Sunday, November 7, 2010

SCC 7s

tag

team Malaysia


my first try :)

I scored My first INTERNATIONAL TRY! Woohoo!

We traveled by car to singapore on thursday night and stayed at Rucksack Inn on Hong Kong street. http://www.rucksackinn.com/rucksackinn.html

Singapore Criket Club (SCC) International Rugby 7s tournament.
Friday morning, we walked under the rain to the PADANG, <--that's the venue name wor. Malaysia played against Indonesia in our first game. We won with scoring 45-0. That means 9 tries...yeah, including my try! My first try as a National player! Fuyoh...but, 18 points gone because we failed all 9 conversions, the field was too wet for the ball to bounce ma.
Malaysia and Indonesia

Our second game was with Singapore. We lost 29-0. It was kind of my fault la, the Singapore girls used the gap that I created as a winger.

The next day, I played the hooker position (don't think nonsense ok!) , Woah, susah betul, I barely managed to get a single ball out of the scrum. I was kind of lost when we had to realign cause I seldom play as a forward too. Sorry, team Malaysia. XC
An India player tackled me at the neck...ish ish ish. Another time, after I tackled one Indian girl, another Indian girl sat on me and I couldn't move. The referee kept saying "Tackler, roll away. Blue tackler"...I was stuck there la, how to move leh? Haiz...
Anyway, India beat us by 10-0.

The bowl finals(5th n 6th place). We faced Indonesia again. I scored my second try! Wow...
But, i must admit that Indonesia improved a lot when we faced them the 2nd time. We won by 37-0 thus winning the bowl and securing the 5th place in this SCC rugby 7s tournament.


Oh, it's time to study now...My final exam starting on 22nd Nov and ends on 3rd dec.
Time to face the book instead of facebook-ing.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

impressions

My room mate, Akiko said I'm an emo person...
Then Jodie said I'm sentimental cause I still write letters.
According to Akiko,, Only Emo people can write letters...O.o, impressions...
Most of my college mate who knows me knows that i'm a bit anti-baju kurung...So, every Wednesday they get surprised when they see me wear Baju Kurung.

Yesterday, somebody asked me to smile but don't show my teeth...It was hard. It took a lot of shots to get the shot..hahahaha
Maybe cause I seldom smile nowadays...Most of my smiling pictures can see teeth wan...I guess it's also because of the "Cheese"...can see teeth when we say cheese.

my classmates call me Rihanna.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

2quit or Not?

i feel like quiting PALAPES...not sure ..see la.
the main issue is timing.


ACT(annual camp training) is on 11-24th dec.
malacca 12 hour walk is on 11,12 dec
softball penang open is on 9-12 dec
rugby on 16 n 18 dec


disadvantages:
I miss church on saturday (4pm) and sunday (9am). Sometimes CF on friday (12.30pm or 2pm)
saturday rugby training (10am).


benefit:
participate in outdoor activities almost at no cost...just need to pay a small amount of money and food and accommodation is provided. Discipline.

Monday, November 1, 2010

Rajah Mountain

The mountain we climb. Navy Fomdex (Fitness Orientated and Mental Development EXercise)

It took about 1 and a half day to reach the peak, more than 16 hours. We camped at night. Ate ration or in malay "rangsum" which is the army food. Hiked in the dark. We could see the first world hotel(the colorful hotel), Genting Highland from the peak of the Rajah mountain.

Walking and walking for so many hours...when will we reach?

I used to love outdoor activities but now i don't understand why i don't enjoy physical activity so much anymore?

more info on d mountain:http://www.ogkl.com.my/infoGUNUNG/infoRajah.htm

Gunung Rajah, Bentong, Pahang
Gunung Rajah ini, satu-satunya gunung di Bentung. Negara pernah gempar dengan berita pendaki-pendaki dipanah petir di puncak gunung ini suatu masa lalu.

Air Terjun Camang
Kawasan rekreasi air terjun ini sering dikunjungi orang ramai. Walaupun jalan berturap ke air terjun ini agak sempit namun kemudahan tempat letak kereta yang disediakan cukup besar. Gerai-gerai dan kemudahan awam lain turut disediakan disini terutama pada hari minggu dan cuti umum. Pendaki boleh bermandi-manda di jeram deras tetapi awas air pusar dibawah air terjun ini.

Trek ke gunung ini mula dari jalan balak tinggal 1KM sebelum tiba ke Air Terjun Camang. Namun bagi pendaki yang ingin memulakan pendakian dari Air Terjun Camang, boleh memintas trek balak tersebut dengan mendaki bukit di belakang Pejabat Ranjer hingga ke trek balak. Walaupun trek untuk mendaki bukit ini agak mencanak tetapi rata-rata sepanjang trek balak adalah landai sahaja.

Formasi gunung dilihat dari permatang

Setengah jam berjalan pendaki akan melintas satu penempatan baru orang asli, trek balak agak mendaki sedikit, awas anjing yang datang ke arah anda. Seterusnya pendaki akan melalui zon pokok orkid ungu yang tumbuh sepanjang tepi trek hingga satu kawasan lapang (bekas kongsi tinggal). Kenalpasti trek ke gunung memandangkan ada beberapa simpang disini.

Trek kemudian agak redup tapi masih di bekas trek balak, checkpoint seterusnya cuma bekas tapak khemah kecil (kem site pertama), dari sini pendaki boleh melihat puncak G. Rajah, beberapa langkah kedepan ada anak sungai merentangi trek. Beberapa minit perjalanan seterusnya ada satu simpang denai tidak jauh disebelah kiri.

Sebelum & selepas air bah di atas air terjun Naning

Setengah jam kemudian pendaki akan bertemu sungai berjeram. Pendaki perlu meneruskan pendakian dengan melintas sungai ini. Awas juga, air sungai ini akan menjadi deras apabila hujan dihulu. Walaupun sungai ini bukan sungai Y tapi pertemuan sebatang sungai lagi disini seperti huruf Y.



Air terjun mini, sumber air terakhir

Air Terjun Naning/Nading
Air terjun ini merupakan checkpoint seterusnya kira-kira setengah jam dari cross sungai pertama. Kem site berada seberang sungai di bahagian atas air terjun Naning berdekatan dengan sungai. Air sungai dingin dan nyaman tapi awas air sungai akan menjadi begitu deras apabila hujan di hulu. Trek dari air terjun ke agak landai, pendaki tidak perlu menggunakan tangan mahupun dagu untuk memanjat.

3-5 jam trekking dari Air Terjun Nading, pendaki akan tiba puncak satu permatang, jika cuaca baik dan cerah pendaki akan nampak dinding batu yang membentuk formasi gunung Rajah serta puncaknya. Berada diatas puncak bermakna pendaki perlu turun ke lurah sebelum mendaki kembali. Cabaran seterusnya adalah mendaki dinding batu 90 darjah tegak. Tali yang sedia diikat membantu pendakian.

Sumber air terakhir (Last Water Point) berada tidak jauh dari trek, deruan air terjun mini boleh didengari. Hanya beberapa langkah dari trek pendaki boleh pergi mengambil air bekalan. Setengah jam berikutnya pendakian agak mencanak, pendaki perlu menggunakan tangan untuk memanjat dan memaut pada akar-akar yang merentangi trek hingga sampai ke puncak.

Batu sfera di puncak
Puncak G. Rajah
Kem site puncak berada tidak jauh sebelum pendaki sampai ke puncak gunung. Panorama di puncak menarik dengan sudut pandangan 360 darjah serta angin di puncak bertiup dingin. Puncak ditandakan dengan satu batu tanda seperti bola / sfera terbenam ditengah batuan di puncak.

log:
Air Terjun Chamang - rumah orang asli - 1/2 jam
rumah org asli - kem site pertama - 1 jam
kem site pertama - coss sg pertama 1/2 jam
cross sg pertama - Air Terjun Naning - 1/2 jam
Air Terjun Naning - puncak permatang, 3 jam
puncak permatang - last water point - 1 jam
last water point - puncak Rajah- 1/2 jam.

Hasil & Sumber:
Khairul Annuar dan Apip Embi

Photo:
Hadzrey (Arey) & Eryn

Friday, October 29, 2010

silly me

Let me tell you of the silliest mistake i did this year!

My camera was inside the washing machine without me realizing.
It was in from the beginning of the wash all the way to the end. A full wash of 80 minutes. Turbo dry. Medium water pressure. Not to forget that there was Detergent mixture in the wash too.

My camera was full with battery and memory card. Wrapped inside the camera cover.

I guess the fact that the camera was inside the cover, so less damaged by the spinning and less impact on the camera body especially the screen.

How did it get into the washing machine? I left my camera in my laundry bag. I just chuck out all the content of the bag into the washing machine. My camera was the last to be put inside the bag therefore the first to fall inside the washing machine and the weight of the camera help it get to the bottom part of the washing machine.

bottom part means the first to be immersed in water and therefore the longest period to be immersed in water.

Only when i was taking out the clothes to be dried did I see my camera!
Aiyah...so how?
Take out the battery and memory card... let all 3 dry. Didn't touch it for a week already. Battery sort of rusted. Buy new battery. Luckily i Didn't use rechargeable battery or not really wasteful to throw the battery away loh. Can on but cannot function normal thus meaning not dry enough la. Gonna leave it for 1 more week to dry

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

pay


Ptptn money has come in :)
but my account is not fully cleared :(
Ptptn didn't pay rm260.40...
This UM also quite bad one, first say they won't charge if we add and drop course during the add and drop period...see, see, they bluff only. Besides that, Suddenly only UM charge extra for pelarasan and extra tuition fee for the added subject discreetly, no notification.
In the beginning UM charged about RM2400++, then now suddenly UM charging me RM 2600.

Um website also one more thing, one page said i owe nothing, another page said i owe rm1.60, Another page said i owe rm260.40. I also don't know which one to believe but better langsaikan the biggest amount to be safe la.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

asgmt

Today was my first day in University where i was not paying attention in class. I felt so sleepy and didn't want to sleep in class. Fighting the sleepy feeling and trying my best to stay awake meant focusing more on not falling asleep rather than focusing in class. I felt like i was not respecting the lecturer. I feel sad and guilty.

Don't get me wrong, the class was not boring. It was a Wednesday. Palapes day meaning wake up at 5pm and full day of classes till night at 10pm ish. Tired, sleepy.
Fighting the urge to sleep is tough!

There was a fire drill again in University but this time, it was at my faculty: sports centre.

Assignment, assignment. Something to comment about! My group was the last to pass up the assignment and we passed it up LATE! The lecturer asked me why? My group was the first to get the assignment but last and late to pass it up.

My tears in my eyes were so ready to flood down. ;'(

My group is made up of 3 members; me and 2 guys.

My group have not even printed out the assignment! I felt like a really unlucky person.
Do you know why? Well, I already did my part and gave it to my other team members to edit or add pictures or combined with whatever they were to do or come up with. I gave the info last month already! Last month!

Every time I ask them to meet up to discus or find info, they will have fantastic reasons and tell me not to worry la...They are very busy with their own uni life activities...Happening people...haha. So, I just take my own initiative to do whatever I can.

Last week I reminded them that we have to pass up the project today. They didn't seem to care, "Aiyah, still got time lah"

Yesterday, I reminded them to print out. Then one of the guy keep sms-ing me, asking me what to do. I was like,"Hello! I did my part, now it's your turn to do yours. The least you can do is find some pictures. Use your rational la, do whatever you want to do. Please stop asking me what to print and what to do. Every single thing also ask me. Like as though I'm a bossy perfectionist and everything need my permission and it's my masterpiece."

Actually maybe, he wants to be spoon fed or if anything goes wrong, can just say "Hilda suruh"

Today morning in class, when everyone was handing up the project, my group not yet even print out!

You know what? Both the boys didn't do anything! On top of that, one of the guy deleted my document from his pen drive...luckily the other guy and I still had the soft copy in ours. I also thank God the lecturer gave us 20 minutes break. So print the at least 3/4 of the assignment! Didn't print out in color some more! Haiz! Due to the unprinted methodology and front cover, so we still could not hand in the project.

During the break, they kept asking me what to do and what to print...I feel frustrated inside but outwardly i kept my cool and didn't show it.

After everyone except us handed in their assignment, they had to do presentation verbally and I was so ready for it but the lecturer didn't let our group, because we did not pass up the assignment yet and most probably my fellow group mates would not be able to answer any question or explain anything about our presentation since they didn't do anything...I felt really down ;( :( XC

after a few hours when the class was over, we handed in everything i did. What they did? Last second(not even minute) of Finding UM logo, writing our names on the front cover and pay for the project printing!

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

life is like rugby



Either you play as a team or you will die as individuals!
This is from a sky sports advertistment for rugby, it's based on a speech by Al pachino from any given sunday and adapted for rugby.

Monday, October 18, 2010

softball vs rugby

heys all, UM's internet has been quite bad. Anyways, I played softball for my college on Saturday n sunday (16,17 oct 2010). We got third place.
To be honest, i was the worst in catching balls and throwing balls in my team. Not enough people, so I was selected loh.

I came out with my theory that softball is more dangerous than rugby. I sprain both my ankle, and scape my right knee...sliding to home base when opponent standing or sitting on the home base without the ball. So, terseliuh ankle n terkikis skin...

Another incident is the flyball landed on a pitcher's head. OUCH! tears all flooded out.

Softball ball is hard and small. It is often hit by the bat or thrown by hand, in both cases the fast traveling of the ball increases the pain level if one gets in contact with the ball with no protection.

Whereas in rugby, the ball is bigger and even if thrown or kick at a high speed, the pain caused by direct contact without protection is less compared to the softball ball.
Ok, rugby is a lot of contact with people...i think people contact is still less dangerous than a hardball hitting you at a high speed lor.

so here's the question,
which is more dangerous?
A small hard ball flying at you at a high speed or people trying to make you fall to the ground?

Monday, October 11, 2010

nike 10 km city run

Nike 10km city run.
KL vs Singapore.i was a volunteer.Arrived at KLCC area at 10.30pm.registration.Given a crew card. Must keep it properly cause use that card to collect pay later after the whole event is over!
Got supper and free flow of drinks. Free pastry too.
there was songs, movie and games.movie
some people slept, too tired i guess...

Fireworks because 10.10.2010

Sher Ai briefing us...
Briefing was funny. Universal language is smile. Don't simply answer if you don't know. If you don't know just smile, say you are a volunteer and you don't know. Don't shout to the police or RELA people even though they don't know much because they are always mesra, cepat dan BETUL! ^^
The gathering into group part was a bit unorganized. anyway, get into groups, distribute breakfast and shirt and crew passes. Disorganized but running out of time so just accept what is given...wrong crew pass..hehecrew pass

I was under water station 3. Move towards the station.It was at the 4km route so both 10km runners and 5 km runners also we met although we were specially located at the 5km route runners.
arrive at water station...Open ice and arrange cups and pour 100 +.waiting for runners..rest first...everyone had a short nap.

There were pom pom girls there too.

wait for runners and pass them drinks. Cheer them too.

walk back to volunteer gathering area, wait for everyone and then collect money! RM60
rest while waiting for volunteers to come back
lining up to collect RM60 and get this nike icon! XD

Friday, October 8, 2010

I Promise



Test time has come, so far i pass ngam ngam la, now waiting for a few more results then if i do fail as in less than half marks, I will have to go back to Amma's house and run 10x up n down d road with no rest. Because i made a promise with Robin that if I fail any test or exam, i will run 10x up n down the jalan Jejawi non stop. Same goes to Robin if he fails any test or exam he will have to run 10x up and down the whole jalan Jejawi non stop, no rest.

What a promise right? Robin is now 10 years old. He's super confident that he will not fail any subject in his whole life. While I on the other hand do think that I will fail some test in Uni.











this is a picture of Robin Hood

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

uplifting day

Today i received many encouragement and support from my friends through Facebook, they all just tanya khabar but end up telling me not to give up on God.
"When you fall down, get back up smooth like a hero, not like an elephant..LoL."
"Dunno where you are right now, but whatever it is, don't let yourself burnout okay.
i'm not sure what the cause is, but yeah, if you're going through a period of 'dryness'... I'm sure you know, God is still with you, just as He is in other times, and He definitely loves you just the same.

don't let yourself slip away from spending time with the person that loves you most. but don't let yourself feel guilty over not spending enough time with Him etc. He's not a slave driver as far as i know, otherwise I'd be a total failure as well :).

hope things work out for you, and that you'll feel His love for you even at this moment. He loves you unconditionally!"

then today i suddenly felt like going to visit my old blog, i mean my form 6 blog. I was really surprised to see so many comments on one of my blog post and it was mostly in Chinese...all giving me morale support, supporting me. Yen Ping translated the comments for me.thank you.

I feel so terharu that got so many strangers uplifting me and giving me encouragement.

Besides that, the blogpost was written on march 3rd, 2010 but the comments were still flowing till august 20th.

there was some comments that said they feel happy reading my post and can't wait for my next post.

however there were 2-4 comments which were not relevant...the comments on my post were too many that these certain people thought it's a chatbox..LoL.


So, should i revive my form 6 blog by continuing it with Uni life? I dono...my motive of the form 6 blog was to condemn my school wor...

Monday, October 4, 2010

changed

Palapes Navy kem induksi was great. Not as teruk as i imagined but turns out my body was not as strong as i imagined it to be.

As i enter Uni life, many things changed.
I don't like to smile anymore...
No semangat anymore..
much thin and less appetite..
easily tear,
almost don't seem to care about things,
Feel like giving up and letting go easily but the voice inside my head tells me, "Come on, you're better than that, you know you still can carry on, Don't give up just because of little things."

To be serious, I wanted to Keluar baris aka Quit Palapes Laut...NOt because of the rigouros activity but simply because of the fact they are trying to Malay-ized me. Must put hand up when they pray, must wear long sleeve, must wear innerwear aka the hand sleeve to cover aurat....maybe next time, they will tell me to wear tudung! Besides that, i also wanted to quit Navy because it really takes away my sports time...Sukmum-->SUKan Mahasiswa UM and rugby trainings or rugby competitions la.

By the way, SUKMUM started already. It's like a month long of sports day...inter college sports la...when i say college i mean the hostel in UM aka Kolej Kediaman(KK). There are 12 KK in UM, I'm living in the 11th. The whole month of October is SUKMUM

People are telling me that I changed and most often these changes they refer to are negative. They said Kecewa, disappointed and sad with me.

I tell you, I'm also kecewa with myself.

I never knew I can change so negative so fast.

Deep inside i know that The main cause of this negative changed is the JOY of my Heart has gone, I neglected HIM.

Friday, October 1, 2010

halau some1 4rm their own room

Wednesday is the most busiest day of my week. The program starts at 6am-->Palapes Watches. There's a bit of kawad and then sing patriotic songs and accouncement, some what like perhimpunan but just PALAPES only...both the army(darat) and the navy(laut).

Then it's followed by a series of class/lectures. Lunch break and then lectures till evening. Break for dinner and then class till 10pm.

Now that's what you call full time student! LoL

So, by the time the day ends, i feel cranky...recently one of my room mate was chatting with her friend through some chat application like skype on a wednesday night all the way to Thurday 3am...About 3am, I told her to go to the study room and chat cause there's no one there. I wanted to sleep la, if she did it on a friday or weekends I really wouldnt mind.

After that, i felt really bad la...it's like I halau-ing a person out of her own room! Maybe I'm selfish and don't know how to tolerate? After all, it is her room, she should be allowed to do whatever she wants.
Now I know that i don't have enough patience...feel really sad and a bit of regret that I did what i did. Need to learn to control myself more.

Monday, September 27, 2010

Jonah Jones

hey hey, Jonah Jones was great. Saturday and Sunday 25-26th Sep 2010.

I performed my best in the first game against Singapore's nanyang tech uni(NTU), A lot of good tackles and yeah, pretty good defense. But I developed a bad habit of sliding people...ish ish ish..
We had a total of 3 games on saturday. 7s a side, 7 minutes play, 1 min rest, 7 min play.

The next day was quite bad for I was feeling really OFF, my body was aching and i felt unusually weak, I just knew something was wrong with me. Felt super duper weak...I wanted to call my coach n tell him "hi coach, i'm feeling unwell, i am not coming today, i'm so sorry ya" but i didn't cause i know that is irresponsible and unethical.

I'm in the 2nd team aka the development team..Wild Cats (lol, reminds me of High School Musical)
In my team, I'm one of the few fit players so it's important for me to not get hurt or injured cause got no substitute for me. We play as a team and lose as a Team, there's no I in Team...so, i went to play on sunday despite knowing that i won't be able to function at optimal performance that day.
Wei said I looked like i had a hangover...hangover face..tired
During warm up, i felt really tired and felt like vomiting. Coach said if you feel like vomiting, go and vomit la, so Right before the game I went to vomit, i felt a bit better after that but still really tired. (Coach Haflil said it's dehydration)

In the match, on the first ruck in the first few minutes , when i fell to the ground, i didn't want to get up and i just wanted to lie down there. But i knew that it would be selfish and irresponsible as i still could go on and furthermore there is no substitute player for me. So, after a few lagging moments on the ground, i forced myself to get up and get on with the game by convincing myself, "Come on mun foong, don't give up so easily, don't give in to yourself. You're much better than that. It's a team sports, there's no I in team, don't let the team down. come on, get up and get on with the game!"


I realised vomiting takes up some energy too...LoL
I scored my first try! Fuyoh, tired tired like that also still can run 50 m n score a try!

and after the game, i went and vomited again...
pale face, exhausted, tired and feeling really lousy. No appetite too.


When i went home, i felt like vomiting a few times but i told myself, "Don't vomit la, you ah what did you eat the whole day? oat crackers, 2 mouthful of chicken rice, 2 bites of banana and 2 bites of a piece of bread...if you vomit, there's practically nothing in your stomach."

LoL, like that also i can think...

anyway, my mom didn't let me go back to uni cause of this worryingly sick condition...so i was under observation by my mom.

thank God, everything was back normal on monday!

wah, dehydration really sucks yeah...

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

lamb

Here's an emo blog post

I'm so fed up, I'm so changed.

I just wanna say "Whatever!" and then move on.

I don't know what to do.
Should i just ignore the person or should i reply and say what i want to say...very hurtful words
That person just thinks about herself and thinks the world is all about her.
She forgets that there are other things besides her in the planet we live in.
She's also demanding and I really had my patience pushed to the limits.



But how cruel it would be for me to inflict sorrow on that certain wounded lamb?
I know I have a responsibility to take care of His Sheep, especially the one that are unique and require more special care but this is all just too much.

I wanna throw that sheep into someone else's pen, Abandon it. I started ignoring it,
But the love the sheep has for the caretaker is more than the love the caretaker has for the sheep as the sheep keep coming back.

I know my LORD loves her too, but she doesn't really love Him. And now this burden or this responsibility has caused me to indirectly "hate" my LORD.


I can never really understand fully the meaning of AGAPE aka Sacrificial Love.
Imagine that Jesus loved us although we didn't love Him, Jesus loved us so much that He laid his life down for us to have eternal life. The love so much as to be willing to sacrifice everything, including One self.


Isaiah 45: 4, 5

4 For the sake of Jacob my servant,
of Israel my chosen,
I summon you by name
and bestow on you a title of honor,
though you do not acknowledge me.

5 I am the LORD, and there is no other;
apart from me there is no God.
I will strengthen you,
though you have not acknowledged me,

Monday, September 20, 2010

Change

Today evening, i managed to get one of my room mate to go exercise...haha...just walking la...walked on the jogging route but it wasn't the slow and lazy normal type of walk, it was a fast pace walk...

My room mates made me remember that i haven't post any pic of them yet..so, here it goes:
me, Akiko, Fiona, Ru Shan

By the way, Ru Shan left us, she left UM to go to a Uni in UK...
Apparently, she's gonna chase her dreams...the course she got in UM was not the one she wanted...

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Next topic:

Just today evening i received an SMS from someone i know...
She was upset with me, she said I have changed so much in a bad and negative way that i am no longer the HILDA she used to know! She asked me WHY?

I gotta admit I wasn't a bit surprise at the sms...cause i knew each word she wrote was the truth.


In my heart I wanted to reply her, "Yalor, the time u got to know me was when i was a strong Christian but now I'm less than half of a Christian...the only reason why I'm still aware of God's presence in my life is because of people who love me sooo much and praying for me.
Emjhay Pabilona from Philippines
whom i knew through mission trip and
Amanda Ho whom I knew from Girls Camp
"

Even as i was showering, i was thinking of how different a person i am now. It is true, I'm rude, straight to the point, easily agitated and irritated. I take advantage aka take things for granted. Feel so fed up with unique people...very different change indeed. I feel so fed up of layanning nonsense.
UM, away from church and rugby are just reasons...external factors.
The change is from inside...laziness, justification, no more integrity, taking things too lightly and fed up. Maybe prayer and Quiet time is a big fraction too?

So, starting tomorrow i think i wanna make a change! try my best not to be rude..try a little kindness...


Saturday, September 18, 2010

fun holiday

This holiday was very family oriented :)
There was not a day i spent alone! It's with my elder sis, elder bro, younger bro, mom and dad.
Nostalgic, a lot of old memories revisited and new ones made. I really love doing things with my siblings, even when we have nothing to do,the time spent with them is enough for me.

A camera lesson from my sis' bf:
1. Take the background, not just people cause if you wanna take people pictures. at home also can take.
2. It's ok to be flexible to find the right angle, don't just stand in one place moving the camera up and down.

On the space shot, peer pressure still exist..haha. My bro and I sat at the sides and there was a girl who sat in between us, when we reached the tio and put up our hands, the girl looked to the left and saw my bro putting up his hands, then she look to the right and saw me putting up my hands so she also put up her hands...LoL.

The best memory of this holiday is Tommy encouraging me, my elder brother telling me to believe and have trust, to be confident.

Going on the space shot and roller coaster, with my bro's encouragement I had the courage to let go and trust the system. Holding onto the bars was the sign of not trusting and insecure of the protection offered.

This also taught me something spiritual...Learn to believe, trust God. Let go, Learn to have faith in God. Stop being insecure. Be confident in Him, He will keep you safe and His protection is not fragile.

Monday, September 13, 2010

unproductive n boring holiday?

heys all,

happy Raya..

okeys, for all you folks out there who hates holidays and call it boring and unproductive, I got something to say to you.

First of all, the word Holiday comes from the word HOLY day. Usually a religious event and usually it's a rest day...Sabbath... A day where you stop from all mundane work and dedicate the day to your respective God/s.

Nowadays we always hear about a boring and unproductive holiday...Why? Cause there's no internet access? Cause you didn't do any work or assignment or etc?

Let me tell you that holidays are suppose to be work free->a day to halt and rest, Come on, i mean you keep complaining there's not enough time and you're too busy, now when you're given a day/s off you complain, you feel you're wasting time...
Hey, even God rested on the 7th day...Don't you think it's time to rest from your work?

Maybe it's all the teachers fault...they give us holiday homework, assignment and so everyone suddenly becomes workaholics and feels restless if they don't do anything during the holidays! Therefore holidays which are suppose to be rest from work somehow turns into "unproductive holidays"

A time you suppose to spend with your family and people by bonding, talking, helping, having fun with people especially family members or special people in our life suddenly turns into work at home, stuck in front of screens, contacting colleagues, work and worried about due dates.
A time of rest turns into a time of work.

Now that defeats the whole purpose of having a break!

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Him

THe stoRY of the Him.

Yesterday night the elder man said "You don't know a lot, you don't understand, you was not there. There's a lot of things we cover from you so that you won't hate him so much"

"So, to you, you can bring yourself to see him as someone good. But you don't know...all what happened"

I know there's truth in each and every word spoken by the elder man and i do believe the elder man.

"To us, he was just a stranger."

"Have you ever celebrated his birthday?"

"We tried, waited for him till midnight but he never came back, we bought cake, decorated the house and all, 3 years we waited to celebrate his birthday but on the fourth year we gave up."

"He gambled everything, while his wife worked her ass off trying to support her children."
"He went to Genting Highland to gamble and borrowed money from loan sharks, almost every week the loan sharks will come to the house to ask where is he, the loan shark wanted to collect debt"
"What he did? He had an affair with the Philippine maid..a married man with 5 children!"
" His wife worked, worked and worked. He brought different women to the house and f**k in the house! Many different women. I saw with my own 2 eyes. I was still a young child that time.
He doesn't even work or provide for the family. All he can do is Talk. Did you ever remember him doing anything for you? Yet he still has the nerves to ask money from his wife."

"Why they didn't divorce? Family pride, dignity, maruah keluarga. The wife thought of the children."

"While you were away, you didn't know he went missing for a few years. When he came back, the wife said if he wants to stay, he has to drive his children to school. To you, he is your driver, Without the agreement, you even think he would send you to school? He wouldn't be the least bothered."

"What do you even know about him?"
"There's so much more that you don't know. You call him now and ask him where is he? What is he doing?"

"That day when he physically hit and fought with his 3 eldest children, what were you 2 doing? Crying, you're were too young to understand. We all wanted to kill him that time."

"He knows he cannot speak or even look at the 3 eldest children's eyes because they knew what he did."

"But to the 2 youngest children who don't know much about what he did to the family, you 2 are his last hope..."


Recently I read in the newspaper of a kasanova, who could sweet talk and cheat many women of their money...

But seriously, when people ask me about him, I don't know what to answer. In the most polite way i can say is "He's not a good role model"

I will never forget my 18th birthday! the welcome to adulthood. Of all the days in the year, he choose to reveal that he has another family. Welcome to REALITY...

Sometimes, just to make myself feel better, I tell myself, Maybe the reason he's not in the house always and not caring about us is He's a spy? "If i tell you, I have to kill you or I'll put you in danger"
LoL, watching too much television.

Friday, September 3, 2010

cadet

okies, Sorry for the lateness in blogging.

Actually wanted to blog about my Palapes Laut interview at Port Klang, and I took an oath not to reveal Government secrets...LoL, I'm not sure if the interview is considered Gov Secrets though...so, I'll keep it general and blog about something else.

btw Palapes is an acronym for PAsukan LAtihan PEgawai Simpanan. In English, it means Reserve Officer Training Unit. In Layman's term it's Reserve Soldiers la...I'm in the reserved Navy.

Here's the purpose of the Gov having Palapes in local Uni...In times of emergency or DARURAT, we will be absorbed in the armed force if the Gov doesn't have enough manpower loh.

I passed the interview although i almost purposely tried to fail it by being totally truthful. So, now I'm officially a cadet.

The seniors asked us to buy some of our uniform first by using our own money :'(
The seniors told us to estimate what is our size for some uniform...no measurement, just estimate, sure wrong size loh.

Our shoelaces have to be in a particular pattern.

In the NAVY, everything has to be the same...same shoes, same everything, even notebook and pen has to be the same.

Clothes must always be clean and ironed...Use starch to harden the clothes so that it won't look sloppy.

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Mr John Chandra(my 'basic excercise science' lecturer) told us if any boy can do 10 chin up in Mr Chandra's style or if any girls can do 5 chin up, he will award them 10 marks for our individual practical test. We have 6 weeks to train.
I can't even do 1 chin up yet. Now it brings new meaning to the sentence "You've got to work for your marks"
I've gotta start training.

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My rugby coach said I am showing no improvement. Ouch, need to do something about it, but WHAT? Maybe try kicking or improve balancing or play more catching...main kejar-kejar, so agility improve.

K la, gotta ciow now, got assignment to finish up.