Friday, July 31, 2009

the past is coming back

It's all coming back to me now.
My past..I thought I could run away from it by just forgetting it all and disappear for some time.

Ok, nothing really bad and nothing really scary is haunting me. Just that things in the past are coming back right at me.
By saying the past,it doesn't have to mean negative could also be positive and neutral things.

Well...I guess, I shouldn't run away from things but instead, i should stand and face it because it's the only way I will be able to finish whatever it is and it wouldn't come back...

You can run but you can't hide!
You cannot run away from responsibility by evading it today!
Stand boldly and face it.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Sepet & Muallaf

I watched bit and parts of Sepet, and now I see that most of the actors and actresses are reused and replayed. The families and names are the same. It all revolves around Yasmin Ahmad's life la.
Even in the movie Mukhsin, we can see the "modern English educated Malay family"->Yasmin Ahmad's life la. A lot of similarity between the movies and I see a continuity of flow in the movie Sepet and Gubra. Even in the Tan Ming Hong's love, we can see it's a Chinese boy and a Malay girl. There's a real cool thing la.
I can see a bit of similarity between P.Ramlee and Yasmin Ahmad. I mean the main actress or actor most of the time are the same ones. P.Ramlee is always with his 2 friends and the villain guy is always the same guy. Yasmin uses the "Orked" family. Oh, wait! Maybe it's a Series or Trilogy or something like that?...That may explain the flow...haha :P

"I want to blur out the race., so to do that you have to bring it out and then u blur it out."Yasmin Ahmad

I haven't watched this movie(Muallaf) yet, but i hope to watch it one day, it sounds good.
Muallaf means "the convert"
Muallaf, don't judge a movie by it's cover/poster/Title

Monday, July 27, 2009


I agree with the movie Gubra that if this country is all Chinese or all Malay or just one race only, I wouldn't want to stay here. I love the composition of people and ethnics in Malaysia.
Yeah, it's great that we can listen to different language songs when we turn on the radio...especially during the festive season, we can hear Hari Raya songs on the Chinese radio station, Chinese New Year songs on the Tamil radio and Deepavali songs on the Malay radio station.

"I don't know whether you guys realize how hard it is for the rest of us to stay here. Sometimes it feels like being in love with someone who doesn't love you back" from the movie Gubra.

A Petronas commercial about "Race"?

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Yes!min You'll be missed

Yasmin Ahmad passed away yesterday night...a death of a respectable local film director.
I love her sense of hidden messages and her really superb way of using movies and commercials to convey her heart out.
Every single detail tells a wonderful story behind it.
It's pretty cool.
I see her as a legendary icon in the entertainment and commercials scene.
Her creations always touches our heart and sometimes we may shed a tear or two. She ventures into areas where not many dare walk upon.

I'm very proud of her, and I do hope there will be many more Malaysians like her.
All those touching Petronas commercials and local movies like Sepet, Gubra, Mukhsin, Muallaf and TalenTime

[Yasmin was also known here for advertising campaigns she directed for Singapore's Community Development, Youth and Sports Ministry.

One of them is ‘Eulogy’ which depicts the story of a widow who recalls her husband's funeral ceremony, and another titled ‘Red Shoes’ which tells the story of a teenage girl who grew up with a single father. ]- Bernama

[Yasmin, who collapsed after suffering a stroke and undergoing surgery for cerebral hemorrhage on Thursday, had been creative force in the advertising and film industry, having won awards and accolades both locally and internationally. Yasmin's sudden death leaves a void in the local film making industry, and her legacy will be long remembered.

Her interracial love story Sepet (2004) was accorded the Best Film Award and the Best Original Screenplay Award at the Malaysian Film Festival 2005. It also bagged the Asian Film Award at the Tokyo International Film Festival 2005, and the Grand Prix Award at the Creteil International Women's Film Festival in the same year.

Her other films included Gubra (2006), Mukhsin (2006), Muallaf (2008) and Talentime (2009).

Fellow director Othman Hafsham, when met at the funeral, was effusive in his praise for Yasmin.
“She is a director who speaks her mind and her films reflect this,” he said.

“Only in this country was her movies considered controversial. But in international film festivals, they all accept her movies. Indeed she has became a role model for many aspiring director out there,” he said.
] The SUN newspaper

here are some of the commercials she made


red shoes

Merdeka sunat

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Which blog?

Wow, I got so many blogs...Yeah.
For those who didn't know, let me give you a short history of my Internet life.
I first got into the Internet world in 2004. It's when I got my 1st email made by the help of Carakporn (I didn't know he had another motive-->he used my msn messenger to find out something..haha)
I joined so many things. Myspace, Hi5, Friendster, Facebook, Zebo, iAlmond, Ringo, Multiply, Tag and many more la but I can't recall.
I started blogging: MSN Spaces and Hi5, poem collection at Friendster.
My first blog entry was on 26th November 2005

Then I stopped Internet in form 5 for 2 reasons:
1. I was addicted to Water Margin (it's a RPG game), every night at 8pm to 10pm I would play it and on Fridays and Saturday it was 8pm to 7am. I didn't realise it but one night Tommy(my elder bro) said I'm an addict. I wanted to prove him WRONG.
2. It was Form 5, my SPM year and my mother cut the Internet.

And so I was cut off from the Internet...I got back into the Internet world during RBS...quite ironic...LOL

I thought my old blogs have gone and completely forgot about the blogs. Then on the 28th December 2008 I started blogging once more through Facebook notes. Next, I created my first official blog website which is this one la.

more blogs was created:
a blog for tags at
a blog for school at

SO, let me see the total of "blogs"
1. MSN spaces (2005 to 2007)
2. Friendster (poems..some are my creation)
3. Hi5 (2005- 2006)
Newly set ups
4. Facebook (since 2008) (more to "more Serious" entries)
5. blogspot 1. atticblabbing(Since 2009) (Main blog)
6. Blogspot 2. montester (since 2009) (Tags)
7. Blogspot 3. myform6years(Since 2009) (Smk Seri Pantai)

Today only I found out that my MSN Space and my Hi5 blog is still existent...Haha :P

FYI: RPG is Role Play Games and RBS is Residential Bible School

stress management illustration

A lecturer when explaining stress management to an audience,
Raised a glass of water and asked

'How heavy is this glass of water?'

Answers called out ranged from 1oz to 25ozs.

The lecturer replied, 'The absolute weight doesn't matter.
It depends on how long you try to hold it.
If I hold it for a minute, that's not a problem.
If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my right arm.
If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance.
In each case, it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes.'

He continued,
'And that's the way it is with stress management.
If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later,
As the burden becomes increasingly heavy,
We won't be able to carry on. '

'As with the glass of water,
You have to put it down for a while and rest before holding it again.
When we're refreshed, we can carry on with the burden.'
'So, before you return home tonight, put the burden of work down. Don't carry it home. You can pick it up tomorrow.

Whatever burdens you're carrying now,
Let them down for a moment if you can.'
So, my friend, Put down anything that may be a burden to you right now. Don't pick it up again until after you've rested a while.

Here are some great ways of dealing with the burdens of life:

* Accept that some days you're the pigeon, And some days you're the statue.

* Always keep your words soft and sweet, Just in case you have to eat them.

* Always wear stuff that will make you look good If you die in the middle of it.

* Drive carefully. It's not only cars that can be "Recalled" by their maker.

* If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague.

* If you lend someone £20 and never see that person again, It was probably worth it.

* It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to be kind to others.

* Never put both feet in your mouth at the same time,
Because then you won't have a leg to stand on.

* Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.

* Since it's the early worm that gets eaten by the bird, sleep late.

* The second mouse gets the cheese.

* When everything's coming your way, You're in the wrong lane.

* Birthdays are good for you. The more you have, the longer you live.

* You may be only one person in the world, But you may also be the world to one person.

* Some mistakes are too much fun to only make once.

* We could learn a lot from crayons... Some are sharp, some are pretty and some are dull. Some have weird names, and all are different colors, but they all have to live in the same box.

*A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour.

*And of course, rely on God.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Not the Same?

I hope this doesn't get me "WANTED" by the ISA...Nope, I'm not talking about ISA al-Masih(JESUS CHRIST). I mean Internal Security Act...

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

a bit on PPSMI

For those of you who don't know what is this PPSMI all about and why is it such a big issue...Basically PPSMI is learning Maths and Science in English...The Gov started PPSMI in the year 2003 and now they plan to abolish the PPSMI in the year 2012. That's what the commotion is all about!

My batch was the lab-rats..we learnt Maths and Science in Bahasa Melayu during our primary school years and in English during our Secondary school years.
The change was a bit surprising la, the sudden change of medium(language) doubt that Maths and Science subjects were suddenly more easy as in lower standards than before. I mean it's in a new language mar, so the Government had to start from scratch and lower the standards. OK, but that was for a while only lar(the first few years), then later on, the level went back quite high and therefore making Science and Maths the way it was suppose to be(back to the standard it was before).
So, really there's not much difference in the medium used lar...for the city and civilised students who have a good command of English.
However for those who barely pass English, this PPSMI is a horrible nightmare. Imagine if someone really love maths or science but have to learn it in a total foreign language. He/she doesn't even have the basic of that foreign language and now they have to struggle to penetrate the barrier of language just to learn. This hindrance might destroy their interest and make them lose hope.

Rights, now on a different situation but the same issue.
I believe that learning should be in the language you can understand...isn't that logic? LOL.
In school when my muslim friends talk about their faith...I can see that they are not really sure of what is in their Quran... The reason is the language Barrier! Their Quran is in Arab, and their command of Arabic is not so good. Therefore only those who have a good command in Bahasa Arab can explore the Quran and maybe understand it's contents.
So in a way, my dear Muslim friends are living their ancestor's faith.
It's a no wonder Jesus said to the Samaritan lady "You worship what you do not know; we worship what we do know"
Blindly following their ancestor's religion with no understanding of whom or what or why they do what they do or worship. So they are NOT living their OWN faith, they are actually living their ancestral faith.

Corrupted Bible? Yeah, that also implies that Translation is a sin...Is it? Then why is there a variety of Languages? How about the glory that our Malaysian history textbook is so proud of?
"Pendidikan zaman bani Abbasiyyah juga dikenali sebagai Zaman kegemilangan dlm bidang ilmu dan keintelektualan-> sumber ilmu pada masa ini berasal drp 2 sumber iaitu al-Quran dan hadis dan satu sumber lagi ilmu-ilmu dari Greek, Parsi dan India. Khalifah Al-Makmum merupakan seorang khalifah yang sangat cintakan ilmu pengetahuan, beliau telah mengambil inisiatif mengumpul kitab-kitab dari wilayah-wilayah Islam seperti Mesir, Afrika, Syria dan sebagainya. Kitab-kitab yang bermutu telah diterjemahkan ke bahasa Arab.
Kota Baghdad terkenal sbg pusat kegiatan ilmiah, sama ada dari aspek perkembangan ilmu, penterjemahan dan penulisan"
"Zaman bani Umaiyah->Bahasa Arab dijadikan bahasa ilmu dan pentadbiran. Perkembangan tersebut menyumbang kepada perkembangan pelbagai bidang ilmu lain, di samping perkembangan pesat dalam bidang penterjemahan."

So, it's ok for them to translate other languages and it wouldn't be corrupted...but if other nations translate their holy heaven language, it would be corrupted...diubahsuaikan mengikut agenda tersendiri? Come on, think about it for a moment or maybe an hour or so...

How did English become the world's current language of education? It's because there are many reference books, textbooks and English is seen everywhere, everything is easily sourced and easy access...all thanks to what? TRANSLATION la!

When you learn something in the language you understand, you absorb more...

Sunday, July 19, 2009

siemens run

Today was supposedly the Re-Examination for Economic...However, MR Nanda had to go back home town. Yesterday night i received an sms:
"Hi my students, good news for you all. No class tomorrow as I have an emergency. Need to go back to my home town. Please inform everyone. Sorry and thanks."

Joined the Siemens run today. 10km. Ladies Open category. I really am not the same as I used to be... I was struggling to finish the 10 km la, but it was all crazy. Started at 7.30 am and I ended at 8.41 am...see how sucky I am! I didn't even manage a medal or placing...haiz
Mun Foong, you're no longer the athletic girl la...haha. Doink
Miew Ling got 19th :)
ok, I met Hyo Sun there too, she got somewhere about 50-65...if i'm not mistaken it's 62nd.

Yesterday, my elder bro--> Tommy was home. He commented some stuffs about the 2012 maths n science back to BM while was an eye opener for me. He said the "jurang" aka gap between the rural area and urban area will be larger and more "ketara" each year if we continue with Maths and Science in English.
For city students it's ok...change to bm or english, it doesn't really make any difference wan but for kampung students, their grades would be worse.
Imagine if you have to learn/study MATHS and SCIENCE in a foreign language...for Banana's like me-->in mandarin...and for other students--> learning Maths and Science in Russian...
wow, that's really a different view of the subject which I've never saw...
yalah, kesian the kampung students ya...

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Secondary English Textbook

I read the Form 2 and three different Form 4 English textbook out of boredom...Yalah, buy the textbook and didn't use..what a waste of money la if I didn't read it.
Why do I have 3 different form 4 English textbook? One I bought the wrong one(wrong state wan la-> Selangor). One is the correct one--> WPKL and the other one is quite old la, Mun Yoke's era (my 2ND sister...6 years older)
I saw my form 2 ENGLISH textbook seems to be all moral contents. One of the Form 4 English textbook is very Teenager relevant, technology and identity contents but too wordy. The second English form 4 textbook was super Green/environmental focused while the Other form 4 English textbook was super literature focused, a lot of cool quotes as well.

I like literature but not the old language la..hehe
here are some of the cool stuffs:

DREAMS by Langston Hughes
Hold fast to dreams
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly.

Hold fast to dreams
For when dreams go
Life is a barren field
Frozen with snow.

Through this toilsome world, alas!
Once and only once I pass:
If a kindness I may show,
If a good deed I may do
To a suffering fellow man,
Let me do it while I can.
No delay, for it is plain
That I shall not pass this way again

"Perhaps we're too embarrassed to change, or too frightened of the consequences of showing that we actually care. But why not risk it, anyway? Begin today. Carry out a random act of senseless kindness, with no expectation of reward or punishment. Safe in the knowledge that one day, someone, somewhere, might do the same for you." Princess Diana

"It is not enough merely to exist. Even if it is a little thing, do something for those who need help, something for which you get no pay but the privilege of doing it. For remember, you don't live in a world on your own. Your brothers are here too." Albert Schweitzer

Sunday, July 12, 2009

the mini "mission"week

"Your dignity's inside you. Nobody can take something away from you if you don't give them"
"You quit right now, you quit every day the rest of your life."
coach Don Haskins from the movie the Road to Glory(2006).

Last week had been really interesting...
started on Sunday(5 july) la
A day I could go to church cause Mr Nanda had to balik kampung. Sunday service open worship and the message on halfheartedness...I felt convicted la...I shed a tear or two and told God I'll try.
A devotional book I read a page daily (Jue Lee gave me)--> will be in green for this post: "exodus 15:11-13. Free from slavery and the promised land lay before them! At this celebration of freedom, Moses reminded the Israelite why they were freed. They were freed to serve God as His Holy people. Remember that you were frees from sin to serve God as His child"

in school:
Cikgu Bonda asked me why PJ got so many churches, which language is the Christian medium, and the rumor about Malay churches.
After school, Hafizah Ani(classmate) asked me about denominations, have I read the whole bible, what is the bible about and what is the gospel.
As I was about to share the gospel to Hafizah Ani, my father came and I had to go home(spiritual warfare?)...Sharing in Bm is TOUGH!
"psalm 57:7-11My heart is confident in You, O God; my heart is confident . No wonder I can sing Your praises! Wake up, my heart! I will thank You, LORD, among all people...David prayed these when he was fleeing for his life. We would expect a man running for his life to be focused on what he enemies are doing or how to evade their traps. David moved to such gratitude when facing dangers cause he knew God's unfailing love was greater than his difficulties. David's prayer put his earthly trials in eternal perspective."

Bonda asked me whether I go to church on Fridays. I was wondering why. As I pondered it came to me that Friday is the Muslim prayer day, so indirectly Bonda was wondering about Malay churches.
Ms Wong gave me a free slot for a Thursday in August for 20 minutes during assembly...I see that it's an opening but I don't know what to do la!
"Isaiah26:12-15. Isaiah prophesied one day God's people would be victorious-but only because of what God would do for them. Instead of lauding the people for their victory, Isaiah praised God: All we have accomplished is really from You. Acknowledge it is God who enable you to achieve those goals."

Wednesday (not so mission)
In RBS there was Observer Loke, in school there is Observer Hazizah :P
Zizah shared with me a lot of things she observed and Zizah said I'm close to everyone in class. Actually it's because I bully or disturb so there is a "forced" interaction between everyone =D
This reminded me of RBS(Residential Bible School), someone said I'm closed to both dorm 1 and dorm 2 girls...same reason la..bully and disturb. BUT personally I don't quite agree that I'm close to everyone...
This also reminded me of Sheng during a YF(youth fellowship) committee meeting saying Why isn't Mun Foong in the welcome committee...
Mr Nanda sounding so frustrated said "Hilda, I don't know how you can think like that" :(
"psalm 74:10,11,22,23. How often does God listen to our impatient prayers? Nothing reveals our lack of faith more than impatient 'WHY' and 'HOW LONG' prayers. Yet God arranged that prayers like these were recorded in Scriptures. Although God doesn't always tell us when He will act, we can be confident that at the right time He will do what needs to be done. God wants us to express our feelings and urgent requests to Him. Pray against the enemies with conviction but also trust Him for the future, since the final results will always remain in His able hands"

After school, Praveen reminded me that I invited him to join the Bible Knowledge 09 quiz a few weeks ago. I showed Praveen the text--> Acts chapter 1-10 Good News Bible. He read chapter one and asked me about Moses, Jesus, burning bush and removing sandals, repentance, trinity and Praveen also asked me to comment on the 'Israel and Palestine', and the prayers answered and sights of Mary the mother of Jesus in India.
I explain from Acts as the take off text to the Bible is all ONE STORY->the GOSPEL..from Adam(promise of deliverer), Noah(Ark= Jesus), Abram(offering Isaac= Jesus the Lamb of God), Moses(passover= Jesus's blood save us)
The past is the SHADOW of the things of the Future...all about Jesus. I told Praveen that the penalty of sin is death. God love us and is merciful so God doesn't want to punish us but God is also just therefore must punish sin. That's why God sent Jesus to die--> pay the penalty of our sins and Jesus rose up on the 3rd day and is in heaven today. I also said Judaism is the shadow of Christianity.
About mother Mary, I said it could be a cult or it could be visions(like that's so Raven) or it could be Real but that's not the main, Mary is just a side part(small thing). The Main focus is Jesus. Don't get obsessed with the tiny things that you forget the Main purpose..
About Israel and Palestine, I said it's not fair for us to comment because we only know bits and parts of one side of the coin, we have not heard the other side of the stories.
I felt like Philip one of the Seven deacon explaining to the Ethiopian--> Acts 8:35 "Then Philip began with that passage of Scripture and told him about the good news about Jesus" Told the gospel beginning from a Scripture he didn't understand.
Auni (form mate) said "You are quite religious"
I didn't answer anything because teacher started talking.. I could have said" I'm not religious, I'm just so thankful that my God saved me 3 times physically(suicide, Hand Foot Mouth Disease and Dengue PLUS He also saved me spiritually(Salvation aka eternal life)."
Young Adults(YA) was "Pit stop" think of F1->stop a while for a break to be fueled and then continue the race. Francis spoke on why we come to church.
Learn-->about God
Affection-->Love each other and God,
Testimony-->God is REAL
"Psalm 57:1-3. David was hiding and Saul's pursuit had driven David into a cave. But David knew that his hope didn't rest in how fast he could run or how creatively David could hide for Protection came from the LORD. The darkness of shadow could not protect David as well as the shadow of God's wings. David placed his trust in God alone for his safety"

Wisha asked me about the Holy was an opening but I didn't use it...Sorry Lord! :(
The calendar that Ms Wong gave me last year for my baptism, JULY 2009 it was written in bold and large prints "OPPORTUNITY"
Quite cool eh? I think that Sunday was my pit stop
"2 Corinthians 1:3-5 All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and our source of all comfort. He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us. For the more we suffer for Christ, the more God will shower us with His comfort through Jesus Christ. How often have you noticed that soon after you receive comfort for some troubling situation, you encounter someone else facing a similar situation? It is God who leads us to these people, for the comfort we provide to them seems more credible because they know we have"been there'. "

Copa Iba-->captain ball competition between Brethren assemblies. Bangsar Gospel Center(BGC) sent a Senior team(16-20years old) and a Open team...the finals for Junior category were ELIM GC(Ipoh) and TTDI GC. Elim won. Finals for senior category and open category were the same which are Bangsar GC vs Bandar Sunway GC. BGC championed the senior category but was got second in the open category.
COPA IBA was 8 am to 6pm. I reached home at 6.30pm...mandi kerbau and then around 7pm Kevin Wee picked me up and we went to Pusat Injil Kelana Jaya (PIKJ) was PIKJ's mission night and I was invited to share on my Philippines mission trip May 2008, Kevin Wee shared on his mission experience in Indonesia and Sook Lan shared on her mission experience in Cambodia. Mr Thiran shared on Orang Asli(OA) mission and challenge the church to join mission works.
Romans/Roma 10:14
Tetapi bagaimanakah mereka dapat berseru kepada Tuhan jika mereka belum percaya kepada-NYA?
Bagaimanakah mereka dapat percaya kepada-Nya jika mereka belum mendengar perkhabaran tentang Dia?
Bagaimanakah mereka dapat mendengar perkhabaran itu, jika tidak ada yang mengisytiharkannya?
Who can share? 1. Those who has a relationship with Christ. 2. Those who have a passion for lost souls. 3.There is no impact without contact.
Allow the Holy Spirit full access. Prayer support and other supports. Without the Holy Spirit we just like other people! As time goes by, limitations comes in and opportunities will close.
Now the word "A-L-L-A-H", next time a SENTENCE, and then SERVICE-->cannot have Sunday Service in BM because will confuse the Muslim community or the same reason the Government is using for the word "ALL-AH"
"psalm119:124-128. the trials and struggles in our lives often force us to turn somewhere for help.The psalmist knew to turn to the LORD first for wisdom and discernment. He asked God 'teach me Your decrees and give discernment to me.' He knew that the Living God would keep him from foolish actions and the path of destruction. This is why he committed himself in learning God's law in the Scriptures and applying them to his life. God promises to give wisdom when we ask for it(James 1:5), so pray for God's discernment in your struggle and ask Him to show you how to apply His wisdom to your situation.

well, to end this post, I'll end with a verse summary of what my week was:

1 peter 3:15
"But in your hearts set apart Jesus Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope you have. But do this with gentleness and respect."

Luke 12:12 and Luke 12:15--> God will give us the words to say! xD

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

rebelious blog?

heys all,

Been busy la...Actually I wanted to blog yesterday but then I was so preoccupied in building my other blog...My school has this blog competition la, so I decided to collect the posts written about my school and put it into 1 blog...I guess I just wanted the school to know that I don't really like it. Shout out in the form of a blog.Yeah, crazy I know, risking my reputation in school...I don't think I'll win but it's just a rebelious thing la..muahaha

I didn't put in the "Abuse" parts la...cause I didn't write those on the internet.
The abuse I mean is they made us stand under the rain twice already. Literally! Students stood 10 minutes under the pouring rain while they(the teachers) were under the roof.

First incident was the Librarians' and Prefects' installation. The Librarians were under the rain la...the Absurd thing was a Big Shot Police Inspector was present and he DIDN'T do anything about it, all he cared was that he was out of the rain! Useless, I tell you! Not sure of his name la. Malay, short and fat--> Chief inspector Shahrizan
Second time was when the trainee teachers leaving us...we were forced to stand under the rain just to hear those trainee teachers goodbye speech and they even got time to take picture!
COME ON! What NONSENSE is this?
hmm, maybe I might just write it in that blog.
FYI: this is the blog

Friday, July 3, 2009

May Angelou

I'm A Christian
May Angelou

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."

I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on..

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,

My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say.... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say.... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,

I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!

Share this with somebody who already has this understanding, as reinforcement. But more importantly, share this with those who do not have a clear understanding of what it means to be a Christian, so that the myth that Christians think they are "perfect" or "better than others" can be dispelled.

Thursday, July 2, 2009


Hi kawan-kawan,
My school is always changing the school timetable la, that's not the only thing changing! Even the time has been extended from 2.30pm, 3pm, 3.30pm, 4.15pm, and now the latest time being 5.25pm.Gila duh!
With the new timetable in activation now there's extra class(Kelas NADI) on Saturdays la...And not forgetting MR NANDA's compulsory economy classes on SUNDAYS. Wah, that means literally everyday also got school...But as for me, I am NOT going for NADI CLASSES ON SATURDAYs. NO WAY!unless it's Mr Nanda's class la...
What's with "lectures, tutorial, R&D, and colloquium"...and what's with going back at 3.50pm on Friday? This is crazy la.

Ok, now onto a different topic.
Today as I was in the car at Brickfields waiting la for the traffic light to turn green, I saw an old Malay blind lady on the other side of the road. She looked so helpless and was holding out her hand.
I don't know if she wanted to get a taxi or if she wanted someone to help her cross the road. My heart went out to her and my heart was filled with pity for her. I helplessly watched the helpless poor blind lady calling for help. I wanted to help her but I was in the car and at the traffic light, I can't just come out of the car like that. I saw many people walk pass her but
not noticing her.
This reminded me of the people of the world who are putting out their hands and waiting for someone to lead/help them...But somehow the Christians do not notice them and just walk pass them.