY (Chinese new year). I don't know my uncle's name but among all my uncles he was the one I loved the most. I called him "Sok Sok"...The uncle that let me do anything and the dearest relative to me. I still remember all the memories with him and my younger bro, Prince.

He was there at the back of my classroom when I had art exam in standard 1(Primary school), I even remember he smiling at me while I drew a big apple on my art paper. I was so happy while drawing that apple because I knew after school I was going to have a really fun time. We went to the park where I played and played so much.

Sok Sok always took me and Prince out to playgrounds, we would play and then eat ice cream and drink really really sweet drinks like LIVITA! LoL, small children drinking Red Bull, can you imagine how active we would transform into?

Sok Sok also frequently brings me and Prince out for JOY RIDES! In the car when he still had both legs, in handicap motorbike and bicycle when he amputated his leg because of Diabetes...I'm not sure about Prince, but I always look forward to CNY every year because I can go cycling and joyrides in Sok Sok's handicap motorbike :)

This year's CNY will be different without Sok Sok...

I remember getting lost with my uncle one CNY! I was traveling with my uncle on a motorbike while Prince traveled with my other relatives by car. Thank God, I recognised a landmark and so we didn't go to the family dinner but had our own dinner elsewhere then headed back home, that night was the night that I found out my younger bro loved me more than i loved him because he actually cried for me. When Prince found out I got lost and didn't make it for the dinner, he shed tears fearing for my safety and all. He then lose his appetite and insist to tapau some food for me.

I n EYE prob

2011-01-23T22:13:00.000+08:00

I have EYE problems...
I cannot see far...can't recognize people until they come close.
Always seeing signboards wrongly but luckily i'm quite familiar with the place so i know what the signboard is suppose to say.

Lights...I don't like going out at night because the lights hurt my eyes. Lamp posts, car signal and front light of the car, it all hurts my eyes. I can't see light as a whole(left pic), instead light looks like a star...there's lines coming out all the time(right pic)

Oh, this means, i will not be able to drive at night la...if i ever get a driving license

Diam

2011-01-21T20:14:00.000+08:00

Apa yang sudah terjadi dengan saya?
Kerana mulut, badan binasa tetapi dalam keadaan saya, badan saya tidak binasa sebaliknya kawan-kawan merajuk lalu beri silent treatment. Kenapa mulut saya terlalu laser? Saya semakin kejam dan jahat, hampir setiap perkataan yang terkeluar dari mulut saya boleh menyakitkan hati dan emosi orang.
Sekarang belum sampai satu bulan lagi tetapi saya telah mencalar dan mengguris perasaan sekurang-kurangnya 2 pelajar UM.

Saya perlu belajar diam, tutup mulut dan hanya bercakap apabila perlu.
Baiklah, itu akan menjadi sasaran saya bermula daripada sekarang sehingga akhir Februari.

Kita akan lihat sama ada perubahan ini mampu memperbaiki keadaan keruh ini atau tidak...

roomie2

2011-01-19T13:34:00.000+08:00

Today's post will be on the Changes in Uni lifestyle or more specifically the changes in my roomies and me...
As time passes, changes takes place...

Akiko is now more aggressive than last year, she hits, slaps and bends people's finger...OUCH!
She thinks she's playing but sometimes it shows lack of manners...and if she doesn't change, someday someone might say to her "Your mom didn't teach you manners ah?"

Last year i said i could fight back but i didn't want to...that was last year. This year things changed, I am no longer able to fight back...i guess i left my fighting spirit behind...I'm a weakling.
This year i sort of developed a habit of reading at night.

Fiona is louder this year...last year her voice was much softer but this year her volume became more higher...

Next thing is my timetable :
monday afternoon and night,
tuesday morning and evening,
wednesday morning, evening and night.

violin class on friday afternoon and sports after that.
saturday and sunday goes for PALAPES LAUT aka reserve navy and softball...

that means my rest day is THURS only! Rugby in the evening...

0645 to 1900

2011-01-15T20:39:00.001+08:00

Palapes aka reserve navy training.

Order: Be in 5th college at 6.45am.
When we reached there, nobody was there even at 7am...muster and waiting patiently while wondering if our senior and junior midshipmen were playing a fool on us. Standing there like dummies till 7.45am then we finally saw our junior midshipmen arrive. Our Senior midshipmen arrived at 8am...

by the way...now we are still cadets officers, when we enter our 3rd semester then we are promoted to Junior midshipmen and on the 5th semester we are promoted to Senior midshipmen. Then after the 6th semester is completed we will graduate into subby or Acting Sub Lieutenant or in malay Leftenan Muda.

In this post i will refer to Senior Midshipmen as Senior and Junior midshipmen as Junior.

The muslims had aerobics then a ceramah related to their religion.
The non muslims were sent off to the Reserve Officer Training Unit (ROTU) Navy Head-quarter's of UM and help out in the cleaning the office till late afternoon then we had a break of 20 minutes for lunch then we joined the muslims after their ceramah. They or WE were getting punishment for not memorizing all our senior and junior's full name and soldier number...

Soldier number or nombor tentera is like their 2nd IC...a bit senseless right? asking people to memorize your ic number?

anyways, after that, we cleaned the HQ storerooms till 6pm then walk back to 5th college and "played" volleyball till 7pm. Thank God that it started to drizzle so they had to stop or not the event will go till dark.

Tomorrow we still got PALAPES...we're gonna do sports training from the morning, I wonder what time will it end? Then after that I got softball practise at 3pm. Giler tak gila?

bleep test

2011-01-14T20:46:00.000+08:00

My first bleep test result was level 5.7 during rugby training
2nd bleep test during UM interview for sports management course was level 6.6
3rd bleep test for rugby national team to the qualifying round to Asian Games at Guangzhou 2010, level 8.3
4th, programme Wellness by Pusat Sukan UM...for fun and fitness...level 8.3 again! :'(
No improvement loh XC

Today I went for UM's FREE violin class. We learnt how to hold the violin bow today. Lecturer was Dr Lee, she said I need to learn to relax my hand...If I wanna continue then i must buy Violin wor...about rm300. I got another choice, fill in a form and loan a violin for a few months then buy one...Err, I don't know la whether wanna continue or not...should I?

clayton kashuba's designs rocks!

new n first

2011-01-13T22:46:00.007+08:00

Hey hey, here I am.
New Year, New Semester, New Hope, New Beginning, New Chapter and New Day, New Experiences, New Relationships, New Subjects...

so what's been up lately? It's once again the starts of NEW experiences...First times...

Shima got married...Shima from the Dingoes...
Walking by faith to her cocktail party at Ritz Carlton KL..I just took the monorail to Jalan Imbi and then just jalan-jalan by following my feelings then I reached Jalan Imbi Chapel...it was behind Ritz Carlton. Cool!

My first time going for a cocktail party. Secondly, My first time dancing.

Next is My first time going out with my Chinese course mates for a movie.


Birthday girl in the middle, she's also a 4 flat student. Tor Phi Nn. Next to her is Lai Kai Yan.

Fourth is My first time going out to celebrate my course mate's birthday! We went to the Garden's to celebrate, karaoke! Oh, meaning it's also my Fifth First: My first time going Karaoke.

Karaoke!

Sixth, My first time sitting in a different seat in class which is also my first time sitting on the other side of class!

Seventh, today's gonna be my first time ponteng class...Not really ponteng if the lecturer don't come right? So far only 1 subject that we have not met the lecturer yet.

I mean we got the timetable but there's no lecturer's name and so far all 3 class, he or she hasn't entered class, maybe it's because in the first week usually our seniors don't enter class and on the second week, it's add and drop week or maybe we really don't have any lecturer for this subject yet? By the way, the subject is Injury in Sports and First Aid.

OH NO! I have number 8 because The day that I decided not to come was the day the LECTURER finally decided to turn up and the lecturer was none other than our very own PENGARAH PUSAT SUKAN aka DIRECTOR of SPORTS CENTER! Haiz, so anyway number 8 is My First time skipping class intentionally!

joke went wrong

2011-01-08T20:26:00.007+08:00

ah, i meant to tease Akiko and Jodie but it turned out as a joke that went wrong.
I was quite surprised to find out that they didn't know what it meant...and when they finally found out through another person, the moment was gone so they misunderstood. Haiz.

What is the best known American Sign Language sign? The I Love You sign is probably the best known sign. It is an easily recognized sign

The ILY is a sign from American Sign Language which, as a gesture, has moved into the mainstream. It is used in the United States and other Americanized countries. It originated in American Sign Language as a combination of the letters I, L and Y (I Love You). The sign is a very informal way of expressing a number of positive emotions ranging from general esteem to love for the recipient of the sign.

this is "I"

this is "L"

this is "Y"

therefore combination looks like spiderman or a sign rockers use...

roomies day out

2011-01-03T17:32:00.005+08:00

Ahh, a new year and a new semester in UM...

On the 30th dec 2010,
My room-mates...Akiko and Fiona aka Yen Ping...they came up with a plan to check-in our hostel aka residential college together as roomies on sunday(2nd Jan) at 3pm.

1st jan 2010
I sms-ed Fiona, "So, can we check-in and put our stuffs in the room first then come down and wait for Akiko tomorrow?"
The reply I got was "NO, we meet in-front of the office with our bags then we check in together, all 3 of us."
In my mind I was like, haiz, so mafan la..

And so on sunday, 2nd Jan 2010 as mentioned, we met at 3pm in front of the college office and guess what?

The OFFICE closed at 3pm sharp! How efficient la, our college staffs, really on time and disciplined...

All 3 of us with No KEY at all...so, what else la? Illegal squatters loh. Throw away our pride and ask friends if we can tumpang in their room for the night. Host number 1 agreed to put up with us and our laptops.
We put our important things in their room and then went out. People cleaning their room mah. Fiona felt like going out somewhere and coming back only at night, Spontaneously we decided to go out loh. Room-mates day out together.

We took lrt putra and monorail, ate outside and walked around and bought stationery then took a joyride on the lrt: Went all the way to Kelana Jaya and all the way to Gombak and then back to Universiti...That's like at least 2 hours of chatting in the train. LoL.We had yum cha session then reached college about 1am. By that time, host number 1 were sleeping already and so Host number 2 agreed to host us for a night.
What a way to start college life.

Sorry, none of us brought a camera and we are not cam-whores so no picture/s were taken...

SBNA

2010-12-30T12:34:00.003+08:00

This year 2010 was a year of guys coming after me. When I reject them they say I jual mahal pula. Then ada pula khabar angin yang I seorang pengkid...

Don't say you love me, You don't even know me...

My status is SINGLE but NOT AVAILABLE ok...

2 principles:
I'm in University to learn! When I was small, my guardian taught me if I want to study, cannot have BF. I don't want a BF yet, University is for studying.

I don't want to get hurt, relationship is not for play-play. If I get into a relationship means I'm serious, I will only get into a relationship if I intend to get married to that person. Don't get into a relationship if you don't intent to make it last.

hair

2010-12-29T12:02:00.003+08:00

My hair is kinda messy now. I'm thinking of cutting it much shorter...maybe like boycut? super short... But don't know how i'll look then..hehe.

I never really liked Long hair...always wanted super short hair...
When i was young i even thought of going bald.

oh well, it's just a thought..too afraid to make it come reality.