But just yesterday I was called up to fill in for UM Women Futsal cause apparently 2 players are not available. One in Indonesia and one in Brunei so the emergency reserved player aka Hilda was called.
I feel so unfit, may be due to me withdrawing from sports this year. Don't worry, I'm not injured...I was just quite busy with studies, too many credit hours. Mostly practical classes and palapes and auditing a course.
Btw, did you know I miss an exam paper? It was the first exam paper of the semester. Yup, I woke up late and a series of unfortunate things happened to me that I am just not allowed to sit for that exam but God still allowed me to pass that subject. I believe with all my heart that if I sat for that exam, I would have gotten an A and thus getting a GPA of 4 flat. Back to reality, I got 5 A's and 1 C+ so GPA this sem is 3.7. Before this, my CGPA was 3.9 but now it went down to 3.85 :'(
For more detail, you can read Tauliah, Sem 6
Oh well, God was teaching me that Studies isn't everything and that I shouldn't let my world be so revolved around Studies that I let go of relationships and trusting others. I just relied purely on myself and looked down at others, thinking I do not need their help or support or care about their feelings. So filled with Pride that God needed to break my conceited heart.
He broke me by taking away the only things that I relied on...MYSELF and Knowledge/Studies.
I cried and cried but I knew it was my own fault. How could I ever trust myself again? I contemplated on jumping down the hostel building but I kept thinking of the miraculous saves that happened whereby people who are suppose to die didn't die. If it's not your time, whatever you try, you just won't die.
Palapes pentauliahan di UMS.
Oh, I went to Outward Bound Sabah(OBS), sponsored by Yayasan Tunku Abdul Rahman as an self-enrichment course. Thank you Tunku Abdul Rahman Foundation. :)
Tunku Scholars that went to OBS are Fast, Dahlia, Wan Zairul and me(Hilda). Out of 10 participants, the Tunku Scholars did 15 days while the other 6 participants did the 20 days challenge.
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